My special son I love with all my heart and the years do not get easier. From the time you was born I knew you was special. The first grandson. The first boy in our familey in 25 years. And the only child in our family with big brown eyes. You had a gift for drawing and buliding things.
You will never leave my heart anf I know you are with me all the time and our special bond will always be there
I love you Steven and I miss you so much.  

what can i say Blake was my knight in shinning armour in a game we played he always left me just what i needed to get on the game sat up late and early mornings playing the game untill i got to the next stage we laffed and  joked  he was my confedant always saying the right things when I needed a lift or helped me to solve a problem at work and then we would imagine meeting in the park not far from his apartment complex he would make a basket lunch full of goodies that we could share the fact that i was in the uk and he was in usa our distance apart made no diffrence in thease converstions it was like we were sitting next to each outher on the couch his dreams of riding horses high into the mountains of a log cabin hidden in a green meadow  and of days and nights snowed in during the winters but sadley he was taken from me fr to soon i do miss you in so many ways and i guess i always will you take care my sweet friend and like u always do every now and then let me know ur watching over me even if u are a scarey clown xx

blake and i were friends from a distance him in usa me in scotland we exchanged stories at all times of the day or night he hid from me his ill health as he didnt want a sympathy relationship but one fun and laughter of dreams and surprises it was short lived as he was taken from me to soon but through him i met some wonderfull people as well as his mum and our fun packed conversation are still with me and always will be he made me realise what life was all about and i do miss him he is one of a kind in so many ways he he will never be replaced there is a piece of my heart that will always belong to him and him alone take care hun for i know we will meet again as u said the universe is a vast and wonderfull place we are but small specs in its vastness  

i miss my sad clown always <3
 

Steven was a son like any other son except he always wanted to make me happy. He tried to do what was right but slipped once  in a while.
He and his brother was close growing up. Steven was 16 monts older than his brother. But sience Steven was sick sience he was 10. His brother always watched out for Steven.
Steven you are not in pain and suffering anymore. You was in such pain and there was nothing I could do to help but talk to you and pray for you.
Mom Loves you and you are with me everyday