- 39 years old
- Date of birth: Nov 17, 1971
- Date of passing: Aug 24, 2011
|Let the memory of Bernadette be with us forever|
This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Bernadette Estrada, 39, born on November 17, 1971 and passed away on August 24, 2011.
She Wrote: If I die today ...have I lived the life I wanted, and accomplished all my goals? Was I happy? Yes I am happy. My goal isn't necessarily to accomplish EVERTHING, but rather to live a life where I am working toward life's goals.
A poem for my daughter
My hands were busy through the day; I did not have much time to play
the little games you asked me to.
I'd wash your clothes, I'd sew and cook, but when you asked me to share your fun I'd say: "A little later. soon."
I'd tuck you in all safe at night and hear your prayers, turn out the light,
Then tip-toe softly to the door.....I wish I'd stayed a minute more.
For life is short, the years rushed past. No longer is she at my side
Her precious secrets to confide. The picture books are put away, there are no longer games to play, No good-night kiss, no prayers to hear....
that all belongs to yester year.
My hands, once busy, now are still. The days are long and hard to fill. I wish I could go back and do.......the little things you asked me to.
Author Unknown (modified a little by me)
"Berns, I think of you every day, but thought of you especially today. Happy Birthday! I'm celebrating your life and the times we spent together growing up. Missing you so much and wishing you were here more than ever. I hope you are celebrating with past loved ones who know how amazing you are. Love u girl! Make a wish! Xo"
"Happy birthday, Bernadette! Miss you and thinking of you always."
"So your birthday is here, I wish you were too. I think of you always and miss you more and more each day. You were here a few days ago for an instant in my dream and I hugged you. It always feels so real. I am always left with a sensation, a feeling That you are still there for few seconds even after I wake up. Miss you so much."
"Oh Berns...your picture of you and Hillary is especially heartbreaking and yet makes me so proud at the same time. You were so civic minded and vocal so young and you taught me so many things about how to be think and treat people. I am sorry we couldn't have made that happen for you this time around. But you broke so many ceilings for us on your own and for that we couldn't give you enough thanks. Happiest Birthday today, beautiful. Please keep checking in on me and imparting me with your wisdom from above to give me/us the strength to keep positive, fight for what's right and just for ALL people and to continue seeing the best in everyone. I miss you. I love you."
"Happy Birthday Bernadette, I miss you dearly. Thinking of you on this day and every other day. May the Lord bless you and your family. ❤️️"
"Missing you Cousin... You've been on my mind a lot. Maybe that's your way of communicating with me. Sure do miss seeing your beautiful face and reminds me of the time when we were all together laughing and having a good time. I remember I felt bad because I thought you needed to rest but you told me that you couldn't have been any happier to see and hear us having a wonderful time together. And Aunt Alice was happy to have her brothers and sisters together too. It was nothing but good ol family love. Miss you Bernie ❤️"
"Thinking of you as I always do and I can't believe it's been 5 years already. Thank you for being the wonderful person, cousin, friend,
and soul that you are. Even in your absence I feel your presence. I feel you encouraging me to be strong on my weak days and cheering me up with on my sad days. I hear your positivity always! Thank you! ❤️ Love U so much, and I love that Sofia met you and that she speaks about you still. She is such a blessing in my life and I know you are guiding her too."
"My Berns, I miss you so much it seems like yesterday that you passed away the pain never seems to go away.toay is your anniversary that you went with our Lord to heaven. Hey thank you from the bottom of my heart for putting that little picture in my wallet that was a sign that you made it to heaven. I have a cute little grandson his name is Noah he's two years old that's Michael's little baby. I Will Always Love You. love Dad"
"I was at Great Falls Park this past weekend which made me think of the time we went there for a picnic and a short hike one summer. Our picnic spot is still there but a little overgrown with plants. I loved it when you visited in the summers. I was also in San Antonio this April which was hard for me since I had not been there since I visited you there years ago; memories came flooding. Miss you and love you always."
"Berns wow 5 years ... today I thought of you, well I think of you all the time still, but we were at the beach and I remember how you taught me so much about the beach and all the good times we had in California. I laughed when we watched Forest Gump last night and I can still hear your laugh when he gets on the bus to boot camp! Boy do I miss you! Never forget you. I love you endlessly your "Lor" forever. xoxoxo"
"Another year has passed and there still hasn't been a day when I don't miss your infectious smile, your warmth, and bubbly personality. I miss you so much Bernadette, I'll love you always ❤️."
"Good gracious. I miss your laughter. Your wisdom. Your humor. I still just miss you. Xoxo"
"Happy Birthday, Bernadette! You were a gem in this world; miss your face, your smile, your laughter, and your words of wisdom. Think of you daily. Have a fabulous party in Heaven!"
