August 24, 2018
August 24, 2018
missing u
This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Bernadette Estrada, 39, born on November 17, 1971 and passed away on August 24, 2011.
She Wrote: If I die today ...have I lived the life I wanted, and accomplished all my goals? Was I happy? Yes I am happy. My goal isn't necessarily to accomplish EVERTHING, but rather to live a life where I am working toward life's goals.
A poem for my daughter
My hands were busy through the day; I did not have much time to play
the little games you asked me to.
I'd wash your clothes, I'd sew and cook, but when you asked me to share your fun I'd say: "A little later. soon."
I'd tuck you in all safe at night and hear your prayers, turn out the light,
Then tip-toe softly to the door.....I wish I'd stayed a minute more.
For life is short, the years rushed past. No longer is she at my side
Her precious secrets to confide. The picture books are put away, there are no longer games to play, No good-night kiss, no prayers to hear....
that all belongs to yester year.
My hands, once busy, now are still. The days are long and hard to fill. I wish I could go back and do.......the little things you asked me to.
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August 24, 2018
August 24, 2018
I truly miss my dear friend... an immense loss that is still hard to believe and can't be explained.
February 14, 2018
February 14, 2018
Thinking of you today, Remembering you always. You are Never far from my mind.
November 20, 2017
November 20, 2017
Happy Belated Birthday, beautiful. I miss you and have been thinking of you.
XO.
XO.
November 17, 2017
November 17, 2017
All i can say, is wish you were here. I had a dream about you last night. You were playing your guitar and singing in the funny way you used to, to make me laugh. I laughed so much in the dream. Wish the dream could last forever.
November 17, 2017
November 17, 2017
May you have a very blessed birthday in heaven my daughter, as usual we all miss you very very much. Life will never be the same since you're departure I think of you everyday and I always will but someday I'll be with you and the rest of our family that has passed on love you always my sweetheart. Love you your dad Ed Estrada
November 17, 2017
November 17, 2017
Thinking about and missing my friend on your birthday!
November 17, 2017
November 17, 2017
Hi beautiful. Happy birthday! Another year gone by and I'm still in disbelief. I go through moments where I miss you, but it's easy to think of our fun times together and although I miss you, I am comforted in the strength that you fill inside me. I talk to you and you listen. Thanks for always being there. Love you bunches Berns.
#yourstrengthempowersme!
#yourstrengthempowersme!
September 22, 2017
September 22, 2017
I met you (Bernadette) in NYC back in 2000, in such random circumstances. I call it a destiny. You were such a charming person with full of positive energy and compassion. We made good friends and had best of our times that I cherish till date. We were in touch for many many years, and you would talk about the time at NIH, places you traveled including Italy, Beirut, Lebanon, our fond interest in cooking/food, etc. I was devastated to learn about the health diagnosis and can not still come to the terms. You have been and will always be in our hearts and minds forever! I miss you so much!!!
August 30, 2017
August 30, 2017
Hi Bernadette, I was diagnosed with Sino-Nasal Undifferentiated Carcinoma (stage 3) on January 6th of this year. I had to endure radiation and Chemotherapy simultaneously for 12 weeks. I thought about you every day during my treatments and your bravery throughout your treatments. You have always been a shining star for me, and I thank God every day that you were in my life. I pray for The Lord to comfort your family as I know you are severely missed and never out of their minds. God bless you.
August 27, 2017
August 27, 2017
This is the month my Berns went to Heaven. I miss you more then anything in this world. You're always with me everyday of my life. I will always keep you in my heart. I will always Love you my Daughter your Dad.
August 24, 2017
August 24, 2017
Thinking of you today as I do everyday.
August 24, 2017
August 24, 2017
Oye vai, Beautiful. What a year! This world could certainly use so much of your wisdom and perspective. I know, I could. Thinking of you today, and more so during these unstable times questioning, "what would Berns say/do?".....Please give all my grandparents a hug for me as well. I love you. So missed.
November 17, 2016
November 17, 2016
Happy Birthday Bernadette, I miss you dearly. Thinking of you on this day and every other day. May the Lord bless you and your family. ❤️️
November 17, 2016
November 17, 2016
Oh Berns...your picture of you and Hillary is especially heartbreaking and yet makes me so proud at the same time. You were so civic minded and vocal so young and you taught me so many things about how to be think and treat people. I am sorry we couldn't have made that happen for you this time around. But you broke so many ceilings for us on your own and for that we couldn't give you enough thanks. Happiest Birthday today, beautiful. Please keep checking in on me and imparting me with your wisdom from above to give me/us the strength to keep positive, fight for what's right and just for ALL people and to continue seeing the best in everyone. I miss you. I love you.
