4 years ago today I lost the love of my life, my best friend, my soul mate. The moment you stopped breathing I stopped living . At least life as I knew it ceased to exist. No one knows how it hurt and how empty I felt and still do. You were away a lot working , during our marriage but I knew that when the job was finished you would be home. Now I know you will never be home again. You will never walk thru the door again. Even though you’re not here I guess you are still at home, your Heavenly Home. When the door closed here , a new one opened in Heaven. It seems like a lifetime since I last saw you but I can still recall every word, every action, every sound from that day as though it was an hour ago. You knew us and talked to us till they medicated you and took you to Hospice. I hate recalling that day. I want to remember when we were young , happy, and healthy. All the times we spent with our sons. All the fun we had fishing alone and with the boys after we had them. You loved your grandchildren and was so proud of them and I know you are still today. You always loved Christmas and we sure miss you at Christmas. I miss you every day of the year not just holidays but I know we will be together again and oh how I long for that day. I love you just as much if not more than when you were here and I know you love me and our family. I know you are watching over us and taking care of us just like you did when you were here. I will keep you in my heart and my memories forever. Until we are together again I love you and miss you.