August 28, 2012 - 29weeks exactly (7mths)
July 26, 2014
Mommy got dropped off at 6:50pm. I had doubts for staying, didn't like hospital. They called me & brought me up to l&d to get checked. I apologize as you seemed ok. Monitors hooked up- nice & loud hearing your heart beating away. Nurse turns it down, & I play & rest not paying attention to monitors---- at 8pm everything turned for the worse.
We had been in distress for 45mins- & they couldn't figure out why. They rushed us in for delivery. & put mommy to sleep- as they were prepping, you began moving like crazy. I literally thought u were trying to kick out of me. & that you were telling me you were ok.... Nobody ever warns you about too much movement :(
At 8:34pm you were born by crash emergency c section.
You cried. You kicked. You looked at dr stone. There was soooooo much blood. They kicked daddy out of room.
They worked on you for several minutes.
At 9:07pm you passed away.
You weighted 2.2lbs & 14.5"long
You looked just like daddy.
You are perfect.
At 9:15 mommy came out of surgery to hear what no mother ever wants to hear
"I'm sorry he's gone"
No
No
No he's fine. Everything's ok.
They brought you in & I tried doing skin to skin, I tried nursing, I placed you over my heart.... I sang. I cried. I begged God for a miracle.
Mommy & you suffered from a complete silent placenta abruption.
You lost a lot of air the few minutes prior to delivery. Enough, to cause brain to begin shutting down. Shayne you fought so hard to be here, you are such a fighter.
I am forever sorry that you are not here.