Rocky, I miss you so much. We wasn't taught to pray so it's hard to get used to. But I pray at least 2-4 times a week. I know I sometimes pray for my own selfish needs but God hears em all. I've ask him recently will he take me where you are, and I have some things going on that could bring me where you are sooner than what I want. But, it will be such a surprise to see each other again. So listen up. Make room for me on the cloud couch. I missed you at Christmas and if no other time of the year we got together it's always been Christmas, cause we watched the parades together. Rocky I'm so sorry I didn't teach you better and didn't act like a big sister should have. I think a lot of times I did things you didn't like. I just wish it had turned you away instead of being interested in the dirt we did.  I don't know if many people miss there loved ones as much as I miss you lil brother. Mostly everyone has an extra brother or sister that kinda helps with the loss. But it was just you and me. So now it's just me. And when I say just me. I say just ME. Love your sister, ps I'll be home soon. 

I light a candle for you today my son. It is your birthday and I find it so hard to believe that if you were here, you would be forty-three years old. Wow! I think of you all the time. When I think about you being forty-three, I also think about me at seventy years old. I know you are okay in Heaven, because that was what we were taught. That is what we feel in our hearts. I try to be good so I can be with you one day again. It is hard to be perfect, but Jesus may forgive me all my sins. I love you son and all you were to me. I hope the angels have prepared a wonderful birthday for you. I will decorate your grave in a little while to keep you warm this winter. Love you and miss you more than ever, Mommy

Hello my son,
It has now been eight years since you left. There will be a day when we will see each other again. I miss you bad. I always go to your grave and put special decorations on this date, but I have no car to go. My car is being fixed. This has been a tough summer for visits because I have had a broken shoulder. It still stops me from doing some things. These old cars are always a problem. There are some days that are harder than others. Today has been especially hard. I love you and I miss you always. I could talk all day, but I won't. I love you, Mom

Gosh little brother I can't even begin to tell you how much I miss you. I know one thing mom wouldn't be all jammed up you would be pulling and tugging for her to get up and get better. Rock I sure wish you had not dipped out on us but is was apparently a better place, your fate must have been easier this way. Damn roc. Sure miss you Big Sister I will see you soon

Rocky I don't know if you know it but our mom really misses you. I get mad at you at times and mad at myself for not being stronger, I was supposed to be the BIG sis but I was worthless to you when in active addiction. If I had one more day with you I would have taken you to get help. Heroin is taking a lot of us out so you will see many friends up in heaven. I miss you bub so much if I had one more day is all. Really missing you tonight. Love you, see you soon

Hello my darling,
I am a day late at everything this year. I had no help until today to get your decorations up to you. It is awful to get your birthday celebrated a day late. The grave blankets are very heavy, and Mom doesn't walk as good as she once did. Stupid doctors messed up my leg and my kidney all it just a couple months. I will try to publish a picture of you grave blanket today. I am not sure I remember how it is done. Happy Birthday up in Heaven one day late. Please forgive me for this lapse. I love you til the day I die and then some more when I see you. Until then have peace. Love and Miss you, Mommy

Hi Darling,
I miss you so much. We came to see you yesterday and put some new flowers out. They were so beautiful, and I loved them so much, I know you do too. It's been too long since I wrote. I don't like to type notes. I would rather come up there on the hill and talk to you. We lost a friend member back a couple months ago. It was Katalin. She ought her cancer as long as she could, then she gave in. Sheila had something to do so she didn't come with me yesterday. I got down the hill and back up by myself, well, with a little help from the fence. When I get on here, I can type forever because you are forever missed. I Love You. Mom

Happy Heavenly Birthday Rocky. I cry to think about how old you would be if you were here. Age 41, wow. I know that you are forever 34, but I can always dream and think about what it would be like if you were here. I will bring your grave blanket today, to keep you warm thru the winter months. If they come up there to take away your blanket, then please reach out and trip them til they roll over the hill. I shouldn't be mean because you are in Heaven and wouldn't do such mischief. I love you and miss you bad. Maybe you will have a good birthday party with all the family I have lost up in Heaven with you.
Have a wonderful Happy Heavenly Birthday, Love you always, Mom

