My dearest brother in heaven....
I wish I had the chance to introduce your little nephew to you, I wish I could say my baby boy meet your uncle Sugan, you mummy’s little brother. Its two months later, and I haven’t had the words to post on your memorial page.... until today!!!
It’s been 15 years and still daddy hasn’t come to terms with your loss, last night I watched him from a distance carrying baby Cameron... his words where “Baby I too had a baby just like you, I miss him” and when Cameron cried he said.. “but you my baby too”....
I heard the sadness in his voice, saw the tears in his eyes, felt the pain in his heart that very moment... I wish there was something I could do, something I could say but the pain daddy feels haunts me...there’s no words for him.. his life ended the day you died... all I could do was walk away helpless.
I though having a baby boy would help daddy in some way with your loss, We even gave him the surname Govender after daddy... but Reuben no little baby, no surname, nothing can ever replace you in our hearts... if anything we miss you more, think of you more, cry over you more.
If I ever had a wish, I’d wish for daddy to see you again, just one more time .. in a vision, in dream... anything, it’s what he needs.
Your life was precious to us all, your memory is the strength that gets us through... your loss is the burning ache we carry deep within our hearts and soul...
My dear brother as you look down from heaven, wrap dad in your loving arms, strengthen him, guide him, protect him... give him a reason to live... cos we can’t seem too. You were his treasure, you were his pride and joy, you were his future.... Reuben you were and always will be daddy’s life.