Dear Stephanie, It has been four years today since you passed and you are missed as much today as you were then. You will forever be in our hearts. Please watch over your Mom, Dad and John who struggle with your lose more than anyone. You are there heart and soul.
Rest in peace Steph.

Dear Stephanie, It has been four years today since you passed and you are missed as much today as you were then. You will forever be in our hearts. Please watch over your Mom, Dad and John who struggle with your lose more than anyone. You are there heart and soul.
Rest in peace Steph.

My Stephanie, I can't believe it has been 4 years since you left us. My heart aches every day. I miss you beyond words, yet I talk to you every day. I know you are at peace and singing with the angels, which gives me comfort. It is a beautiful sunny day today. You would love it. It is a great hair day. Can't wait to be with you again to hug and hold. Remember I love you more then the sun, stars, moon and sky

Steph, I still cannot believe you are physically gone and that it has been 4 years today that I received that heartbreaking call from Mom. You were that ray of sunshine and you were to me the rainbow after the storm. I know you are at peace, a peace so well deserved. Please watch over Mommy, Daddy and Brother Bear and help them keep the memories of you as their pillar of strength on the days that are the hardest for them. Rest in Peace Beautiful Steph.

Stephanie I can't believe you're gone four. Years I really just can't believe it every time I'm in New Hope Pennsylvania at the Raven I think of you when you came up with your parents for dinner and you refused to leave it was so funny. Your parents and brother miss you so much I know you're watching over all of them I know your with the angels and you're probably the only one dressed in Chanel with hair and makeup alright my dear Stephanie till we meet again and we will God I hope they have Neiman Marcus in heaven I love you with all my heart please continue watching over your mother she misses you beyond words love you lots.

Dear Steph,
Happy belated birthday in heaven. We love and miss you! Not a day goes by that I don't think of and keep you in my prayers.
I try to keep the happy memories alive. Like when you came over with Joey for a picnic in our yard. Also when you were afraid of Teddy Ruxbin but then you loved him. And all those memories in between. Love you and miss you. Love apAunt Judy and Uncle Mike

Bish!!!
Happy bday baby girl...
We came to visit today..all of us... did a big dinner and laughed it up...but u know that...we speak daily and u know how well things are going...wish u could have met Kelly...really do...I love u sis...and not a day goes by where we're not together...I love you Stephanie...miss u just as much

My beautiful cousin Stephanie I still can't believe you're gone we all miss you so much words just can't express how much we all miss you especially your mom and dad today me and your family are going to the cemetery to see you I'm bringing you flowers I hope you like them.than we are all going out for dinner I know you're watching over all of us it's just not fair I would give anything to have you back here until we meet again I love you very much.

Happy birthday my darling Stephanie. 31 years old at 5:40 PM. I find it so unbearable living here without you  Do you celebrate your birthday or is this just an earth thing we celebrated your birthday today. we all met at the cemetery with our cousin Neil who misses you very much.
We sang happy birthday placed flowers and all of
us made the grave look pretty. We then went for dinner at valentino's. Daddy and I and John all love and miss you keep on dancing in the sky my love, my baby girl, my heart

Your mom missing you so much and always has you in her heart! You are a beautiful person, and
left us so young, I remember you as a little girls so pretty and full of love  Always in our hearts and thoughts! Love Renee and Lenny

Stephanie today is 3 years since you've been gone. you are in my thoughts every day, all day. I miss you so much and I miss the fun and silliness we shared. I look at all your pictures around the house and I feel you can jump right out of them. How can it be that you are gone? I wonder this every day. You are my heart and there is a piece of it that is in heaven with you. I hope you continue to dance in the sky and sing with the angels.
I miss you my beautiful daughter. Until I see you again......

Dear Stephanie,
You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday.it has been 3 years and it seems like yesterday and also like an eternity since I have seen you. Please watch over your Mom, Dad and John. We love you always. Peace be with you.