"Berns, Sending you Birthday Wishes all the way to Heaven. Thought of you all day today. Wishing you were here so we could celebrate just one more year. Sofia and I sent prayers to you today at dinner time and she said the cutest things to you. I hope she made you smile. You continue to fill our hearts even now. Happy Birthday! We love n miss you bunches xoxo"
"Berns happy birthday... I wonder what you are doing? I miss you so much, I hope you are having a great party in heaven. I can still hear your voice . I always remember how many of your birthdays we celebrated together. Always a good meal & laughter. Today I ate sushi alone , woulda been better with you there! Love you forever ~ Lor xoxo"
"Happy Birthday, my Berns! I miss you. I love you. Please give grandma a hug for me too. Take care of each other up there. I'll be thinking of you both. XOXO"
"On your birthday, as always, you are on my mind. Wish I could turn back the clock. If there is a heaven, then you are happy and can see how much I miss you. You are in everlasting peace and pain free. The emptiness you left will never be filled. Forever, all my love."
"Well my berns another year has gone by it still seems like yesterday that you left us it doesn't get easier as the years go by it still seems like it was yesterday that we lost you I thank you for that little picture you put in my wallet showing me you made it to heaven, I thank God for taking you with him so you will no longer suffer from the pain of that horrible disease, love always Dad . Ed Estrada"
"It is so sad that you had to leave us did not enjoy the rest of your life it's hard to understand why things happen in life to someone that we all loved. That is the ultimate pain for a parent to lose a child. Now I understand the words life is not fair. On the day of your passing away last night was the worst night couldn't sleep till 730 in the morning life is not the same without you think of you every day I miss you so much life will never be the same with out you. I will love you forever my daughter your dad."
"Hard to believe it's been 4 years ... I miss you still everyday, the ache never goes away but I know you are so happy and probably telling me to chill. I can still hear your voice, and sometimes feel your presence. Make sure you watch over the familia! I wish I could hug you! Love you always ~ your Lor xoxoxo"
"Thinking of you today as I often do and remembering our lives together as children and into our teens. You were always smiling. Even when you cried you managed to find something funny to lighten the mood. I'm cherishing those times and wishing I had known they would be cut short so that we could have spent more time making new ones. Thank you for continuing to be a constant presence in my life. I go running in the trails by my house and I hear the songs we heard as kids and I know you are hearing them alongside me. I find your pictures in my desk and I hear your voice full of encouragement in my tough times. I know Heaven is a better place now that you are there. Thank you for all the special signs that let me know you are with me! You are amazing! I miss you and love you bunches!"
"Today is the first day of the anniversary of your passing that I hadn't cried or gotten depressed. Is that a bad thing? I have been asking myself all day. Perhaps it's because I'm distracted, having just started college. Or maybe it's because I'm out of tears. Is that possible? I can't recall the last time I really cried. Maybe I just don't want to let myself feel those things. Whatever it is, is not because I've forgotten you, that's for sure. You will always be in my heart and mind. I was showing some of my friends pictures from when I was young. Even though the image showed a younger me, all I saw was you. I could see you peeking from behind a camera. Calling my name, trying to catch me off guard. I just wish you took as many of yourself. Nonetheless, you will always be a prevalent person in my life, having taught me so much about the world that I couldn't possibly forget. I will always love you and thank god that I had the time with you that I did. Sleep well Tia"
"When I was little, you always knew how to explain things in a way that I could understand. Now I find myself trying to do the same with the nieces and nephews. I smile when I think to myself, "How did Berns explain it?" or "How would she explain it to me?..." I miss you."
"it feels like forever since you left, not seeing you for so long and yet, it is like just yesterday also. so unfair, why you? who had so much to give, so willing to give of your love to others without expecting anything in return. Your willingness to speak from the heart, always misunderstood. How I miss every little thing that made you special, that made you Bernadette."
"Another year has gone by and there isn't a day that I don't think about you, I miss you all the time. All the holidays are not the same anymore since you're not here with us but you are always with me in my heart in my soul I miss you more than anything in this world I will always love you and keep your memory alive as long as I live. Love You your Dad Ed Estrada"
"Miss You so much I love you!"
"Happy Birthday My Bernadette on this 17th of November when you were born. I miss you and love you a lot.They say as the years go by the pain of losing you my daughter would ease up. but your loss is still very painful with every day month and year I still miss everything about you. It seems like yesterday that you left us, but you're always with me no matter where I go or what I do you're still very much alive in my heart. I will love you and miss you forever. Your Dad Ed Estrada."
"Happy Birthday to my dear friend Bernadette. You are always on my mind, I love to think about all the great conversations we had over the years and I miss them dearly. May the Lord continue to bless you and your family. I so-miss and love you very much."
