December 31, 2020
December 31, 2020
Steve i love and miss u so much i'm having a drink for you. I just keep wondering what you look like i'm thinking still like a hippie laugh out loud (lol) . i wish you was here so much i love and miss you so much maybe my life wouldn't be so messed up you were here. I need yoi bro more than you know i need your help and guidenance i need you now more than anything. I wish you were still here i know we would be so close. I miss you and missy so much i cry and not a day goes by i don't think about yall. People think its strange n talk about me but o well i've always been a loaner and to myself i just wish someone could show them "m a good person i luv and miss you so much and wish u was here more than you know. I really feel like i have np one. The boyfriend i have is the same age as you but acts like he don't give a shit about me and they don't understand how i luv u n missy ao much its driving me crazy i need to be with yall in heaven more than you know. I had my best friend pass this year, 2 of my favorite uncles one of my good friends. Our sister Sue and our step sister is really sick and i think dads like me and feels lost he misses you so much. I need your help in this realtionship i have NO ONE AT ALL and THAT'S THE TRUTH. Please ask God to take me tell him you need me. I miss n luv u n MISSY and things arent the same without yall here. Idk how to conpletely go on. Its been like this everyday since yall left. I wish u cud have a drink with us. I teel like i need to leave idk wtf to d0 i need ur help. I luv u so mucj n wish u wud of took me with u. I wanna end it anytime. Help me tell me what to do. Bro i need ur help more than anything please guide me .and the truth is you probably know these guys and would totally disagree. This morning i was wondering what you would look like probably still a hippie lol hair to your shoulders smoking your weed driving fast cars and motorcycles. I know you would have protected me . and dad misses you so much too. Please beg him to bring me i"m ready and missing out i miss Granny n Missy. Luv yall. Hug and kiss them for me and tell them i luv and miss them and i'm ready to see ylall . love yall