MERRY XMAS MY DARLING.TODAY IS THE SECOND XMAS I AM HERE WITHOUT YOU.I WOKE P EARLY, CAME OUT OF THE BEDROOM, WENT OVER TO SEE YOU, GAVE YOU A BIG KISS AND CRIED. THERE WILL NEVER BE A XMAS FOR ME AGAIN MY LOVE, TODAY HAS ALWAYS BEEN YOUR FAVORITE DAY. I CAN SEE YOU OPEN ING YOUR GIFTS WITH THE BIGGEST SMILE ON YOUR FACE WHILE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU GOT.YOU WERE ALWAYS SO HAPPY ON THIS DAY. I WOULD SMILE AND SOMTIMES LAUGH AT YOU. YOU WERE LIKE A LITTLE KID WHILE YOU WERE WAITING FOR YOUR NEXT GIFT. OH WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SIGHT YOU WERE MY LOVE.MY LIFE WILL AND COULD NOT EVER BE THE SAME. YOU MEANT THE WORLD TO ME, NOT ONLY ON THIS DAY, BUT EVERY DAY OF THE YEAR. WHY AM I STILL HERE SUFFRING LIKE THIS MY LOVE? I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE. WHAT A LIFE.THE BEST PART OF MY LIFE IS OVER AND GONE.YOU WERE MY LIFE.OH HONEY I MISS YOU SO MUCH.I CERTINLY HOPE THE KIDS COME BACK INTO MY LIFE. I NEED SOMEONE I CAN BE WITH AND CRY TO. IT IS SO HARD LIVING LIKE THIS. I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL AND I WLL TILL GOD SAY'S IT MY TIME TO COME AND SEE YOU. THEN WE'LL SPEND EVERYDAY TOGETHER AND I CAN TELL YOU IN PERSON JUST HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. OH MY DARLING PLEASE HELP ME SOME HOW. I NEED YOU. I LOVE YOU DARLING