Mom you'll be gone a year next week and it still feels like yesterday that
we found out you had passed away. Everyone keeps saying your in a better place and I hope you are. But it doesn't make me miss you any less. It doesn't make it hurt any less either. Sherya and I still talk about you every day and still miss you just as much every day. I'm still running into people who didn't even know you passed away. guess that shows either how little people pay attention. Or how long it has been since I've really talked to anyone. I for the most part stay at home with Sherya and do my school work. Still catch myself trying to call you to talk to you about things. I know your not going to ansure But It would be so grat if you did. I wish you would have realized in life how much we all loved and needed you. And I hope you know even though our gone tha you are still and always will be loved, needed, and missed. Everyday forever. LOVE & MISS YOU MOM!!!!!
April 10, 2014
April 9, 2014
I always come here and have something sad to say.So I thought that I would try something different this time.I keep remembering this time when we lived in Texas.Lizards are everywhere.There was one coming down the sidewalk.It chased you into the house and onto the kitchen table.I know that it wasn't funny to you at the time.But, we all thought that it was hilarious.
March 30, 2014
I dont believe it gets easier with time either...the more time passes the angrier i becone.i think maybe sometimes that church may help me too but as i sat in church the last time i went all i could do was cry as the music played because my mom loved the music and myself and my daughter brooke actually went to church with my mom a time or two in the months before she passed. Id give anything for you to be hear mom.i really need you. This hurts so much.but i know your with your parents and your sister and with god now. So i know your ok and you no longer suffer.
February 4, 2014
I thought that everyone said it gets easier with time.I think that it is only getting harder.Today I was doing a puzzle and I found some of her hair.I lost it.I even put it in a envelope so I could save it.
January 29, 2014
I really miss you.I know that you are in heaven but I still wish you were here with me.My life has drastically changed for the better.It just sucks that now if I get married I have no mom or dad to be there.You can tell Grandma that I am going to start going to church again.I'm hoping it will make me feel closer to you.I'm sure she will just be happy that I'm going.I'm so sorry that I didn't get to come to your house.I won't let you be forgotten.I tell the kids about you and Grandma and Aunt Charlotte.Draven,Nike and I figured out how to make your cookies.I miss you mommy.Love Aleska