Dear Stephanie, I wish I had met you. I bet you were a really nice person. I know you were special. Love Mia and Brooke

Sorry I didn't know you nut I m sure you were sweet. I hope you rest in piece and you will see your loved ones again someday.

Happy Valentine's Day Steph. Boy I'm am missing you more each day. Life is hard without you. You were such fun, daddy and I were laughing as we were remembering some of the funny stuff you would say. You were really a comic. Just another thing we miss you for. Baby you are my angel in Heaven and I know you are watching over us. Remember, I love you more then the sun. moon, stars and sky. xoxo Mom

Dear Stephanie,
Happy Birthday in heaven. I think of you everyday and keep you in my prayers.
I can still remember you running in my yard, playing with teddy ruxbin or being afraid of teddy ruxbin and going trick or treating with you and John. Also going to Thompson Park to feed the animals.
All those who love you miss you with all there hearts.
Watch over your parents and John.
Love always
Aunt Judy an Uncle Mike

hello my dear Stephanie this is your cousin Neil I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday I know you're with all the angels around you and you have your grandfather and my mother and they celebrating your birthday in heaven I miss you so much I wish we were closer but we will meet again please watch over your mom really not handling this very well I do check in with her from time to time ,I feel her pain we all miss you so much till we meet again one day love you lots again happy birthday my dear Stephanie.

My baby girls today you would have been 30. Wow Steph, how did this happen. My heart aches for you every second of every day. I miss you terribly but there are so many reminders of your life all around me, I am always looking at your pictures, or go into your room to your closet to smell the essence of your in your cloths. Such a bittersweet reminder. The day you left this earth my heart and soul had changed and I will never be the person I was. Happy Birthday my love. Your brother and father say the same. You know your brother would have posted if he could. Today we will visit the cemetery, lay flowers and put balloons for you to wish you a Happy Birthday in Heaven. Give my dad my love, and have your looked for Elvis?  Love you more than the moon, stars, sun and sky. xoxoxo

From Debbie Sciarra

Dear Stephanie,


The First Thought

The first thought every day
The first breath upon awakening,
The first step onto the floor,
will be about her.

There is no shame, no blame, no pity
in this for however long it lasts.

Everyone left behind
has a different capacity for survival.
But the scar, whether healed or healing
will stay always, as it should,
as a reminder of a flame that burned
so brightly and
a spirit that will never leave you...



Hank Beukema Copyright revbuckman music 2007

Happy Birthday my dear Stephanie I miss and love you very much xo

hi my dear Stephanie it's your cousin Neil I can't believe it's been two years I know your birthday is coming up I hope you have a wonderful birthday in heaven you are so missed by all of us especially your mom she never fully recovered.just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you all my love till we meet again I love you very much.

Stephanie, I think of you so very often and now that your birthday month is here I reflect back on your life on Earth that was cut way too short. You fly among the Angels now because that is what you are. I think back to your smile, that mischievous giggle, that warmth and silliness that we together shared with Mommy. How I wish you were down here with us but I know you are an Angel above looking down on everyone who loves you. Please watch over those who hold you dear and whose hearts continue to shed tears. You are loved and so deeply missed. xoxoxo M#2

Hi Stephanie, we are getting closer to what would have been your 30th birthday. Now you are forever 27 so you don't have to worry about wrinkles, sagging and what ever else comes with aging. Very lonely for you, and as we get closer to your birthday it becomes very hard. I look at the pictures of you around the house and I have to tell you that you were a beautiful girl and women. Missing you so much that it physically hurts. I know you know how much I love and miss you but just in case, I love you more than the sun, stars, moon and sky.

