Lindsey Stewart July 3 ·   8 months without you today...it isn't getting any easier but for some odd reason, it isn't growing any harder. The love is growing evermore, and that is a beautiful thing. Talking about you is getting a little easier, because I talk about all of the things that remind me of you. Those things are really bright rainbows, messed up jokes, and generosity. Just a few to name off of the top of my head. But not seeing you is taking more of a toll than I thought it would. Grief does that. It hits in waves, some bigger than others, and it's gonna be like that. It's gonna keep being like that, and someday, trust me, I'll know how to push through every wave that tries to bring me down. But for now, I'm letting this one sink in. It's okay...well, for now.Hope you see this at some point. Send another sign when you have the chance. Love you. 

Very proud of Rachel and Adam . Every day a young man who is down on his luck comes in to their job and orders water. He eats out of different stores trash cans and wears the same clothes each day
Well the other day Rachel brought him meals at her job to eat and he told her that was the first real meal he had in a long time and was very grateful and than Adam did it the next day.and was also very happy to get the meal.
Yesterday their coworker came into work and gave him a backpack with clothes and beauty stuff. He smiled and was very happy. He was grinning ear to ear.
He does not stand on the street begging for money.he is just a lost soul.
The reason the kids did this is if this every happened to them their would want some one to do this for them. The kids and they coworker are very special

Today you would of been 18, so here is 18 things:
1) When you laughed your nose would flair and it would make us laugh even more 
2) You had the tendency to nonstop ask the same question over and over but it was not done to be annoying (usually)
3) You would always race me to see who could hug Jared first whenever he would come over 
4) When you couldn't sleep I would sing you "Somwhere Over the Rainbow"
5) I still hate the song "Castle On A Cloud" for auditions, and when you learned about that you learned the song just to drive me crazy
6) You would sneak in to my bed whenever I wasn't there, sometimes you would even when I was when we were younger
7) You liked wearing shorts and a t shirt out when it was snowing 
8) You and Adam would gang up on me and ruin recordings of me playing piano/singing, but I didn't mind looking back on it 
9) You were a little me until you became taller, then you were a taller me with a better taste in fashion 
10) You sometimes called me while I was at band in college and I would keep my phone on speaker and march with it like that so I wouldn't have to hang up on you
11) You once asked me if you could be the flower girl at my wedding, so that way you could steal the spotlight
12) You would always pick me up when hugging me and would try to squeeze me too tight 
13) Waking up to you eating Spaghetti-o's in the middle of the night from the can always made me laugh
14) The first song I taught you on guitar was "Yellow" by Coldplay
15) Cooking with you was always an adventure, because one of us would always mess up 
16) I smiled when I left you with the Walking Dead comics in Barnes and Noble to find you on the floor reading one of them avidly
17) You touched more lives than you realized
18) I cried today when we sang Happy Birthday to you at the cemetery.