Another sleepless night, as I lay awake and reminisce about our time together I know that you are awake, up there, too. You were an insomniac like me. I look at the pictures of us, and the pic I really like of us that was not blurred seems to have disappeared. I was talking to a friend about a year ago after I posted that picture and she commented how I was glowing, I looked so happy. It was us in the car and I was playing around with the camera and I asked you to take a selfie with me. Our cheeks are touching and your hand is holding my other cheek. It was in July 2013, we were so happy and excited about our future. If I could just feel your hand on my face again, like when you'd just look at me with pure love, and put my face in your hands and we didn't even have to say a word. We knew what love was, finally. Stephen, I look back and I was so happy I did not mean to hurt you if I did I am so sorry, I was so in love I was in a dream. I don't want to sound depressing, oh Gos how I ache, like another part of what is left of my crushed heart is dying. I am so sad and I miss you sweet pea. Sending you hugs and kisses until we are together again. I love you like the moon and stars Sweet Baby! )*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*