Daddy I can’t talk to you so this will have to do for now. I still miss you so much. 9 years later and It Still hurts to think about you. I so yearn to hear your voice, smell your scent, hear your comforting words, and feel safe again knowing that you are with me. The hole in my heart that your passing has left is permanent and will never leave me. I was thinking lately, how do you explain the excruciating pain of grief, it’s so hard to put into words. I remember sitting by your bedside when you took your last breath, seeing your nails go black, looking at your eyes and trying to wake you up, but you wouldn’t, you were gone forever. I remember going home and laying on the bed, and being so confused as to how to deal with the fact that you were no longer there. The day my life changed forever. It’s so weird to think that the girls and Sabino will only know your name, and not really get to know who you were as a person, not be able to experience the amazing human being you were. It makes me sad you were not able to experience that part of our lives, I know you so wanted that. Daddy!!! I miss you so much. I pray you are doing well up there, and that you are happy. I cannot wait until we meet again. I can see me running into your arms, I can see your smile. Please watch out for mom and the girls. You always knew my heart, always my number one cheerleader, I remember you calling me on the phone one day after “the blender” incident. Lol. You were my rock and never diverted from the love you had for me. Just you saying “baby” it’s going to be ok, made the world ok. Know this big guy, I can’t think about you a lot, avoidance works, but I love you more than I can ever express. I will miss you until we meet again. I love you pops. Forever and always.❤️❤️❤️