HI DAD,WELL ITS WEDNESDAY MORNING 5.15 AM IVE BEEN UP FOR ABOUT 2 HOUR AFTER 2-3 HOUR SLEEP,IM NOT COPING TO WELL WITH LOOSING MUM ITS BROUGHT EVERY THING BACK TO THE WAY IT WAS WHEN I LOST YOU ,NOW IM DEALING WITH THE PASSING OF BOTH ,I NEVER EVER GOT OVER LOOSING YOU ,THIS IS LIKE A BAD DREAM DAD ,BUT EVERY TIME I WAKE UP I KNOW ITS NOT AND MUMS NO LONGER WITH ME,TRUDY MAC AUNTY DOLLYS DAUGHTER HAS COME BACK FROM AUSY FOR MUMS SERVICE AND MICHELE AND REED HAVE ALSO COME BACK FROM AUSY THEY FLEW IN AROUND 11.25 AM INTO WELLINGTON AIR PORT,BRON WENT TO PICK HER UP ,I KNOW SHE WILL BE A MESS BY NOW,SHE WILL BE HIT VERY HARD LIKE WE ALL HAVE BEEN WITH LOSING MUM,MUM WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR US LIKE YOU WERE,BUT NOW WE HAVE LOST THE BOTH OF YOU ,WE DONT HAVE REALLY ANY BODY TO TALK TO ANY MORE ,SO DAD WATCH OVER US GIVE US THE STRENGTH TO GIVE MUM THE SERVICE SHE TRULY DESERVES,WE LOVE YOU BOTH VERY MUCH,MUMS SERVICE IS AT 1PM FRIDAY IN WANGANUI WHERE AUNTY JOES SERVICE WAS ,MALCOLM ASKED ME FOR PHOTOS OF YOU AND MUM SO HES GOT SOME PHOTOS OF YOU BOTH WHEN YOU GOT MARRIED AND OTHERS ,SOME AT McKELVIES IN BLACK AND WHITE in the 1970s WHEN HE WAS ABOUT ID SAY 7 OR 8 YEARS OLD ,YOU BOTH WERE PICKING BEANS HES GOT ALOT OF MUM ALSO ,ALL MEMORIES DAD OF OUR BEST YEARS WITH YOU BOTH ,,,WELL ITS COFFEE TIME AGAIN SO BYE FOR NOW DAD, LOVE YOU MUM XXXXOOOO THIS MAY SOUND STRANGE TO OTHERS READING THIS AND I TOLD MUM AFTER A WEEK OR SO AFTER MIDDLE STARTED TO VISIT ME , ,MIDDLE C VISITS ME EVERY MORNING AND SOME TIMES AT NIGHT,WHEN I FIRST SAW HER I THOUGHT I WAS SEEING THING ,BUT OVER THE LAST 3 WEEKS OR SO SHE HAS VISITED ME AT LEAST 18 TIMES,ITS AMAZING TO SEE HER DAD,ONE NIGHT I LOOKED UP AND THERE WAS A REAL REAL BRIGHT LIGHT ,MIDDLE APPEARED FROM THE LIGHT AND SHE SEEMED TO FLOAT DOWN ON TO THE PILLOW NEXT TO ME ,IT WAS AMAZING TO WATCH DAD AND NO PEOPLE IM NOT NUTS WE HAD A VERY SPECIAL BOND THAT IS STILL VERY MUCH ALIVE ,,,HER SPIRIT IS REMEMBERING HOW MUCH SEE LOVED ME AND HOW MUCH I LOVED HER,AND AS TIME GOES BY ITS GETTING CLEARER AND EASIER TO SEE HER,AS I SAID ITS SO AMAZING TO WATCH HER DAD,AND IM SURE YOU KO WHAT I MEAN AND I ALSO SAW YOU ALSO AFTER YOU PASSED AWAY WHILE I LIVED IN NAPIER,SO I KO ILL SEE MUM AGAIN ..I FELT SHE WAS STANDING BE HIND ME AT HER HOME ON TUESDAY NIGHT ,,THERES MORE TO LIFE ,THAN WHAT WE SEE,,,ALOT LOT MORE...