January 3, 2015
January 3, 2015
My dearest Travis, after a little over a year I am still waking up crying whenever I see you in my dreams. The realization that you are not physically here anymore hurts so deeply I still can't understand it very well. I miss those hugs I give you in my dreams, I miss the talks we had, every time I turn around and see a football game being broadcasted I think to my self if you were here you would be watching it, I miss your advice, your jokes, your immense will and your laughter. I wished I could have been with you before you took off because even though I told you every time we spoke on the phone that I love you it doesn't feel real that you are not here. I am happy for you though. I am happy to know you are in a better place now where there is no suffering. Still, because of the kind of man of you were you will ALWAYS be missed by everyone who was lucky enough to be part of your life. I love you for eternity.