Moma, it is 5am, and I have you on my mind. I had another dream, and you were there. I can not remember things said, but seeing you, talking to You, let me know you are still with me, with us, as you always were. I have so much running through my mind, I can't quite find the next thing to say. I been finding how much you and Paulette favor in your younger years. That has been a joy for me, in trying to find joy. With this depression, I have had the toughest 3 years of my life. When I cry, I remember how much you headed loving tears, your heart for all was so active in feelings.
I truly believe that times when I cry, I think my siblings are doing it at the same time, sometimes. One thing for sure, in loosing you and Gail, we have found a deeper love for each other. Loosing you two, in sight only, has made us care more for one another. Me and Gerald have some type of misunderstandings, but my love for him does not waver from it. Coming up, we had our ups and downs, and we made it through them. Today, we hurt in unison, because our hearts are of togetherness that only we could have, missing You So much.
We talk on Facebook, and it is easy to see that we are Strong, together. I don't think any family on there communicate together as we do, your kids, Grand kids, and even Great Grand kids. Me and Mimi and poppy, we have laughs together about some of the things they found so funny you would do. Their memory is so sharp! We enjoy that laughter together, and that is one of the best times of my days. Sometimes we watch Martin together, and I think of how much laughter you got from seeing that Picture.
As you can see, I go up and down in my thoughts. Never with any consistency of either. I Love a You Moma! I will continue to see You from here on and even when the Lord call for me, God Grant it for All Your Namesake.
From God, Blessing You and Daddy, we are Many, and We are Strong!