- 39 years old
- Date of birth: Nov 17, 1971
- Date of passing: Aug 24, 2011
|Let the memory of Bernadette be with us forever|
This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Bernadette Estrada, 39, born on November 17, 1971 and passed away on August 24, 2011.
She Wrote: If I die today ...have I lived the life I wanted, and accomplished all my goals? Was I happy? Yes I am happy. My goal isn't necessarily to accomplish EVERTHING, but rather to live a life where I am working toward life's goals.
A poem for my daughter
My hands were busy through the day; I did not have much time to play
the little games you asked me to.
I'd wash your clothes, I'd sew and cook, but when you asked me to share your fun I'd say: "A little later. soon."
I'd tuck you in all safe at night and hear your prayers, turn out the light,
Then tip-toe softly to the door.....I wish I'd stayed a minute more.
For life is short, the years rushed past. No longer is she at my side
Her precious secrets to confide. The picture books are put away, there are no longer games to play, No good-night kiss, no prayers to hear....
that all belongs to yester year.
My hands, once busy, now are still. The days are long and hard to fill. I wish I could go back and do.......the little things you asked me to.
Author Unknown (modified a little by me)
"It is so sad that you had to leave us did not enjoy the rest of your life it's hard to understand why things happen in life to someone that we all loved. That is the ultimate pain for a parent to lose a child. Now I understand the words life is not fair. On the day of your passing away last night was the worst night couldn't sleep till 730 in the morning life is not the same without you think of you every day I miss you so much life will never be the same with out you. I will love you forever my daughter your dad."
"Hard to believe it's been 4 years ... I miss you still everyday, the ache never goes away but I know you are so happy and probably telling me to chill. I can still hear your voice, and sometimes feel your presence. Make sure you watch over the familia! I wish I could hug you! Love you always ~ your Lor xoxoxo"
"Thinking of you today as I often do and remembering our lives together as children and into our teens. You were always smiling. Even when you cried you managed to find something funny to lighten the mood. I'm cherishing those times and wishing I had known they would be cut short so that we could have spent more time making new ones. Thank you for continuing to be a constant presence in my life. I go running in the trails by my house and I hear the songs we heard as kids and I know you are hearing them alongside me. I find your pictures in my desk and I hear your voice full of encouragement in my tough times. I know Heaven is a better place now that you are there. Thank you for all the special signs that let me know you are with me! You are amazing! I miss you and love you bunches!"
"Today is the first day of the anniversary of your passing that I hadn't cried or gotten depressed. Is that a bad thing? I have been asking myself all day. Perhaps it's because I'm distracted, having just started college. Or maybe it's because I'm out of tears. Is that possible? I can't recall the last time I really cried. Maybe I just don't want to let myself feel those things. Whatever it is, is not because I've forgotten you, that's for sure. You will always be in my heart and mind. I was showing some of my friends pictures from when I was young. Even though the image showed a younger me, all I saw was you. I could see you peeking from behind a camera. Calling my name, trying to catch me off guard. I just wish you took as many of yourself. Nonetheless, you will always be a prevalent person in my life, having taught me so much about the world that I couldn't possibly forget. I will always love you and thank god that I had the time with you that I did. Sleep well Tia"
"When I was little, you always knew how to explain things in a way that I could understand. Now I find myself trying to do the same with the nieces and nephews. I smile when I think to myself, "How did Berns explain it?" or "How would she explain it to me?..." I miss you."
"it feels like forever since you left, not seeing you for so long and yet, it is like just yesterday also. so unfair, why you? who had so much to give, so willing to give of your love to others without expecting anything in return. Your willingness to speak from the heart, always misunderstood. How I miss every little thing that made you special, that made you Bernadette."
"Another year has gone by and there isn't a day that I don't think about you, I miss you all the time. All the holidays are not the same anymore since you're not here with us but you are always with me in my heart in my soul I miss you more than anything in this world I will always love you and keep your memory alive as long as I live. Love You your Dad Ed Estrada"
"Miss You so much I love you!"
"Happy Birthday My Bernadette on this 17th of November when you were born. I miss you and love you a lot.They say as the years go by the pain of losing you my daughter would ease up. but your loss is still very painful with every day month and year I still miss everything about you. It seems like yesterday that you left us, but you're always with me no matter where I go or what I do you're still very much alive in my heart. I will love you and miss you forever. Your Dad Ed Estrada."