Hello my love. Been having a hard time lately. Missing you so much. It seems to get harder every day. You are my heart. My baby girl and my best friend. Rest in peace my love

Hello my love. Been having a hard time lately. Missing you so much. It seems to get harder every day. You are my heart. My baby girl and my best friend. Rest in peace my love

My dear Stephanie, today marks 2 years you have been gone. It feels like it was just yesterday. I am no longer the person I was before you left us. That day rewinds and rewinds in my head every day. Oh baby how I miss you. I miss your fearlessness and wild spirit. You will always be a presence in my life. I look for things that remind me of you and they are there always staring at me. Baby it is so hard without you, you are missed beyond measure. remember I will always love you more that the sun, stars, moon and sky. My baby girl forever
xoxoxoxox

My dear steff well its 2015 I can't belive it I thought about you on Christmas I know it was your favorite holiday mine too I still can't belive it's 2 years you are gone we all miss you so much . I talk to your mom as much as possible she misses you so much so do the rest of us . We'll I just wanted you to know I have not and will never forget you.you will always be in my thoughts and prayers. Love you lots .love neil

Dear Stephanie, you would have been 29 years old today my love. Happy Birthday in Heaven. I ache for you and miss you beyond words. I will try and celebrate this day for you the best that I can. But please know I grieve all day everyday for you. There is a hole in our family that can never be filled I love you beyond words and miss our days out together. life is just not the same without you baby girl. Remember I love you more than the sun, stars, moon and sky xoxoxoxoxo

Stephanie,
Happy birthday in heaven. We love you and miss you always. Let our memories be of happy times. Of laughter and bright sunny days. Let the grief be over shadowed by smiles of your beautiful ways.
Rest in peace.

Stephanie,
Happy birthday in heaven. We love you and miss you always. Let our memories be of happy times. Of laughter and bright sunny days. Let the grief be over shadowed by smiles of your beautiful ways.
Rest in peace.

hey Stephanie I just want to wish you happy birthday the best way possible its such a sad day but we will all get through it the best way we can . I can't believe you would have been 29 you were catching up to me lol .your entire family came over this past August for your aunt Debbie's birthday I had a beautiful dinner had three servers we had cocktail hour in the yard and dinner in the dining room it was so beautiful I felt your presence I know you were there I made your mom laugh it was so good to see her laugh anyway my dear till we meet again please give my mom a big kiss for me I love you and miss you you're always in my thoughts.

Stephanie, Dear Sweet Stephanie...Today is your birthday and as I sit here writing this to you I DO believe you can feel and see all and that you watch over everyone especially your Mom, your Dad and your Brother. Sometimes I look up at the stars and when I see the twinkling ones I always feel you winking...Just my way of telling myself that you are at peace and that the twinkle you always had in your eye is looking down from Heaven. Happy Birthday sweet girl. I am so blessed to having had you in my life on earth and now from heaven. xoxoxo Mommy #2

hey my beautiful cousin Stephanie I went to the nail salon on Monday to have a pedicure and manicure as I do every week the song in the arms of an angel came on and I started crying so bad I thought of you at your funeral laying there so beautiful and peaceful anyway I just wanted you to know that you have touched me everytime I hear that song I think of you alright my love rest in peace till we meet again and we will

Dearest Stephane,

It has been a year since that mournful day yet it seems like you were just here. Here talking to me and your Mom. Like yesterday that you were playing in the yard with John, Michael and Steven. Or when you were in our yard husking corn with Joey. You will be forever in our hearts. Your are loved and missed by so many. May you rest in peace and watch over your family.

Love Aunt Judy and Uncle Mike

hi my dear Stephanie its your cousin Neil I thought about you so much today I can't believe it's been a year better yet I can't believe you're gone we all miss you very. I know you are finally at peace please watch over your mother she misses you so much we all do I'm really not any good at this cause I got very upset during this I just wanted you to know that I love you and we miss you a lot please watch over us we love you

Sweet Steph..It is so difficult to even consider that one entire yr has passed since that terrible day when you left us to be with God. He called you home so that you could be at peace and have no more pain. The pain that is left behind is for those to endure that miss you so greatly. I worry about your Mom, Dad and Brother Bear and I hope God gives them the strength and ability to find some comfort in the wonderful memories you left them with. Rest in Peace Sweet One. Love Mindy

