Father, I come to you with the broken pieces of my heart.
Where else can I go?
Give ear to my words, and consider my sighing. Listen to my cry for help. I come to you, my King and my God. I know you hear me and I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. (Psalm 5:1-3)
Lord, who knew a person could cry so many tears?
I am worn out from groaning. All night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears. I am weak with sorrow. (Psalm 6:6-7)
You know me. You know me better than I know myself – all of my emotions, my fear, my deep missing, my despair. I bring all of it to you.
You’ve collected every one of my tears in a bottle and recorded each one in your book. (Psalm 56:8)
Lord, I need the comfort only you can give. I need strength to get through this day and to take care of the tasks ahead of me. I need you to be my strength, to help me make decisions, to show me what to do today and what to let go. Sustain me as I walk through this valley of the shadow of death.
I have so many worries. Who knew grief could stir up so much fear? It’s paralyzing me and keeping me from moving forward. I need you desperately, Lord. Thank you for being with me and for going before me every step of this journey. Thank you that you will never leave me and never forsake me and that your promises are true and you will be forever faithful to me. Help me trust your promises over the lies the enemy feeds me. I trust you Lord, because you are good and you do good. (Psalm 119:68)
Take my despair Father and restore to me the joy of my salvation. (Psalm 51:12). Lift my head. You are a shield around me, my glory and the One who lifts my head. (Psalm 3:3) Help me see your good today. Give me eyes to see you working in me and all around me, to know that you are hemming me in behind and before. I trust that you have a hope and a future for me, even when I can’t feel it and my emotions are telling me different.
And as long as my heart is broken, Father, clean it out. I confess to you my great sin and selfishness and demanding heart and rebellion. Forgive me. Thank you for your grace and for your mercy. Thank you for loving me and for your patience. Help me see my sin for what it is and to turn from it. Help me to love others like you love them, to be humble, to wake up ready to serve and obey wherever you lead me. Do this in me, Lord, because I cannot do it myself.
But I want you. I don’t want to miss any of what you have for me and so I beg you to teach me, to open my eyes to you and to give me your heart and your mind.
My broken heart lies before you Lord and I can’t fix it. It hurts and this is hard. But I trust that you can fix it. I trust that you are holding me and that you will bring me through. I love you. Help me to love you more.
In Jesus’ holy name, I bring these requests to your throne and wait for you, Amen.
