February 25
February 25
Happy birthday uncle Stevie. I miss you so much Stevo. I wish you could be here right now. It was so nice outside today you would’ve loved it. People keep saying you’re in a better place but what better place would be with your family. You should be here. You never deserved to die. I know people say God does things for a reason but why you? I’m struggling so bad right now and I don’t know how to get better. Sometimes I wish it was me instead of you. Just so mom and your siblings and mom could still have you. Im going really dark right now. I day dream in class of going to sleep and never waking up. And that thought makes me feel good. I’m trying so hard to get better but every day is so hard. Waking up in the morning feels like a chore. Everyday is a struggle. I hope you’re doing good up there. I really do miss you. I still can’t believe you’re really gone. The good ones always go to soon. You had a whole future ahead of you. I wish I got to say goodbye to you. If I knew it was going to be the last time I saw you, I would’ve never left your arms. I’m so numb I can’t feel anything anymore. I pray and pray and pray that I get to see you soon. I keep having dreams about you being alive and talking to me. I miss you so much it physically hurts me. You’re my hero and God just took you just like that. I’m longing for the day when I see you again. Today could’ve been the day you blow out your candles. Making a wish as you closed your eyes. Everyone could be laughing. But instead I sit here and cry because we can’t have that. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you. You were taken to soon. Heaven couldn’t wait for you. I guess they were huge fans. Anyways. I miss you so much stevo. Rest easy. I’ll see you very soon.