It's officially a year today when God said it was time to go. It doesn't hurt any less than a year ago and momma I miss you so much. There aren't enough tears to cry for me to ever feel right about losing you. I hate it here without you, it's so lonely without my phone buddy.

Some much has changed and so much is still the same. I feel like I am living in an alternate universe and somehow I got stuck in this one without you. It seems so unfair and just wrong that you had to the leave the way you did. This week has been hard because life will never be. I just don't know how to live without you. I have nothing but memories to keep me sane. Oh momma I just cannot accept that you are gone even if God himself told me why you had to go. My only comfort is knowing you are not any physical pain anymore. I knew how truly unhappy you were and pray that you are smiling and laughing with your love ones. Don't worry about me I got your DNA in me so I'm built Teflon tough.

The hole in my heart and soul will never heal will always ache and will forever feel the pain, loss and loneliness of your passing. If there is truly a place and a time that we meet again I truly look forward to the day of feeling you hug me again. What I wouldn't give the hear a Stacey Mae or a Now Stacey, only you could calm me down when I was feeling crazy lol. Thinking of the last time we talked, you said you loved me and would call me at 430. I will forever wait for that phone call, because I know someday you will be calling to take me with you. Until then my sweet momma I love you to the moon and back. As always from your broken hearted big baby. Kiss our momma for me.

It's coming up on a year momma and it still hard as hell without you. Some days I don't know how I am making it without you. I truly am alone in this world. I miss you and love you to the moon and back. I am so sorry you were cremated. I don't have no where to go to feel you,talk you, but only in my mind. I am barely hanging on but getting better at hiding it smh. I still don't know what happened and probably never will but I wish I could see you once more even if it is only in my dreams.

Happy Heavenly Birthday momma. Oh how u love and miss you so damn much. Today is a bad day for me but I am trying to hold on to all the good memories. I feel so alone without you. I love you to the moon and back and will forever be your broken hearted big baby❤️❣️

Time certainly has not made it easier to be without you. We are still missing you every damn day. I miss our talks, texts and just sitting on your back porch enjoying the weather and listening to you talk about your life. I love you to the moon and back momma. I wish I could get one more hug or even a now Stacey Mae.
Love always,
Your broken hearted big baby

Mom yesterday was 2 months since you left us, and it hasn't gotten any easier. I love you always. If you can please send me a sign that you are ok so I can sleep and not think about you 24/7. Sleep peacefully, love you to the moon and back.

Today was super rough mom. Getting Stacey ready for school is always a hectic time for me. I sure am going to miss you calming me down this school year. Love you babe…… until we meet again rest peacefully.

Mommy……..smh

Momma yesterday was one month since you left us and the hurt isn’t getting any less. I wish you would let me know you are ok so I can sleep at night. Sleep is getting less and less these days. Losing you hurt my soul and I doubt I will ever be the same. Loving you always… for now can you please watch over me.

Momma I love you. Just missing you still…..

It’s been real rough mom. I really am trying but oh lord………. Mom I miss you more than you will ever know. I love you to the moon and back babe.

Mama we said see you later to you on Friday and that was the hardest thing in the world to see you for the last of a very long time. It was beautiful too, all of your kids and most of your grandkids all together you would have been beaming from ear to ear if you were there. Save a seat for me next to you and I can’t wait to hug you and tell you I love you once more. As always I love you to the moon and back.

It's been 4 days and it still seems unreal. I get to see you one more time before its see you later. I love you to the moon and back.

Oh mommy I just cannot believe with my whole heart and soul that you left us. I woke up this morning and the absence of you hit my like a ton of bricks. I will carry this weight of losing you forever. I know you would say its gonna be alright but mommy this time it's not. I promise you it's not alright. I love you always to the moon and back from your broken hearted big baby