Stephanie my love how do I begin. One year ago today my life changed and I will never be the same again. This was not supposed to happen to our family. Your were too strong and fiery, you were indestructible, how can this have happened. Our family has a deep void that we feel every minute of every day. I was blessed to have been your mother and could never have believed that you would be gone. But as it does to so many other families, it happened to us too and we must learn to go on with just the memories to hold close to our hearts. It has been a very difficult year trying to adjust to life without you in it. I go in your room and in your closet where your "essence" still remains. It helps me feel you. I believe you are in a better place and we, your family and friends are the ones that mourn and try to go on in a life without you. You are my heart, my soul and the air I breathe. Please continue to dance in the sky and sing in the angels choir as Ij await the day that we can be together again my love. Remember I love you more than the sun, sky, moon and stars

Stephanie
It was minutes ago last year that a noise at the door woke me from a restful sleep. Although I know now what that noise was, at the time it had me both confused and angry. I figured I would find you out front smoking and I would have able to curse you out but u weren't there. The dogs were convinced somebody just went thru the door as was I so I figured I'd check mom's room but she was just waking up. As I turned from closing her door I saw the crack in your door and saw your little feet poking from behind the dresser. I knew it. Just from the sight of your toes. I then barged in to find you on your knees, forehead to the ground, facing east like a Muslim in prayer. Cold, no response, and everything changed. It's been a year, Steph and I'm doing well. There's not a day that goes by where I don't see you or laugh with you or mourn you or miss you. From the the depths of my soul I can hear my voice as a 5 year old calling for you. As if pleading with you to stop or come back. Not that you would listen ; ) I ask that you don't stop and don't cone back. Continue to evolve and grow sister. Bring us warmth in the light, bring us comfort in the breeze, remind us to pause at the fleeting moments of majesty here on Earth so that we're better equipped for the our return home. In perpetual bliss. Where emotion sounds like music and looks like color. Where the beauty of pain is realized as the sweetest summers shower. Where love overwhelms us and all things are known. Where u exist as a light brighter than any human has ever seen.
I love you so much Stephy. You were and still remain the best friend I've ever known.
Bish
; )

My dear niece Stephanie:
Thinking of u all day and praying your finally in peace, I remember when your brother called me and I did not believe it - I kept saying are u sure john please check her but he said the medical examiner took you.i am so sorry we lost you so early . Your cousin misses you so much and I miss all your giggles when you three were all together. Of course it will never be the same this family without u. Until we meet again! Love aunt debbie

Steph,

I find myself going to this tribute page often. It allows me to reflect, to smile, to cry and to always remember that you despite being far away are still so close in the hearts of so many. If only you could know just how many of us loved you and what joy you brought despite all of the heartache you endured at times.

How is it possible that your one year anniversary in heaven is soon upon us when it doesn't seem really that you are gone?. I pray everyday that your family especially Mommy #1 has been able to find even a trace of peace.

Miss you so much, Mindy

Oh my baby sis....9 months and 8 days....the hardest of my life.....and I know you know it because you've been there the whole time dragging me to this point. A point where I can hear you telling me "bish, cut the shit, let's go" and you know what I mean by this. Thank you for everything we've shared too this day and for everything you will help carry me through from here on out. You know how much I miss you, but you also know how clearly I can see and feel you still. I love you kid, lemme go so I can wipe the snot!!! I'm crying like a baby!!!! Love you so much baby sis.   - Your brother xoXox

Stephanie..I sit here reading these tributes knowing that you are finally at peace but knowing that you would be so beyond angry that "grumpy old women" is now just a memory. I remember all of the fun times the three of us had, how you always wanted to go along because you knew the two crazy beeotches would make the world seem right for all of us. You were a blessing to all and I will never forget the laughter, the tears, the closeness we shared. How despite MY being the adult it was YOU who stayed with me so I could come home to NJ and comforted and protected me until we got there. I cannot begin to imagine how hard the holidays were for your family but I hope they found strength in knowing that you have finally earned your wings and you are without pain. I hope that one day you will be able to guide the Grumpy Old Women back on the same path here on earth.

