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Bereavement

April 1, 2021


“In the midst of life we are in death”


An adage, a certainty, an eventuality. Knowing that the ultimate culmination of life results in us traversing back into the hands of our maker, we in the midst of life forget.


We forget we are mortal creatures of flesh, we forget we have graced this earth as guests and a time, day a moment will come as quick as a dash of lightening  and lift us into the clouds of mists; like we never existed.


I never imagined that  I would be riding the tumultuous, murky, sinking waters of grief and hope that one never has to.


What I’ve come to realise, that the one’s who are left behind in the wake of deep personal tragedies are left with guilt-Survivors guilt.


We are left with numbness, we are left with unanswered questions, we are left with consolation, we are left with hope; a never  ending cycle of a myriad of emotions which have no home.


As our precious ones transcend, the ones left behind transcend in a manner equally confusing. The sense of familiarity starting to fade, leaving the need to grapple, to seek to, to conjure a speck of the feelings you felt around them; and hence proceeds this numbing need to rummage through photographs, read messages, think of times past and ponder could I have foreseen it ? Could I have averted it? Did I do enough? Did I say enough? Did I express my love enough? Can she feel me? Can she feel my pain? Can she feel how much I’m going to miss her?


And then starts the process of living in the head and on autopilot disconnected from feelings. Cause to feel is to die all over again.


Poorti, I’m trying, everyday I’m trying to ascertain, to piece meal your legacy. Some days I’ll falter, some days you’ll look at me from above and think what a silly goose she is, if only she gets out of her head and into her heart will she know that I’ve made my home right here.


Guide, nudge me, berate me, love me, live with me because I will never let you go...



A FREIND who taught me about LIFE THN & taught me about LIFE now❤️

April 1, 2021
Dearest poorti,

I don’t know how start,  firstly Sorry( that’s from the heart, please forgive me)
I just can’t stop regretting that why didn’t I write to u earlier! You taught me how to live life thn and u taught me about life now! 
I had the most special two years of my life! My masters wouldn’t have been the same without you, jas, Divya, Priya and Satuti! I still remember The first conversation we had regarding a novel! Thanku for bringing out that side of me ! You were a great listener and an amazing advisor! All those bunk lectures and also helping to pass my exams! I owe a lot to you poorti! Those pinnochio pizza lunches to the fancy lunch dates we have done it all! All  I want to say is I MISS YOU TERRIBLY POORTI! You are gone too soon! love u ❤️ Meet you on the other side of the world

love: long lost friend who u made find those long lost friends❤️ I can’t Thanku enough!

The Cheerful Soul

April 1, 2021

Poorti.. spent just one year with her of M.A. English but the way she changed my life in just that one year can't be explained in words.
I loved the way she used to take my name and call me 'Satuta'. Her expressions, her dressing style, her voice everything was just so amazing about her. She was pretty, charming and full of life. I was inspired by the way she used to take life so positively. The path on which i walked with her gave me a complete makeover from a simple girl to a pretty confident one. We used to spend long hours together in her room doing all our chit chats which we never got bored off.
Why gone so soon.. why.. Can't explain how much i am missing her.
Love u Poorti.. always & forever.
March 31, 2021
                Poorti- My precious one

School lunch breaks were what made us friends. I was one of those kids who never ate their tiffin and she was the one who loved aaloo zeera and paneer Bhujiya ... I used to happily give her my lunchbox and in turn she gave me the most priceless friendship. We’ve been poles apart yet so similar but that’s the thing about her, she could feel your aching vein and that’s what she would connect to and that’s what made her the friend you couldn’t live without. 
She was the one I would day dream with.. and boy could we dream! In our many conversations about wanting to find someone who slipped right out of the pages of Judith , I once casually said I wish we find a tea totaler and she gave me the glance that could have swallowed me alive.. and then it followed.. don’t you dare wish so ill upon me and don’t you dare marry one ( you’re boring enough) ..I don’t like tea totalers!! The reason she approved my selection of husband was that he wasn’t a tea totaler and not just that, he managed to convince me to take a shot... “Mallika Bhagwan ne meri sun li... he’s perfect for you I like him already. “
She wasn’t just a friend who told you that the one you’ve chosen is perfect for you or this is the lehenga!  I’m telling you!  don’t even think twice. Not just the one holding your hand while you’re getting ready to walk down the aisle but the one who patiently listened and gave you her never ending wisdom while you deal with what comes after, as you try to adjust to this new phase of life.