My dearest son Rocky,
I don't write on here a lot anymore. I want to talk to you and not the tribute page. Guess that won't happen until I'm gone. Six years ago today, I found you forever gone in my downstairs rooms. It was devastating and I couldn't help but touch you. I miss you and love you so deeply. I think you know that. We had a very close bond and a very close mother, son friendship. I love you forever. Mom

Hello! I was very close to meet you...
God recalled me. For what? I have no idea. I`m a useless old bag Darling! But as I see, you will meet me first:) Love you baby! I visited all the photos of you, and brought me cozy time. It felt that you were around me:)
I love you, your Mom and all Your Family! Hugs and Kisses Darling!!!
Your Aunt Kathy

Miss you so much today, its weird how you pop in at times like you used to....love sister

Hi Honey, You may or may not remember, but I will tell you. When you were only nine years old you rode in a plane to come to me in Wisconsin. I picked you up in Milwaukee. I guess you were quite gabby and friendly with a black man on the plane. You was showing him all of your baseball cards. You had the cards in a box and was showing this man all of your collection. You didn't know and I didn't either until you got off the plane and we went over to get your luggage, then a woman came over and told me that was her husband that you were talking with. She said you did not know and they did not tell you, but that was Hank Aaron that you was riding with and sharing stories with. I hope you and him get a chance to reminisce because God has called him to Heaven the day before yesterday. He is quite older now. He was 87 years old. The plane trip you took was October 1990. I'm sure you remember. I have so many memories and so many stories in our lifetime. I love and miss you so very much. Mommy

Merry Christmas Darling with your "NEW' surrounding! We are only familiar in our dimension, but sure that eternal soul will meet again! I miss you and many of those who are with you now.
Yes there is Santa! There is Christ, as long you keep them in your heart!

Love you baby! We are a REAL Family!

Hello Darling Baby,
Here I am another Christmas without you. I try to go on as if everything was okay, they just can't see what is underneath. I hide it well. The girls and tucked in bed and Hope is waiting for Santa. Faith thinks she is too old for those things. You and I know that Santa will always be there for those who believe. I miss you real bad. I am glad you have your Dad, Patty, Leah and a few of your friends around you. I wish all of you were here to celebrate and have Green Bean Casserole with me. We will have Ham tomorrow, one of your and your Dad's favorites. I must rest now for I will have children up early looking for what Santa brought them. Just always know how much I love and Miss you. Always, Mommy

Happy Heavenly Birthday Darling Rocky! I love you! Yes, I know you are around those ho love you and miss you. Please guard and comfort mommy! You are her forever baby boy!
I hope you have the company of those there whom you loved, and those who loved you while in this earthy dimension:)
Watch over us with the Lord`s guidance. We earthlings are quite vulnerable.
Love you for Ever! Your ant Kathy

Dearest Rocky,
We came to see you today because it will be a big snow and ice storm tomorrow. (so they say). The decorations came out so nice. I changed them a bit this year. No sense making it the same every year. Well, it is your birthday eve today. My, my, you turn a Heavenly 40 years old tomorrow. Geez, I wish you were alive and here with me. I know you are with me, but I'm talking about here in life. Yes, you hit 2 heavenly milestones this year. In October, you was gone from me for 5 long years and now, tomorrow, you will have a heavenly birthday of 40 years old. No wonder I am a nut. I love and miss you so much. My big 40 year old baby boy. Love, Mommy

I was terribly upset yesterday. Tried to take the girls out all day to keep things at bay. As always I came to see you and decorate with my favorite purple flowers. I keep a couple of them you know. I have dried flowers from each anniversary of your death. When I die and come lay beside you I don't figure anyone will decorate as I do. I was taught to do the things I would do. She cremated your dad, but I know he is with you in soul. I'm glad that you and your dad are together. Didn't seem you could get with him in life. I love and miss you my dear baby son. Mom

Hello Rocky,
Today is 5 years since you moved into the other dimension. Time flies, and departure like this hard on the remaining:( Mom lost her baby, and it is devastating on her, but thank to your nieces, she has reasons to carry on. They are adorable. Mom is beautiful, saw her not long ago. I wish to see her more often, but grounded without car. I love her and I love you:) Sheila very much look like you:) Not as sweet as you were. We all miss you!! Yes, all of us!
Till we meet again, love, hugs and spiritual kisses from your aunt Kathy.