November 17, 2016
November 17, 2016
So your birthday is here, I wish you were too. I think of you always and miss you more and more each day. You were here a few days ago for an instant in my dream and I hugged you. It always feels so real. I am always left with a sensation, a feeling That you are still there for few seconds even after I wake up. Miss you so much.
November 17, 2016
November 17, 2016
Happy birthday, Bernadette! Miss you and thinking of you always.
November 17, 2016
November 17, 2016
Berns, I think of you every day, but thought of you especially today. Happy Birthday! I'm celebrating your life and the times we spent together growing up. Missing you so much and wishing you were here more than ever. I hope you are celebrating with past loved ones who know how amazing you are. Love u girl! Make a wish! Xo
August 27, 2016
August 27, 2016
Missing you Cousin... You've been on my mind a lot. Maybe that's your way of communicating with me. Sure do miss seeing your beautiful face and reminds me of the time when we were all together laughing and having a good time. I remember I felt bad because I thought you needed to rest but you told me that you couldn't have been any happier to see and hear us having a wonderful time together. And Aunt Alice was happy to have her brothers and sisters together too. It was nothing but good ol family love. Miss you Bernie ❤️
August 25, 2016
August 25, 2016
My Berns, I miss you so much it seems like yesterday that you passed away the pain never seems to go away.toay is your anniversary that you went with our Lord to heaven. Hey thank you from the bottom of my heart for putting that little picture in my wallet that was a sign that you made it to heaven. I have a cute little grandson his name is Noah he's two years old that's Michael's little baby. I Will Always Love You. love Dad
August 25, 2016
August 25, 2016
Thinking of you as I always do and I can't believe it's been 5 years already. Thank you for being the wonderful person, cousin, friend,
and soul that you are. Even in your absence I feel your presence. I feel you encouraging me to be strong on my weak days and cheering me up with on my sad days. I hear your positivity always! Thank you! ❤️ Love U so much, and I love that Sofia met you and that she speaks about you still. She is such a blessing in my life and I know you are guiding her too.
and soul that you are. Even in your absence I feel your presence. I feel you encouraging me to be strong on my weak days and cheering me up with on my sad days. I hear your positivity always! Thank you! ❤️ Love U so much, and I love that Sofia met you and that she speaks about you still. She is such a blessing in my life and I know you are guiding her too.
August 24, 2016
August 24, 2016
Good gracious. I miss your laughter. Your wisdom. Your humor. I still just miss you. Xoxo
August 24, 2016
August 24, 2016
Another year has passed and there still hasn't been a day when I don't miss your infectious smile, your warmth, and bubbly personality. I miss you so much Bernadette, I'll love you always ❤️.
August 24, 2016
August 24, 2016
Berns wow 5 years ... today I thought of you, well I think of you all the time still, but we were at the beach and I remember how you taught me so much about the beach and all the good times we had in California. I laughed when we watched Forest Gump last night and I can still hear your laugh when he gets on the bus to boot camp! Boy do I miss you! Never forget you. I love you endlessly your "Lor" forever. xoxoxo
August 24, 2016
August 24, 2016
I was at Great Falls Park this past weekend which made me think of the time we went there for a picnic and a short hike one summer. Our picnic spot is still there but a little overgrown with plants. I loved it when you visited in the summers. I was also in San Antonio this April which was hard for me since I had not been there since I visited you there years ago; memories came flooding. Miss you and love you always.
November 17, 2015
November 17, 2015
Well my berns another year has gone by it still seems like yesterday that you left us it doesn't get easier as the years go by it still seems like it was yesterday that we lost you I thank you for that little picture you put in my wallet showing me you made it to heaven, I thank God for taking you with him so you will no longer suffer from the pain of that horrible disease, love always Dad . Ed Estrada
November 17, 2015
November 17, 2015
On your birthday, as always, you are on my mind. Wish I could turn back the clock. If there is a heaven, then you are happy and can see how much I miss you. You are in everlasting peace and pain free. The emptiness you left will never be filled. Forever, all my love.
November 17, 2015
November 17, 2015
Happy Birthday, my Berns! I miss you. I love you. Please give grandma a hug for me too. Take care of each other up there. I'll be thinking of you both. XOXO
November 17, 2015
November 17, 2015
Berns happy birthday... I wonder what you are doing? I miss you so much, I hope you are having a great party in heaven. I can still hear your voice . I always remember how many of your birthdays we celebrated together. Always a good meal & laughter. Today I ate sushi alone , woulda been better with you there! Love you forever ~ Lor xoxo
November 17, 2015
November 17, 2015
Berns, Sending you Birthday Wishes all the way to Heaven. Thought of you all day today. Wishing you were here so we could celebrate just one more year. Sofia and I sent prayers to you today at dinner time and she said the cutest things to you. I hope she made you smile. You continue to fill our hearts even now. Happy Birthday! We love n miss you bunches xoxo
November 17, 2015
November 17, 2015
Happy Birthday, Bernadette! You were a gem in this world; miss your face, your smile, your laughter, and your words of wisdom. Think of you daily. Have a fabulous party in Heaven!
