Merry Christmas baby! God, wish you were here this morning to see girls open up their gifts. You were here in your spirit though...somehow I felt you ! I put my arms around them this morning for you. They got what they asked for gift-wise. Just wish I could make all this rite for them. I can't! No gift they get... Can give them what we really want today... You here with us! I'm making rounds later for them. I know it's what you'd want me to do. So merry Christmas babe.. Enjoy the music up there...❤️❤️❤️

Merry Christmas dad!i miss you! I am listening to your favorite song!Standard American Gunnar and the Grizzley Boys!!!!sumbit*h!!!!have a happy Christmas in heaven!!!❤️❤️

Good night my love!!❤️

It's after 9 on Christmas Eve. Your dad, Todd, Judy and kids if course; and uncle Richy were here tonight . John and sue and jenny stopped by too. Lonly tonight for me babe . Roast turned out good... Think you'd be pleased!:) I'm watching ' Christmas story ' now too. The usual stuff. I'm holding up for the girls but this year is hell on me!!! I love you and I'll talk to you tomorow!

Merry Xmas Paul, Your family will miss you always till we all meet on the other side. Ann Marie is a wonderful girl and mom she will take good care of your girls Love you

I wake up feeling stuck. I know it's only been a week but I'm just lost without you babe!! Wrapped the girls gifts last nite and more to come. They will be getting what they asked for this year gift wise... But I just wish I could REALLY give them the gift of having you back. I know you didn't want this for us honey and we were your life!!!!!! I hope you were happy with yesterday... I tried to of it how you would have wanted , I really did. You always said " don't go crazy!" When it came to money... And you wouldn't have wanted me to ring up a crazy funeral bill. But what I kept in mind most is you wanted to be remembered as you were. I just hope you were pleased with how I did this. I feel I'm in the arm pit of hell now baby... And I miss you soo !!!!!!! I love you for all eternity and I'll talk to you by Christmas !!!!!!!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Day time is hard now and nights are even harder babe but I'm really trying! I know you didn't want to this if you knew!! We were everything to you baby and I know that!!!!!! We were all together yesterday at Todd's ( even Nancy came by!) were all just sick over this honey. Did you come to me in that dream I had nite before last?? Was it you holding me and wispering?????? Were you telling me your ok? I feel your presence honey and I'm just trying to get through... I love you for all eternity my love❤️❤️❤️❤️

Dad you dot know how bad I miss you! So I lay a flower here because you always liked planting and gardening with me.and remember that time when you toughte how to shoot a BB gun.that was fun.even tho I didn't really hit the actual target

I tried to up load a Lily I have been growing here for 3 years and it's blooming right now so I dedicate this Lily to you Paul. Sorry I couldn't upload it on here ...but hen I figure it out I will! <3 xo. BB )o(

i had fun times with you,you were for me for everything,thank you for the life you gave me.Ging gold mining on my birthday,taking me to botanical gardens,walking shebaa everynight,and the glen man was that fun! you were so happy when Kevin Harvick won the chase you were practically doing cartwheels i the street!!!!YOU EVEN MET HIM!hope you had a fun 41 years on Earth! i miss you so much :( <3 <3

God I miss you much baby!!! My heart is shattered you can't imagine!!! I vowed last nite at the funeral home, seeing you laying there, to take care of our girls and I ment it with all my heart and soul Paul Jon. I will focus on our good times ( many) ; forget our arguing or ' discussions ' as you called them! Lol but I know it's what you'd want for me now. God, Paul , I just don't know if I got the strength for this in me. I'm broken inside and I'm struggling each morning yesterday and today so far. I know it's been a few days only but I'm just lost!!!!!

Paul you were the greatest dad I know fir your girls and a wonderful husband to my niece, Scooter! I'll never forget your hilarious laugh and sparkling personality ! You are so very very missed, rest well until we all see you again on the other side! Love you soooo much Paul! Looks like God just needed another comedian up there to lighten he morale if his Angels! I can see you turning summer saults through the clouds! I rang a little bell for you so you can get your wings! Try not to fly to fast and lose your halo..hahahaha!  All the love and light in he world to you my sweet nephew !  I didn't put in-law thre be cuz you are more Han that to me! <3. Blessed Be sweetheart!

Good night my sweet love... ❤️