"Happy Birthday to my dear friend Bernadette. You are always on my mind, I love to think about all the great conversations we had over the years and I miss them dearly. May the Lord continue to bless you and your family. I so-miss and love you very much."
"Thinking of you today as I always do. Happy Birthday, Berns!!! Remembering the good times we shared and wishing we had one more chance to do it again! Miss You - Love you!!!"
"Happy birthday dear Bernadette. Miss you and thinking of you always."
"As always remembering you and wishing you were here right now."
"Always on our minds. Smiling at the rememberance of you. Regretting not having more time to have gotten to know you better. Mom (Elida) says to keep watching over your mom. Always missing you. Your cousin Olga (Tito) and aunt Elida."
"My dearest amiga, it's been 3 years but I can still hear you wonderful laugh. I get to talk about you when I have new guests as they always comment on your beautiful picture in my living room. I talk about how we became instant friends when we first met on the beach volleyball courts in Santa Monica. :-) I talk about your fiestiness, kindness, and generosity. I talk about how we laughed together and cried together. You're in my heart forever and simply, I miss you and I love you..."
"My Berns, I can't believe it has been 3 years. I miss you everyday, but I have learned to accept your loss not because I choose to forget, but because it hurts to much to dwell in the sadness. I am able to recall our times together and somehow smile over the good times. I talk to you each day and I know you listen to me. My kids pray for you and we chose to celebrate your life today by making cupcakes. We Love U !"
"Berns I can't believe it's been 3 years ... I was just thinking of us & the last time we had lunch together at the middle eastern restaurant! Just thinking of you and all the times we shared brings me comfort ... I can still feel your spirit with me . I love you xoxo & I miss you so much."
"I can't believe it has been three years already. So much has happened and I so miss our conversations we had about our daily lives. You will always remain in my heart, I will always love you.
Alice, you are always in my prayers."
"I love you Tia Berns. I know you're still with us."
"I thought of you knowing this day was coming up, but also because I often think to myself, "...if she were here, she would know what to do, she always did." I miss you. I don't 'celebrate' this day, but instead think about what you taught me and what you brought to my life. Thank you. -xoxo"
"You are missed everyday. words can not express what an enormous loss you were. It is still impossible to believe, it can't be true."
"On my dark night she came to comfort me. She put her arm around me and lay her head on my shoulder. So real."
"so sorry,what a nice person!"
"Christmas is here but it has much less joy without you. Much less laughter, less of everything. It is just another day."
"Know that I think of you always. Everyday."
"My Berns When you were Born, was the best thing that ever happened in my life
you were a bundle of joy.The worst thing was when you passed away and a big part of my heart was torn away. Since you were born the day after my Birthday, I try to enjoy both of our birthdays and end up crying for you, I love you and miss you, the pain in my heart hurts so much. I will Love you forever and Happy Birthday in Heaven my Berns, Love You always your Dad Ed Estrada"
"never got to say goodbye... and it still hurts, bernie. everytime i hear a bird chirp or see a feather or a grape (remember the Getty center Malibu i picked one off the vine for you), i think of you and imagine you're talking to me. today i will share about what you meant to me at my AA meeting. i dedicate it to you. i miss you. i love you. forever. for the rest of my life. you were the only one who believed in me. you always had a smile, forgave everyone, always turned the other cheek, you were selfless and always thinking of ways to enrich our lives. which you did. ten-fold...one-hundred fold. i planted a tree for you. it's in the front yard @ 2340 Penmar Ave. Los Angeles, 90291. it's the ficus in the front yard. i think i showed it to you once when i got if from ikea. i never thought it would actually grow. you'd be surprised bernadette, it's HUGE!!! i miss u...always,
"Thinking of you always and especially on this day. Your smile always lit-up a room and I’m sure Heaven tuned brighter once you showed up. Happy birthday, Bernadette! Prayers to you and your family."
"Berns I wish I could go up to heaven for just a day and spend your birthday with you again. I wonder what you're doing there? Down here life is good, but it has a hole in it ever since you left. I hate coming here b/c it reminds me you're gone...but I know you...you wouldn't want me to cry. you'd say "Lor go live life" i love u n miss you so much! Happy 41st"
"I am thinking about you today and missing you very much. These past few months have been a struggle for me and I sure could have used your wisdom and positive thoughts. I miss you very much and will always cherish the times we got to spend together. Prayers out to Bernadette's family today, I know that today is hard for you. God Bless you all."