"Thinking of you today as I always do. Happy Birthday, Berns!!! Remembering the good times we shared and wishing we had one more chance to do it again! Miss You - Love you!!!"
"Happy birthday dear Bernadette. Miss you and thinking of you always."
"As always remembering you and wishing you were here right now."
"Always on our minds. Smiling at the rememberance of you. Regretting not having more time to have gotten to know you better. Mom (Elida) says to keep watching over your mom. Always missing you. Your cousin Olga (Tito) and aunt Elida."
"My dearest amiga, it's been 3 years but I can still hear you wonderful laugh. I get to talk about you when I have new guests as they always comment on your beautiful picture in my living room. I talk about how we became instant friends when we first met on the beach volleyball courts in Santa Monica. :-) I talk about your fiestiness, kindness, and generosity. I talk about how we laughed together and cried together. You're in my heart forever and simply, I miss you and I love you..."
"My Berns, I can't believe it has been 3 years. I miss you everyday, but I have learned to accept your loss not because I choose to forget, but because it hurts to much to dwell in the sadness. I am able to recall our times together and somehow smile over the good times. I talk to you each day and I know you listen to me. My kids pray for you and we chose to celebrate your life today by making cupcakes. We Love U !"
"Berns I can't believe it's been 3 years ... I was just thinking of us & the last time we had lunch together at the middle eastern restaurant! Just thinking of you and all the times we shared brings me comfort ... I can still feel your spirit with me . I love you xoxo & I miss you so much."
"I can't believe it has been three years already. So much has happened and I so miss our conversations we had about our daily lives. You will always remain in my heart, I will always love you.
Alice, you are always in my prayers."
"I love you Tia Berns. I know you're still with us."
"I thought of you knowing this day was coming up, but also because I often think to myself, "...if she were here, she would know what to do, she always did." I miss you. I don't 'celebrate' this day, but instead think about what you taught me and what you brought to my life. Thank you. -xoxo"
"You are missed everyday. words can not express what an enormous loss you were. It is still impossible to believe, it can't be true."
"On my dark night she came to comfort me. She put her arm around me and lay her head on my shoulder. So real."
"so sorry,what a nice person!"
"Christmas is here but it has much less joy without you. Much less laughter, less of everything. It is just another day."
"Know that I think of you always. Everyday."
"My Berns When you were Born, was the best thing that ever happened in my life
you were a bundle of joy.The worst thing was when you passed away and a big part of my heart was torn away. Since you were born the day after my Birthday, I try to enjoy both of our birthdays and end up crying for you, I love you and miss you, the pain in my heart hurts so much. I will Love you forever and Happy Birthday in Heaven my Berns, Love You always your Dad Ed Estrada"
"never got to say goodbye... and it still hurts, bernie. everytime i hear a bird chirp or see a feather or a grape (remember the Getty center Malibu i picked one off the vine for you), i think of you and imagine you're talking to me. today i will share about what you meant to me at my AA meeting. i dedicate it to you. i miss you. i love you. forever. for the rest of my life. you were the only one who believed in me. you always had a smile, forgave everyone, always turned the other cheek, you were selfless and always thinking of ways to enrich our lives. which you did. ten-fold...one-hundred fold. i planted a tree for you. it's in the front yard @ 2340 Penmar Ave. Los Angeles, 90291. it's the ficus in the front yard. i think i showed it to you once when i got if from ikea. i never thought it would actually grow. you'd be surprised bernadette, it's HUGE!!! i miss u...always,
"Thinking of you always and especially on this day. Your smile always lit-up a room and I’m sure Heaven tuned brighter once you showed up. Happy birthday, Bernadette! Prayers to you and your family."
"Berns I wish I could go up to heaven for just a day and spend your birthday with you again. I wonder what you're doing there? Down here life is good, but it has a hole in it ever since you left. I hate coming here b/c it reminds me you're gone...but I know you...you wouldn't want me to cry. you'd say "Lor go live life" i love u n miss you so much! Happy 41st"
"I am thinking about you today and missing you very much. These past few months have been a struggle for me and I sure could have used your wisdom and positive thoughts. I miss you very much and will always cherish the times we got to spend together. Prayers out to Bernadette's family today, I know that today is hard for you. God Bless you all."
"With God by your side, you must be truly in heaven, rejoicing. When it rains, I know God is crying tears of joy and they mingle with mine of profound sadness . I miss you so much. So so much."
"Bernadette, Amiga de mi Alma! I'm thinking of you today, as always, and missing you. I pray for you, and pray that you are smiling and shining as beautiful as ever. I remember you planned once a surprise party for me, and you cooked this awesome food! I wish I could do the same for you right now! I know your celebration is much bigger today in the presence of our Lord. I love you!!"
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