Well here it is your birthday once again I am still unable to go to your graves, I feel so betrayed by you and dad and my entire "family " well I dont feel as part of you toxic people, and that is a good thing I have chosen my family that I want to be around and if they do anything bad I will just kick them to the curb and find new family just like I have with you people, all I ever did was be used by you and dad and so called siblings. So the name Cinderella surely fit! But not anymore now I am happy to be ME THE REAL CINDY . I feel free finally of all the put downs and snide remarks and the feeling that I never was good enough,welltohell with all that old BULLSHIT now I am just me and I love ME. yes I do miss you but am conflicted by the things you and dad did to me and bubba maybe some day i ,we will get past it.