"With God by your side, you must be truly in heaven, rejoicing. When it rains, I know God is crying tears of joy and they mingle with mine of profound sadness . I miss you so much. So so much."
"Bernadette, Amiga de mi Alma! I'm thinking of you today, as always, and missing you. I pray for you, and pray that you are smiling and shining as beautiful as ever. I remember you planned once a surprise party for me, and you cooked this awesome food! I wish I could do the same for you right now! I know your celebration is much bigger today in the presence of our Lord. I love you!!"
"My dearest amiga, you were the first person I thought about this morning. Feliz Compleanos! I continue to find comfort knowing that where you are, God is. How beautiful you must be, as always. So wishing I could hear that contagious laugh of yours. Feel my love and my heartbeat, and know how deeply you continue to be missed. Again, Happy Happy Birthday."
"I didn't have the pleasure to have known Bernadette, but, I came across this site a few years back and hers was the first tribute that I saw!! I thought to myself, what a beautiful young lady!! And as I read about her and all the people who love her telling stories about how much joy she brought in to their lives/ The world was brighter with her in it!! Happy Birthday wishes!!"
"So so sad You had to be 39 years old and u passed away So so sad u had to die and part this world sad shit"
"I did not know Bernadette but she was absolutely gorgeous! God Bless you're family."
"My Berns, the years keep passing by and the pain from your loss is always there. It seems like yesterday that we lost you. This has been a very sad mo. since you and my mom passed away this mo. My comfort is the picture you put in my wallet to let me know you made it to heaven. I Love You and miss you all the time. You are with me in my Heart and mind always. DAD"
bhawan unki aatma ko shanti de
the lines of her 'if may i die.......................' really made me too much sorrowful .
god bless her
"I don't believe there is a day that goes by that I don't think of you .... I hear you in my very voice at times .... I see my face and sometimes I see yours .... You were like my sister my best friend ... My heart aches to see you again . And I'm so grateful for all you taught me . I love u"
"I can't believe this day is here again. I think about you all the time Bernadette and I miss you dearly. I Love you."
""If I live until forever and my eyes no longer see, my heart will always remember what your were and are to me."
"My condolences go out to you Alice. I came across your daughters page and it caught my attention because we are a month different in age. I read your poem & tributes, you truly touched my heart. I look forward to the day when death, sorrow and pain will be no more; Rev. 21:4. I have found much comfort in the Bibles promise of a resurrection hope at John 5:28, 29 and hope you will too."
"No words can express how much I miss you."
"Hi Bernadette, I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I sure miss your warm, infectious smile and our loving conversations over the phone. Sometimes I would call you pretty upset or down, and within five minutes you'd have a smiling thinking how great life is. I love you Bernadette, I miss you."
"Berns-it's Cinco de Mayo and I remember you always being so excited to celebrate our heritage today. I often listen to my Spanish songs and every time, Anna Gabriel and Vicente Fernandez remind me of you and how you loved Vicente. And you were the only one to remember that Vicente's dad Alejandro Fernandez was one of grandpa Teno's favorite singers. Miss and love you! Happy Cinco de Mayo!"
"Dear family, friends............. i just had to comment on how BEAUTIFUL she is , such amazing photos, my heart sang tho , as i know people who do good, carry on doimg good, AMAZING pics and memorys God bless you all xxxxx Love N light Clair x."
"Bernadette, recently I found some dried rosemary from your home garden in San Antonio that you gave me long time ago. I used it in a baked chicken dish. You would be proud, it turned out delicious thanks to your rosemary. Also, I had a dream of you last night you visiting me in school. Thanks for visiting. Miss you & think of you always."
"I was looking for a graphic for my cousin (also named Bernadette) & found this website. I have read every story, letter, caption & seen all the pictures here of your beloved Bernadette. I am so touched. She was my age, accomplished so much in her life. You should be so proud. Condolences to your entire family..and to her mother Alice, your words made me cry. So much love. Blessings to you."
"Happy Easter my Berns, Another Holiday spent in Heaven with our Lord .My pet Roxy should be with you since she past away April 1st she just got to old. So mija now you have a pet in Heaven. She was a faithful companion for 15 years I will miss her a lot.she was like familly. I always think of you my Berns.Love You Always Dad."
"Hi cuz. Mom and i hav been thinking alot about bernadette and you. We pray for you every day. We think about bernadette watching over you. Taking care of you. Take care. Call mom when you get a chance.love you. Mom misses yo u terribly. Love Olga"
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