To my dearest & darling Mama,

I miss you Mama more than ever. I miss seeing you in Paris, hearing your voice every morning on the phone, looking into your gorgeous green eyes that also showed your love for me, the safety I felt having you in my life, your kindness and generosity that I've never seen before. You had a heart of gold and I only trusted you because you never lied to me. Thank you Mama for everything you did for me in my life, I am so grateful to you. If it were not for you Mama, I would have never made it in life. Sometimes I wish I were never born so that I wouldn't experience the pain that I've had from losing you. I never thought you were going to pass away when I saw you.

Although Yasmine took care of you in Iran, we became enemies because she didn't even ask me where I would like you to be buried and demanded for $10,000 claiming that I owed Hadji. I paid it for your burial and funeral plus Yasmine demanded for a $1,000 to have your grave cleaned which I sent her. I would have definitely had you cremated and brought you home with me and made plans to bury your ashes with mine. 

I know your Spirit is with me and I love and miss you more than anyone in the world. You were my world and the love of my life. I feel lost without you, abandoned and cry every day for you.

If Dodo would have arranged for me to come sooner, I would be there a month or two before you passed away but they didn't, but at least I spent 2 nights with you in the hospital room before you were rushed to ICU where you passed 3 days later. They never told me you had cancer until a month later and no doctor could have cured you because you were at Stage IV, which is the last stage and it had spread to your brain

Your favorite Quote was "Desiderata."

I am not and never will be the same for the rest of my life and will never get over losing you. My only hope is that I'm going to see you again when I die, and that you will come down like a bird and take me under your wings and go with you and be with you eternally.

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING OR ANYONE IN THE WORLD.

Your only child,

Desiree

I'm always with you and always love and miss you more than ANYONE in the world.

I'm with you and just want to be with you physically. I'm so unhappy without you, alone, and scared. Nothing in this world makes me happy. I feel like I'm on the dark side of the moon. When I die, my only hope is that I will see you and I'm sure you'll be waiting for me.

My dear Mama. I still cry for you every day and I miss your voice and beautiful gorgeous green eyes. I feel like I've lost a part of me because it's with you. You're forever in my Heart and Soul and I'm forever yours.. My Mama I know you're with me and once I pass I will be with you forever. This all happened too soon. I hope one day I can visit your grave on the otherside of the globe. Goodbye until the next note.

Happy Birthday Mama. I'm still grieving and will cry forever until I pass and with you again. You're always in my heart and soul. I miss your love, caring, kindness & generosity forever. You were beautiful inside and outside. How am I suppose to live without you, I don't know but I'm trying very hard. I miss you so much and miss your voice. You were gone too soon and I'm devastated.

Leaving peach color roses all over your grave.

I love you so much.