Good morning Roc. Today's Sunday, the hardest day of the week for me . I MISS YOU AND DAD SO MUCH...Your home now on the hill mom decorates so pretty for you..you can never no how much you are missed by mom...We all love and miss you my baby bro...in heaven is where we will meet again because I'm confident I will see you there...love sister

Hello Rocky,

Hard to believe that 5 years passed. Mom is right, it is like yesterday, but the pains feel like present for ever. I page through the photos of your life. It is hard to believe, that one day we were all infants, and one day we meet again. But as the start is sure, I look forward to the end when we all meet again!

Love
Aunt Kathy

Hi baby,
It is coming on fast, five years since we last saw each other. You hugged and kissed my cheek the night before you left me. It was actually about 4-5 hours before your passing. I remember it as if it was last night. I miss you so much. I'm working on something special for the newspaper this year. I wish that more of your friends would see the paper. I will post it on facebook. I rattle on sometimes. I will be up to talk to you soon. Love and miss you, Mom

Oh Rocky! 5 years! I just reading your mom`s heartfelt lines. Time flies, but years in such closeness cannot fade the pain.
I love her and all those who love, and feel with her. In life we lose many of those we love dearly, but yours was not a chronological departure:(
That makes even harder.

She is a great mom, and now she committed to your 2 adorable nieces. They are growing:)
Headstones in Europe read: Till we meet again!

Love
Kathy

I miss the shit out of you ..I'm not sure y but sundays sure r hard I lost u n dad both so fast and didnt even get to say goodbye..love your sister more than words can say "I miss you"

I lay a flower for you my son. It has been all summer since I wrote to you. This new disease in the world has the whole world in a whirlwind. Coronavirus, Covid-19, sure is a killer. I have struggled to keep myself and my little family safe from any harm. I should know from the past that I cannot stop any harm from coming to them if this is God's will. I lost you and I tried hard to keep you safe. Sometimes, like you, we harm ourselves and there is nothing anyone can do. I know your death was an accident, but I sure wish I could have prevented it. You would have been 40 this December and it will be 5 years since you have been gone. All these milestones is more than I can stand at times. I still have 2 little girls to get to the age they can take care of themselves before I can join you in forever. I love and miss you deeply. Until we meet again, Mom.

Love Kathy

Love Mom

I fukkn miss you



                SISTER

My Darling Relative Rocky,
Now tears running on my face. Your mom says people around you and her did not treated you right. Thank God, I`m not one of that. You were such a serious gentle boy. But I sense what your mom saying...
You look so much like my nephew that sometimes mom post photos, I think he is back on Facebook:)
Yes Darling she have hard time now. And yes you are on a sop, and yes not easy to walk on that terrain with lame leg. I bet you say on your funeral, when Patty fall on the grass, trying to climb on and hit her had pretty bad. I never even try to walk even on flat grass unless there something on some to grab on. I`m sure you were there.....
I feel your mom`s loss, because I raised my nephew and lost him, because his dad took him, and after 3 years be all I had he raised him against me. That is a loss too.
I love you, therefore I talk to you, and I love your mom.
I`m so happy for this page, because we meet here.
Oh petitioned for a space next to your mom. You see, I have no one here, only her. But as of now I do not have even a power of attorney or a living will, and I`m not feeling well.

