December 23, 2022
December 23, 2022
Wassup big bruh yesterday I turned 26 years old.. I’ feel like I’m getting old man I wish you was here to come out to dinner with me and we could have chop it up like old times this makes 10 yrs since you left us it’s still been a long 10yrs with the loss of shawty b to I feel like I’m just living that’s all I wish you was here to talk to me I need some guidance or sign something just haven’t been myself lately especially when this month come around just thought about how we used to sit at the house all day and chill you were the best brother, only brother who can see straight through me idk what it was or how but you the only person in this world who understand me I know I can be very difficult sometimes (all the time) but you always will understand me even when I was or wasn’t making sense lol and I love you for that and always. But I’m coming to you today it’s going to be a new year and I need some help from you and god it’s like I can’t open up to nobody not even my own wife sometimes it’s it hurting me because I know I can do it but I’m scared man to open up to anyone but you and it hurting me and it’s been hurting me for the longest but me being me I always ignored it and try to move on but it like when i do. It’s come back and haunts me. And I’m tired big brother I promise I am I wish you were here so I can just here your voice and you tell me everything going to be okay. Man the times I did have with you I learn so much from you in the little time we did spend together I just ask you and god show me this year please how to open up and be caring love you my guy.