I still cannot do a selfie like you (no one can) and I still cannot do my make up like you (yes I am too old). Truly a day does not go by that you are not in my prayers. Rest in Peace and know that you are dearly loved and missed.

Hello my love, today is your 9 month angelversary. So sad and so lost. I pray you r at peace with our Lord by your side and you are smiling down to us. Know that u r in my heart

Happy New Year's Eve my love. Ugg I am not crazy about this holiday to begin with but now it is just painful. I miss you and ache for you. How can you be gone from me. Stephanie you made me so proud of you, trying so hard to kick this horrible habit. I know you hated it as much as we did. I know you tried and tried. I also know you are at peace now with Jesus. That gives me peace but I am very lonely for you. I miss you jumping on my bed and the two of us giggling and having fun before we started the day. I miss going for mani and Pedi's That was always a special time for us. Oh and forget about shopping we were dangerous together. I bought you whatever you wanted so you would be happy, and you closet is stuffed to capacity. I wont get rid of a thing. Your room is just the way you left it, but I do clean it. I was amazed to see how orderly your chest of drawers were. You were an order freak....Never realized. Baby remember I love you more than the sun moon, stars and sky xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo I miss and love you

my dear Stephanie its our first Christmas without you and your first Christmas in heaven.I thought about you on Christmas Eve and on Christmas its very hard for all of us as you know I lost my mom December 18th over 30 years ago and it's something we never get over I just  hope you're at peace nowand I really hope you know how much we all really love you rest in peace my beautiful cousin until we meet again I love you I will send you a message again soon

Merry Christmas my dear niece - we had a lovely day celebrating jesus birthday, but lucky you at home at the end of your journey celebrating with jesus. Your missed terribly we take peace knowing your in heaven watching over your family and brother. Love your favorite aunt

Hello my love, well it is Christmas Eve, a time for celebrating Christ's birth. I hope you are rejoicing in Heaven.  I am still grieving your loss. You are with me every second of every day. Baby this holiday is going to be so difficult for all of us, please be at peace and without pain as you celebrate. That will ease all of our hearts just a little bit. Merry Christmas my love, see you again when it is my time.

This is the first time I'm sending you my love. I miss you Steph and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you. Kayla sends her love as well. We both miss you. Love always and forever J♡♥

Hello my love. Today is 8 months since you left us for heaven. I know you are at peace and surrounded by love. That makes me very happy, but also I am extremely sad that I can't hug you or kiss you or talk to you about life as it goes on everyday. Do you hear me talking to you? I do talk to you while you are in heaven, I just miss you so much. Untill I see you again and am able to hug and kiss you, remember I love you more than the sun, stars, moon and sky

hi Stephanie I just wanted to say hello as you know it's Thanksgiving not a very Happy Thanksgiving for all of us but it Thanksgiving I speak to your mother at least once a week I hope you're watching over her and the rest of your family I hope you're finally at peace I miss you and think about you everyday anyway honey happy Thanksgiving I love you very much.please watch over us all. Till next time love you.

my dear Stephanie as you're well aware because I know you're watching over all of us it is going to be your grandfather's 90th birthday it will be a celebration of life for him what a sad time for all who knew you.I think about you almost every day I call your mom sometimes twice a week I'm trying to make a laugh it's been very hard on her.especially with the holidays coming up please watch over her I love your mom so much.me and0 your aunt Debbie went to the Ritz Carlton in Puerto Rico for 5 days we had so much fun you know you're aunt is a little nut job she eats Apple then works out for 4 hours but we had a blast we talked about you.alright honey I will send another message before Thanksgiving love you