I shall return:)
Love you, your aunt Kathy

Dearest Rocky,
I miss you so much. I don't have a moment without thinking of you. It is so hard to believe you would be 40 years old this year. It is a ways off until December, but I am already thinking about you. I will bring you something special on that day. I am very broken up right now. I have a real hard time getting down to the grave with this stroke in my leg. I only can come on the weekend when Faith is with me to help me down the hill. Patty didn't select the space that I would have, but I have space to lie beside you when that time comes. I hope that whomever is in charge of burying me does what I ask and puts me where I provided space for. I think about how mistreated you were by people around you and me. I guess I was the only one who really cared what happened to you. I love you so much. That will never change. Til another day, I love you and miss you so much. Mommy

Merry Christmas in Heaven my darling baby boy. I love and miss you dearly, Mommy

Dear Rocky, Sadly an another Christmas without you here on Earth. And a New Year Day, Holidays what you spent with mom while on Earth. Hard, very hard for those left behind.
We miss you, and hoping that you will have celebration on the other side with the already passed loved ones. By Spirit we will join all of you!

Love "aunt" Kathy 

I am sorry bro I missed your birthday. One thing for sure you was on my mind all day at work  I miss U bro I’m so mad u did this. I wish I could rewind and bring u back to mom. Happy birthday bro...

Dear Rocky, it would be 39 years on Earth today!
You have now a Heavenly Birthday party.

Happy Birthday Darling!
We miss to celebrate with you on this side.

"Aunt" Kathy

Hey Roc,. Our lil mommy was too sick to cook but she showed Faith. She cooked you green bean casserole. I miss you everyday so much. And so does mom .. I will see you in heaven one day.. love sis

Hi honey,
Mom sure misses you. I can't get to the cemetery because I'm not walking yet. It really makes me angry because I am used to decorating and I cannot get there. I can't walk yet and it has been 28 days since I had surgery. I am so sick and so sore that I am really trying hard and I don't seem to be getting anywhere. I have ordered your grave blanket and Faith said if I can't get down to your grave that she would do it for me. She is a good girl to help me. Hope tries to help too. Hope not big enough to keep me from falling. Until we see each other again, love and kisses, Mom

Four years ago today my darling baby boy. I brought you some things today and played a few tunes, I know you enjoyed the songs, One was handpicked by Jack, one by me, and one by your loving sister. We all miss you dearly. You never know what kind of weather to expect in October. Today was very cold.
I am hoping to have a celebration of your life this day next year. It may have to be on the 18th because of it needs to be a Saturday. I want everyone to come to the patio where I had you the day of burial. I want to share all the stories and fun times they all have had with you. Maybe even some will show up that didn't make it on your funeral. I hope I can get that together and have a happy time remembering you and your short life. Love you now and forever, Mom.    

Roc I sure miss you and trying to do the right thing and help mom like I know you would want..it sure is hard on her and she don't go a day with out thinking bout u..as I think of you as well..i wish I had one more time to argue or do your laundry. I would give anything to see you and spend the day with you just one more time...love SISTER...

I miss you ROC. Think about you everyday. Mom misses you too. Love sister

I miss you Roc..sure wish you had slowed down a little and enjoyed your life instead of life running you ragged. You are missed so much by lots of people, but one person and you know her well sure is not taking this well. She visits you and so do I. I wish I could have been free to say goodbye...I love you brother.

Dear Rocky, Here I`m, and thank you for connecting me back with your mother:)
I love you beautiful child, and miss you. I asked mom to take me to visit you when go next time. Hard to believe, that it is 4 years since you left us in this dimension. You are missed in every hours, minutes and seconds!
Thank Hod for the greatest hope, that we will meet again!
So great to talk to your eternal Spirit!!!
Love from your "aunt" Kathy

Hi honey,
In 2 weeks it will be 4 long years since you passed. I think of you in the day and at night. I know a lot of people that think of you too. I will be there in 2 weeks to the day, no matter if it is snowing or 95 degrees. I have some pretty things for you to hold off til I get up with Christmas grave blanket. I'll come also in November. I love to come up and visit you. It has been real hard the last 4 months because of the surgeries I have had. They have put me down a bit. I am coming back up though. I come to this memorial even when I don't write. Sometimes a just page through the pictures and stories and notes that loved one have left you. I praise Mandi for making this website for me.
Love and miss you the most, Mom

My Dear Child, I miss you. You gone, your mom, who was like a sister to me through Patty is gone out of my life too. But i`m on the way to you.
I`m lonely here on Earth. Sick and very tired.
God called you, but He did not called your mom away from me. He just left me.
Thinks happen in this life, funny things. I hope your world there is more perfect.

