Its getting close to the York county fair time again.  I always think about you during or around the fair time.  You always loved the fair time.  The excitement you would have.  You enjoyed the funnel cakes.  We would get a funnel cake with bavarian and share it.  It was so good.  Mom, remember the last karaoke we went to at the fair and Robby got up and sang and we would wistle at him.  He was good.  The first song he sang was sweet child of mine by guns n roses and we thought oh no because John use to sing it but was terrible at it but Robby didn't sound too bad singing it.  I haven't been to karaoke since you left.  Nothing really has been the same.  We use to walk through the fair on Saturday night just the two of us too with Robby being at work and someone would watch my kids and it was always great.  That is when we would get our funnel cake to share.  You left me with millions of good memories that we had together.  You also always loved walking through the buildings and voting for my kids in the baby contest.  Sebastian is the first baby you are not able to vote for or be in his life.  I wish you could be in his life.  Grandma's little buddy Robert is going on 6 and will be starting kindergarten this year.  I love you and miss you so much mom every single day.  I do so much to try to still make you proud of me. 

I have been thinking about you a lot lately.  Maybe because today is Easter.  You always loved Easter.  You loved the candy and our family get togethers.  You would put together Easter egg hunts for all of the kids and they all loved it.  You always made sure they got the same amount of eggs.  You were a fair person.  You also often planned the get togethers and you would get so stressed out and always would say that you were not doing it anymore but when the next year came, you were at it again.  You loved family.  Family was important to you.  I think you were the heart of the family.  I miss you so much.  I am sure you are celebrating Easter with grandma.  You use to always make the potato salad but now I make it.  I also still do the Easter egg hunts.  I have to keep that tradition.  You are missed by everyone.  I love you mom.