She was my insta mock buddy and how much fun we’ve had having the most random conversation out of a completely irrelevant post ... also the one I would read poetry with ... 


We had a plan .. one day I was to write a cook book and she was going to write the foreword and proof read it. 
Mallika finish what you’ve started she would always say... but I don’t know how to finish anything let alone a book without vetting it through her . Poorti.. you filled my heart with so much love and then broke it like a bad lover boy.
Laters my darling!
Miss you this much And more...

Thank you team hachette publications !

March 31, 2021
Remembering Poorti Soni (July 1991-March 2021)

 

 

From Vatsala:

 

These past twelve months have been difficult for us all, and now it is with deep sorrow that I inform you all of the passing of our young former colleague, Poorti Soni.

 

Poorti first came to us as a bright, chirpy intern in early 2015, and after the internship was over I, always on the lookout for the young ones with a passion for children’s books and a love of the English language, took her on in the C&R division. Her CV said – ‘No prior work experience, but I am a hard-working person motivated to achieve my dream…’

Hard-working she was, and dreams she had, like anyone her age.  

 

She worked with the division as editorial assistant from 2015 to 2016, on many titles such as Words to Live by, The Six Spellmakers of Dorabji Street, the two volumes by Dhan Gopal Mukerjee, the Hachette School Skills Handbook, Meri Bindi and Mahabharata for Young Readers, among others, and they were the better for her contribution.

 

Poorti, often teasingly called ‘Poori’ and ‘Paratha’, was a cheerful, smiling girl, bold and straight-talking, a little packet of vivacious energy – with LOTS to say. She liked to dress up and routinely bring copious amounts of lemon chicken for hungry Hachetteers from Baba Chicken on the way back from her hometown Ludhiana, where she often went on weekends. She often talked of her brother and bhabhi, her friends’ weddings, and much about her ‘driverji’, who provided quite a few moments of hilarity. She loved books, and buying and collecting them, making a beeline for the second-hand booksellers at the World Book Fair and returning with bags of vintage editions.

 

Then she probably got tired of my slave-driving, or (so I like to think) found marketing more exciting, and moved on to that department as assistant marketing executive.

 

Poorti had mentioned her ailment – a brain-related issue – to some of us, and it seemed to be a time-bomb ticking in her head, but we all thought, like one does, that it would get better. That The Someone Up There would protect her, and make The Thing vanish, like in a children’s story, and everything would be fine. That was not to be.

 

About a fortnight ago, she collapsed with a haemorrhage, fell into a coma – and didn’t return. We lost her last week.

 

Poorti often made fun of my age – laughingly calling me ‘old’. I’d tell her that one day she would be as old as me, and then I would laugh back at her. I wish I had the chance to do that.    

 

I am certainly old enough to know well the cycle of life and death – but some losses happen too soon, too unfairly, too cruelly, and they are hard to accept, hard not to question – Why? Why her? Why so young?

 

Poulomi tells me that Poorti had recently completed a course in counselling recently and had many plans for the future. Dreams she had.

I’m told she had signed up to donate her organs should anything happen to her. Courage she had. Not only in the face of death, but also in the face of life.

 

In our busy schedules, moving to the turns and twists of the ever-winding keys of our daily lives, let us take a moment – to remember our young feisty colleague who gave us the opportunity to know her and work with her, to admire her generous heart and ways and friendship, and to share the grief of her tragically bereaved loved ones.    

