Since you went to heaven I had to face the fact that I would never be the same again ever. I have lost my first born child, my only son. My heart is truly broken. There's a chunk is missing from my heart.
So every day I prayed for the strength to make it through this and someday overcome the sadness and hurt "OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME?" And then you brought this little boy to me, JEQUERIE PROCTOR JR. This little boy (my grand grand) reminds me so much of my son. So much that its unbelievable to me when I look at him. He knows that I'm grandma and he calls me that when he wants something, In the year and half since he's been born he's been my everything. And all the time he insists on calling me mom. Somehow he knows that it warms my heart. He has a special connection to my son, he was put here in his uncle Vincent's place. Not as a replacement, but a continuance of his love in my life and in my heart.
I love you Tru with all my heart and I miss and love you Chente' so very much.