August 25, 2015
August 25, 2015
It is so sad that you had to leave us did not enjoy the rest of your life it's hard to understand why things happen in life to someone that we all loved. That is the ultimate pain for a parent to lose a child. Now I understand the words life is not fair. On the day of your passing away last night was the worst night couldn't sleep till 730 in the morning life is not the same without you think of you every day I miss you so much life will never be the same with out you. I will love you forever my daughter your dad.
August 24, 2015
August 24, 2015
it feels like forever since you left, not seeing you for so long and yet, it is like just yesterday also. so unfair, why you? who had so much to give, so willing to give of your love to others without expecting anything in return. Your willingness to speak from the heart, always misunderstood. How I miss every little thing that made you special, that made you Bernadette.
August 24, 2015
August 24, 2015
When I was little, you always knew how to explain things in a way that I could understand. Now I find myself trying to do the same with the nieces and nephews. I smile when I think to myself, "How did Berns explain it?" or "How would she explain it to me?..." I miss you.
August 24, 2015
August 24, 2015
Today is the first day of the anniversary of your passing that I hadn't cried or gotten depressed. Is that a bad thing? I have been asking myself all day. Perhaps it's because I'm distracted, having just started college. Or maybe it's because I'm out of tears. Is that possible? I can't recall the last time I really cried. Maybe I just don't want to let myself feel those things. Whatever it is, is not because I've forgotten you, that's for sure. You will always be in my heart and mind. I was showing some of my friends pictures from when I was young. Even though the image showed a younger me, all I saw was you. I could see you peeking from behind a camera. Calling my name, trying to catch me off guard. I just wish you took as many of yourself. Nonetheless, you will always be a prevalent person in my life, having taught me so much about the world that I couldn't possibly forget. I will always love you and thank god that I had the time with you that I did. Sleep well Tia
August 24, 2015
August 24, 2015
Thinking of you today as I often do and remembering our lives together as children and into our teens. You were always smiling. Even when you cried you managed to find something funny to lighten the mood. I'm cherishing those times and wishing I had known they would be cut short so that we could have spent more time making new ones. Thank you for continuing to be a constant presence in my life. I go running in the trails by my house and I hear the songs we heard as kids and I know you are hearing them alongside me. I find your pictures in my desk and I hear your voice full of encouragement in my tough times. I know Heaven is a better place now that you are there. Thank you for all the special signs that let me know you are with me! You are amazing! I miss you and love you bunches!
August 24, 2015
August 24, 2015
Hard to believe it's been 4 years ... I miss you still everyday, the ache never goes away but I know you are so happy and probably telling me to chill. I can still hear your voice, and sometimes feel your presence. Make sure you watch over the familia! I wish I could hug you! Love you always ~ your Lor xoxoxo
January 15, 2015
January 15, 2015
Another year has gone by and there isn't a day that I don't think about you, I miss you all the time. All the holidays are not the same anymore since you're not here with us but you are always with me in my heart in my soul I miss you more than anything in this world I will always love you and keep your memory alive as long as I live. Love You your Dad Ed Estrada
November 18, 2014
November 18, 2014
Happy Birthday My Bernadette on this 17th of November when you were born. I miss you and love you a lot.They say as the years go by the pain of losing you my daughter would ease up. but your loss is still very painful with every day month and year I still miss everything about you. It seems like yesterday that you left us, but you're always with me no matter where I go or what I do you're still very much alive in my heart. I will love you and miss you forever. Your Dad Ed Estrada.
November 18, 2014
November 18, 2014
Miss You so much I love you!
November 17, 2014
November 17, 2014
As always remembering you and wishing you were here right now.
November 17, 2014
November 17, 2014
Happy birthday dear Bernadette. Miss you and thinking of you always.
November 17, 2014
November 17, 2014
Thinking of you today as I always do. Happy Birthday, Berns!!! Remembering the good times we shared and wishing we had one more chance to do it again! Miss You - Love you!!!
November 17, 2014
November 17, 2014
Happy Birthday to my dear friend Bernadette. You are always on my mind, I love to think about all the great conversations we had over the years and I miss them dearly. May the Lord continue to bless you and your family. I so-miss and love you very much.
September 2, 2014
September 2, 2014
Always on our minds. Smiling at the rememberance of you. Regretting not having more time to have gotten to know you better. Mom (Elida) says to keep watching over your mom. Always missing you. Your cousin Olga (Tito) and aunt Elida.
