February 18, 2015
February 18, 2015
The anniversary of my mother's passing. Is approaching fast. I am for some unknown reason reliving the last days of your life. Feeling numb. It's hard to simply find a way to get through these days without you here. I tried to deny these feeling but yet they resurface. Underneath my anger is pain. I feel lost at sea. A sea that keeps on raging. Nothing seems .to stop it. Things are going just the way you predicted. but it is ok. I rather have you and my kids. Everyone is doing there own thing. Coping the best way they can. Yes we walk alone through this. The family forever shattered. I know you see everything. Everything that seems to be hidden.I feel your presence daily. I am so thankful for you visiting me in my dreams. I loved the dreamed when you were with my kids. I felt a sense of relief. You look wonderful. I am going to get my emotions in check. Much better things ahead to be prepared for. I don't come here to share my life with you. I come here to just keep your memory alive. Everything we needed to say was said almost a year ago. We can not bring you back. You are aware what's going on in the families. No one misses you more than the other. You had 7 children and you loved each one of us differently. You loved your grandkids so much. There was no favorites. Those of us that didn't go to college or have a fancy house you loved us too. So I will not say you loved one more than the other. I am trying to get through this life without you. I won't air family matters on this page. Or write how Mike is doing. He will be fine. With God on his side. No weapon formed against him shall prosper. Keep a watch over us . Forever my mother, on earth and in Heaven. Your eldest daughter Tracy