I was on the football team at El Cap with Sean. I remember the first practice we had with him on the team. We were at the small practice field by cactus park and we were huddled up and coach was introducing him. I remember after that practice whenever I saw him around I'd be sure to say hello. He was always a friend that would try and make you laugh, often at his expense. He wasn't afraid of seeming dorky which was something I related to.

I would often see Sean a lunch and hanging around, we had a similar group of friends and I can just always remember him smiling, that big goofy smile that was infectious. He had an air about him that you could tell he cared more about how others were doing than how he was. A truly, truly admirable trait.

To Roy, I don't know if you remember me or not, my mothers name is Tammy, the short blonde lady that went to most the games/practices, I want to say you used to go too. But, I saw you at ihop in santee not too long ago, I couldn't muster up the courage to talk to you and for that I apologize. Your son was an awesome kid, everyone he was in contact with he left a positive impact, I just wanted you to know that.

December 26th, 2015...Our 2nd Christmas without our Sean Luc Birch trying so hard to keep things some kind of happy.
No way to describe the loss..God we miss him.

Just meant to keep the memory of a wonderful young man.
Love ya, Son - See ya soon,,,Dad

I was sitting at my kitchen table crying thinking about Sean and how I feel I could have helped.. And the funny memories being neighbors. I glanced at your house and there was your cat staring at me.. Buddy I'm sorry you took your life, there was so much more for you to do here. Thanks for still being a good friend. I love you and should have said it.

Dang I miss you Son, Love Always, Dad..

Take the time to read it well bring a little understanding.

As I, Roy L. Birch aka Ol'Cowboy has not always been of Christian life style, about 21 years ago when Sean was just a little guy, watching him one day I said to myself there must be a better more peaceful meaningful life. So my search begun.

Yes, so in my search it brought me unbeknownst to me back to my roots and was baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints as it turns out I am 5th Generation. So why do I write this?
My loss of my Son Sean Luc Birch a little over a year ago has had me searching questioning my Faith.

Why Bad Things Happen to Good People?????
Do you wonder why bad things happen to good people?

Jesus gives us the answer to this question in Scripture.
In this world you will have tribulation, meaning difficult times.

Jesus says in John 16:33, "I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But be of good cheer. I have overcome the world."

Tribulation entered into our earth when Adam and Eve decided to rebel against God and His ways. This original sin opened the door to Satan and his evil ways and allowed corruption to enter into our world and into the human body as well.

Did you notice that in the midst of difficulties Jesus says to be of good cheer? This does not mean that we are to be happy because we are facing hard times, but because of what He does for us at Calvary we can walk in victory despite the hardships.

God did not create people to suffer, but sometimes we do suffer because we live in a fallen world.

So, if it is not God's plan for people to suffer, then who is responsible?
Satan comes to steal, to kill and to destroy.

In John 10:10, Jesus clearly describes Satan's intentions, " The thief does not come, except to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly."

God is not responsible for all the evil that is happening around us, Satan is. And the devil is bent on our destruction. Jesus calls him a thief, who comes to steal God's blessings from us.

According to Deuteronomy 28: 1-14, what are God's blessings that he tries to steal?
Our identity in Christ.
Our spiritual authority in Christ.
Our dominion on this earth.
Divine favor.
The Lord's good treasure that has been given to us.
The blessings of children, good harvest, and an increase in livestock.
Our daily needs being met abundantly.
Safe travels.
The blessing of our work and the fruit of our labor.
Our finances.
Good weather.
You've done everything you know to do in your trial, yet you see no way out.
In 3 John 1:2, a prayer is recorded that reveals God's heartfelt intentions for His people. "Beloved, I pray that all may go well with you and that you may be in good health, even as your soul is well."

When the Word of God is our standard we can discern why things are happening in life and who is responsible. If the situation is good and perfect then it comes from the Father up above, see James 1:17.

And if a blessing in life is being stolen from us, like the life of a loved one via premature death from sickness, disease, a tragic accident or incident then we know that Satan is the one responsible for the tragedy.

Knowing these two reasons why bad things happen to good people help us in the healing process.

It's been one year Son sense you decided to take your life here on Earth...You wrote your final words.

" I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO FEEL BAD"

Seriously looking at the note right now..

I understand Sean you went to some ugly dark place just for a long enough time to take your life here...
Sorry I missed your hurting so much Sean..
Your Dad just doesn't understand why, makes no sense at all !!!

I am not going to even pretend I understand as always I love you now and loved you more then life as you were a huge part of my life and soul for 22 years...

The Ol'Cowboy and his Side-Kick..

Still confused and lost Sean - Miss you so much - Until I see you again..Always and forever...Dad...

Sean is a great man. I think about him just about every day. The pain may be great now, but I can't wait for the joy that I will have when I see him again. Keep being strong Roy. Love you Sean.

I still think of you both often. Praying for you Ole Cowboy. Can't imagine the feeling of loss.

Happy Birthday Sean Luc! We miss you greatly. I remember when you and the crew would go on your outings with your dad and come back all tired and worn out. And when we all used to get ice cream at Kathy's after school. Not a day goes by that your not thought about. For many years you were like family. Love you kid. And don't worry about O.C. he got a lot of people looking out for him. Tiffy is gonna try to spend today with him after he is done visiting you!

I Pray everyday Sean Luc, You are my first thought every morning and my last thoughts every evening, I deal with my loss everyday, so missed my Son, but in my Heart & Thoughts - ALWAYS until I see you again, More then love my soul.. Dad.