August 26, 2014
August 26, 2014
My dearest amiga, it's been 3 years but I can still hear you wonderful laugh. I get to talk about you when I have new guests as they always comment on your beautiful picture in my living room. I talk about how we became instant friends when we first met on the beach volleyball courts in Santa Monica. :-) I talk about your fiestiness, kindness, and generosity. I talk about how we laughed together and cried together. You're in my heart forever and simply, I miss you and I love you...
August 25, 2014
August 25, 2014
Berns I can't believe it's been 3 years ... I was just thinking of us & the last time we had lunch together at the middle eastern restaurant! Just thinking of you and all the times we shared brings me comfort ... I can still feel your spirit with me . I love you xoxo & I miss you so much.
August 25, 2014
August 25, 2014
My Berns, I can't believe it has been 3 years. I miss you everyday, but I have learned to accept your loss not because I choose to forget, but because it hurts to much to dwell in the sadness. I am able to recall our times together and somehow smile over the good times. I talk to you each day and I know you listen to me. My kids pray for you and we chose to celebrate your life today by making cupcakes. We Love U !
August 24, 2014
August 24, 2014
You are missed everyday. words can not express what an enormous loss you were. It is still impossible to believe, it can't be true.
August 24, 2014
August 24, 2014
I thought of you knowing this day was coming up, but also because I often think to myself, "...if she were here, she would know what to do, she always did." I miss you. I don't 'celebrate' this day, but instead think about what you taught me and what you brought to my life. Thank you. -xoxo
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November 22, 2023
November 22, 2023
Thinking of you, missing you, always on my mind. Your day may pass me by but not the memory of you.
November 18, 2023
November 18, 2023
Happy birthday in heaven, my beautiful daughter. Say hi to my mom, my dad and all of our other relatives. It doesn’t get any is easier you’re always in my mind all the time Mayham and I keep you warm in my heart. I love you very much and miss you. I love you very much and I miss you a lot. Love you always dad.
November 18, 2023
November 18, 2023
Hello Beautiful, Thinking about you today as I do everyday. Wishing you a happy Heavenly Birthday. Im not sure how you would be celebrating in heaven but I know you will be surrounded by angels because you made friends everywhere you went. Thank you for your love and strength, it keeps me going everyday and thanks for the memories. We laughed so much when we were younger. Miss those fun times, and I just miss you Girlie! H B D
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I believe you are with angels
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Bernadette as Huichi Mama
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Bernadette on her travels in Europe
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London (2002) Bernadette and co. set up a sting operation
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London (2002) Bernadette gets lost
Tears and Roses in memory of you
Bernie NJROTC 14
To Bernie from Bruce Melnick Shuttle commander
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Your visit
August 23, 2023
I was watching the HIlary damage on TV from my recliner. I fell asleep and your visit started in my dream life. We were having a discussion still watching TV. You were to my left sitting on a chair. I fell asleep in my dream, when I woke up, you were to my right leaning on the recliner arm. You were looking at the TV. I thought to myself, I am so glad you are still here. I moved your hair away from your face, you looked down at me and smiled. I pulled you down towards me and kissed your forehead. I woke up, it takes a while to realize it was a dream, cause I could still feel you next to me.
I have a dream abba
October 20, 2019
I have a dream, I hear you sing to help me cope with everything
You make me see the wonder of a fairy tale, I can take the future even if I fail.
I believe in angels, something good in everything I'll see. I believe in angels.
When the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream, I have a dream.
I have a dream, you sing to me to help me through reality.
And my destination makes it worth the while, pushing thru the darkness just to see you smile
I believe in angels. something good in everything I'll see. I believe you wait for me.
When the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream, you'll come for me
I'll cross the stream, I have my dreams
You come to me to help me cope with everything
You make me see the wonder of a fairy tale, I can take the future even if I fail
I believe in angels. Something good in everything I'll see
I believe in angels.
When I know the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream - You'll come for me.
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
You make me see the wonder of a fairy tale, I can take the future even if I fail.
I believe in angels, something good in everything I'll see. I believe in angels.
When the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream, I have a dream.
I have a dream, you sing to me to help me through reality.
And my destination makes it worth the while, pushing thru the darkness just to see you smile
I believe in angels. something good in everything I'll see. I believe you wait for me.
When the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream, you'll come for me
I'll cross the stream, I have my dreams
You come to me to help me cope with everything
You make me see the wonder of a fairy tale, I can take the future even if I fail
I believe in angels. Something good in everything I'll see
I believe in angels.
When I know the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream - You'll come for me.
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
space shuttle crew endeavor
September 21, 2016
The crew stopped by where bernie worked during their stay at Edwards Airforce Base. The Mission Specialist Commander Bruce E Melnick autographed this photo of them for her. She also got some other momentos of the flight from the crew members. This was during the may 1992 return landing of the shuttle's first flight.