MY LITTLE BABY WAS BORN ON APRIL 2006,I WAS OVER THE MOON, ANOTHER LITTLE BOY.
HE WEIGHED 6 POUNDS AND WAS BEAUTIFUL.
ALWAYS SMILING AND GURGLING, UNTIL AT THE BEGINING OF SUMMER HOLIDAYS, WHEN HE  MADE A BARKING NOISE AND HE RAISED HIS ARM, I WOKE TO FIND HIM LIKE THIS, PANICKED AND CALLED THE NHS DIRECT,WAS ADVISED WHILST IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CONVERSATION IF GET CUT OFF, RING 999, WHICH DID HAPPEN AND I DIALLED 999, GOT ASKED SO MANY QUESTIONS, SO I LOST IT AND TOLD THEM THAT ALL MY DETAILS ARE WITH NHS DIRECT.
AMBULANCE ARRIVED OUTSIDE THE HOUSE, AT THIS POINT I DID NOT KNOW MY BABY COULD HAVE DIED,I WAS IN THE AMBULANCE WHEN THE CREW MEMBER SAID CARDIAC ARREST, THEN THE SIRENS WENT ON AND WE ZOOMED TO THE HOSPITAL, SAAD HAD STOPPED BREATHING AND THEY BROUGHT HIM ROUND. STAYED IN THE HOSPITAL FOR AT LEAST 3 WEEKS, THE NURSE CAME TO ME AND TOLD ME IN SO MANY WORDS THAT YOUR BABY WILL DIE SOON, WHEN I HEARD THIS I  WAS IN SHOCK AND I WAS THAT CLOSE TO KILLING MYSELF,BUT DONT KNOW WHAT STOPPED ME..ALL HIS LIFE ME AND SAAD WERE IN AND OUT OF HOSPITAL.
HE STOPPED SMILING HE STOPPED WAVING HIS ARMS ABOUT AND HE STARTED DETERIORATING HE STOPPED FEEDING SO WAS PUT ON TUBE FEED AND HE WOULD JUST STARE.
I WAS TOLD THAT HE WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO SIT OR MOVE ON HIS OWN AND ALL THE PREPERATION FOR HIS SPECIAL SCHOOL GOT GOING, 21ST DECEMBER HE WAS AT HOME AND HE STARTED GOING GREEN, WAS ADMITTED TO HOSPITAL, WAS OK THE NEXT DAY, BUT ON THE 23 HE WAS HAVING FITS NON-STOP FROM 7.30am TO 11.30pm, HIS FITS WERE ON HIS TONGUE,(when you take a fish out of water and it shakes, well thats what my babys tongue was like),ON 24 MY BABY WAS EXHAUSTED AND AT 25 AT AROUND 2/3AM MY BABY CLOSED HIS EYES INFRONT OF ME