Love your "Aunt" Kathy

It's been a while since I rote. I see it was May 29. I had surgery on June 5 and yea I am still re cooperating from it. I have never taken so long to heal from anything, other than losing you. I will never recover from that. I miss and love you so much as I always did. None of that has changed. All that is changed is that you are gone from me and I can't hold or talk to you. This forever website is all I can do and facebook. I hear from a lot of your friends, some of which I have never met. They all miss you dearly. I hope you are enjoying your Dad. All my sisters and brothers are there now and a lot of family. Harvey from Arizona is the last family member I have lost. That has been recent.
I love you and you know that, I miss you and you know that. I will be with you one day.

I hate to think that it was March the last time I wrote. I don't feel any different, just maybe a little busier. Girls getting ready to finish out another year at school. Hard to believe they will be 8th graders next year. I am trying to get ready for major surgery next week. I don't know what it takes to prepare for something like this. I hope all goes well. As much as I would like to be with you, I am not ready yet. I have to get the girls a little farther in their life before I can rest. Their Mom needs some more adjusting to the world and that is about their option. Roxie thinks she wants to help but she has 1 child and one on the way. That will be hard all in itself. I hope you are enjoying your Dad. A luxury you never had here on earth. I love and miss you deeply. My son, my love, always, Mom

Dear Rocky, Each time i come here Gives your to my heart that you were loved so much. But my heart bleeds, cry to see your mother pain. I love her and understand her. There was Only One Rocky.
i read her lines tears in my eyes, a missing the days she used to take me to visit you. Hope she will feel good to have a break visiting Roxy and Cody. Look after her with dad! Yes, God is loving and forgoing....
Being the oldest, might I meet you first time in Paradise:)

Good Morning,
Hello my darling son Rocky. I miss you so very much. Me and the girls are going to Florida on the 2nd of April. We will visit Roxie, Cody and their family. I can only hope that you and your dad are together. He wasn't much of a church man but he sure was wronged to death. If God can forgive the one that hurt him then maybe He can forgive your dad too. I have so many things to say to you but find it hard to put in print. You know and keep me every day with your sweetness. I will come be with you one day. I'm not quite ready yet, but we come when God choses. Love you muches, Mom

I leave you a note today. This shit doesn't stop. I miss you so much it hurts. They say after a bit the pain subsides a little. Well, I don't know how long that is supposed to take, but I sure am feeling the same as the day you left. No it seems to hurt more each day. What could "we" Have done to prevent this is soething we will never know. Love and iss you til I join you, Love, Mom

Dear Rocky i wish i would had gave Haley the phone that night maybe you would still be alive i hold such heaviness 9n my heart for my selfish & childish acts that night over a phone but no theres no but no excuse buddy no excuse im truely sorry im glad we got to talk before god took you home ik you wanted to talk to Haley so bad once again im soooo sorry lil bro ik you loved my baby as much as she loves you if only it could had went further but god had better plans for you ik Haley sure carries you in her heart daily ik this so true we talk bout you often we keep your memory alive thats for sure we love you & miss you so much till we meet again. Love kelly

Hi Darling,
I am not purposely skipping a holiday to talk to you. I don't have the best holidays. I am missing you bad. I sorry, don't mean to burden you with my troubles. I ended up a decent birthday even though there is still that empty chair. You know How much you are missed and all the fun we used to have. We had some yell at each other days too, but the good always out weighed the tough. I will be back up to see and talk to you in a day or so. The weather is supposed to get rough and I don't want to break any thing I might need later. I miss and love you forever and always, until we meet again, Mom

Today is mom's birthday Roc and I know you would call and tell her how much you love her.. Roc I miss u so much. Everytime I do laundry I think bout all the times you came to my place for me to do yours. Rest in heaven bro. Mom misses you and so do I.