 

And me

Poorti’s was the most unusual interview I’d ever done. After her stint in editorial she wanted to move to marketing and had (in those days) to go through an interview with me. It was the shortest interview I’ve ever done. She burst in and said “ Look You know me. I don’t know any marketing but I’ve been watching it and I know seekh jaaoongi. I love this place …please, please don’t send me away.” And she did learn and excelled at it. Poorti was like that.. the colleague who had you at hello. It’s difficult to think of somebody so full of life not being there anymore. But we’ll remember her always, as will anybody who’s crossed her path—for her energy, her charm, her ever smiling, get-it-done nature; and just for being one of the nicest people you had the good fortune to meet.

 

Our thoughts are with her family and hundreds of friends who will miss her.

 

R.I.P. Poorti.

 

TA

Infectious Smile and a heart of gold

March 31, 2021
Poorti had a heart of gold and a smile that could melt an ice berg in an instance. She was an avid reader and it was love for books that connected us. We would discuss authors and publications and then came a point when we were discussing our experiences in publishing houses.
Her laugh was infectious and I remember visiting her book exhibit in Pragati Maidan. She was all over the place and showed me around with so much spark in her eyes, whatever she did she put her heart and soul into it. 
I am sad I did not put enough effort to stay in touch but what little memories I have of her will forever stay with me. 
Keep spreading love wherever you are Poorti just like you made earth a better place by your presence I’m sure you’ll be spreading your magic up there too and I’m simply privileged to have had a friend in you 

Lots of Love
Sanchi

The Heart Beat

March 31, 2021
My first vivid memory of Poorti and everlasting one at that was on the steps of the kindergarden in Mussoorie international School ( a safe haven and the backdrop often lost cherished memories with poorti) 

Sitting in her track suit with a lavender pink cotton T-shirt with a big rain bow heart- that is who poorti was for me!! Beating for everyone else, caring for everyone else, nurturing everyone else, mothering everyone else. Well I have always been possessive  of her so I’m going to take the liberty of stating that she loved me most.

Endless hours dedicated to musings about life, the food she ate at Waverley, time spent at home, Sunday brunches with Raghav bhaiya at Park Plaza and holding each other up, was what my friendship with her was made off then.

The bossy girl that she is, insisted that I wake at 5:45 am in the peak of winter & then proceed to wake her highness up who would then waltz into the shower; whilst I lay in her bed- that’s the Poorti I know who has the magnanimity to make people lovingly oblige her. 

She was my agony aunt and I was hers. The twilight years of our life spent nestled in the coziness of the hills; already decided at age 17. 

She is my soul mate, the rationality to my volatility, the calm to my mercurial, the ether to my living! 

I am beyond blessed to refer to Poorti Soni as a best friend; the bestest friend one can ever have. 

Sending a truckload of love up into the higher dimensions my Poo make sure I receive a reciprocal package in return soon!!

Lots of love from every atom of being..

Aanchal Marwah. 



Behen.

March 31, 2021
 “A sister is both your mirror and your opposite”. -Elizabeth Fishel.

That was the perfect way to describe our relationship. I am not an eloquent writer, so I would go to my sister, Poorta for such things. We were raised together, we went to boarding school together, we have lived together for 10 years of our life. I’ve never called her my cousin, she was practically my twin. People still call me Poorti when they see me. We always used to joke about this - we can never live together but we can’t live without each other either. As every other sibling, we used to fight if we used to stay with each other for very long but we were so dependent on each other that our calls could go on for hours talking about everything. Everything. She knew me better than I knew myself, that’s why I used to go to her for all my decisions. I have so many memories of her, so much to share, which I’m going to try to pen here once a day till I run out of them. She knew how to handle me when no one could. She was my ‘person’, I never in my wildest dreams could imagine my life without her. How does one grieve for their sister?

Love you always Poorta.
Your didi (your kutti behen).

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