I don't know how 11 years has whisked by but i do know that for every trip around the sun there has not been a day that i don't hold you in my heart. as the days turn to months those month accumulate into years i become ever more grateful of our time together and after. I was blessed to have you in my life and share mine with you in who would have never thought to be your final ones. You lifted me up when others tried to knock me down you gave love unconditionally and you showed me a side of you that few rarely see, the softer, humble, and vulnerable side of a man that i love. I used to think how unfair it was that the world lost a man with so much light and energy to give and realize these days, you are never lost my love.... you have been guiding me and with me all this time. Today i again mourn the tragedy and devastation of what it holds. I know the pain of having your beating heart ripped from your chest and the feeling of utter loneliness even while surrounded by people. The years following your passing i thought the best way i could honor you and take the love you filled me with was to live my best life , be the best man i could be, find the opportunities to do something for someone without recognition, to give the world a little bit of what you were. I feel at times i have fallen short of that goal but am forever reminded that falling down doesn't mean staying there it is the chance to get up, to rise, and try again. You will always be loved and forever Missed.