January 9
January 9
My beautiful mommy. I never understood how you could look at yourself and call yourself ugly. Ugly isn’t even in the dictionary of words used to describe anything about you. You were my best friend, the most kind and loving woman I’ve ever known, and the prettiest “gurl eva.” I love using our slang when talking to my friends. They don’t understand everything but I try to fill them in. They listen to me babble on and on about you. They all have told me they would have loved to have been able to meet you. They don’t know you like I do tho. I know we had our rough moments but I could never stay mad at you for too long. It’s hard to stay mad at someone when they have the kindest most beautiful eyes. I look into my friend’s eyes and they make me think of you. I’m so grateful that you brought them to me. Harley absolutely adores you. She loves talking to dad. I talk to her all the time about you and show her pictures and describe every detail of what was going on in them. I’ve been going through a rough patch in my life, but I know your watching over me. I just wish you didn’t have to go. I miss you everyday. Every time I get sick, I tell dad that I wish I could curl up next to you and let you hold and brush my hair with your fingers. You calmed every bad thing going on in my life. You made them seem so small. I could go on and on about every little thing we did together but id never stop talking. We did absolutely everything together. Me and Katie always make this joke you used to say. “GIRLS QUIT DRINKING ALL MY POP, I JUST BOUGHT THAT!!!” I can’t even mnt dew without wanting to vomit. I just get this horrid imagine in my mind. You know what image I think about. I just wish I could spend 5 more minutes with you. That’s all I wish for. I miss you so so so much. Chey misses you too. We may not be friends anymore but I could see the look in her eyes when she talked to me yesterday. She loved you so much. I went over to comfort her about Blaise but in the end she was comforting me. I was crying and she asked me why? And I told her it was bc I missed you and she started crying. Oh how we miss you. I love you momma.