Ohhhhhhh. Aaron 15years, I can't believe it! There really aren't any words I can say to or about you.
You already know them and it doesn't matter what's others think, even your sister.
I still think about you every day. Our phone conversations! Her monumental! I still remember laying on the bed in WI and you in KS
And talked forever! But it never did matter, we always did our own thing, not looking or caring who or what "they" thought!
Like getting a new tv in a box in your new red neon! Oh what a night!
Thanksgiving or a movie? Hummm. Well we thought wrong! We were shocked!!! But we all pulled through and can laugh about now, even though there's no one that really cares anymore! So sad, I never ever thought I'd see it, but I'm living it now.
My Dear Son, that I love more than there are words for and will till I have no breathe. I have no family as we knew it. Its lonely, very quiet, and I have no purpose anymore! So why a I still hear? I wish I knew, but only God knows.

Oh Aaron, its coming up on 15 years now! I'm in shock its been that long!
It seems like just yesterday we were all together at Loris house! Right before your move, I was so worried for you guys. But what was to come after the move! It sure seems like just yesterday....
We came racing to of all on and the Kansas. Your life ended and mine changed forever more. Never to ever seem right again!
I've lost Tom, since then and moved around like a crazy woman, and still am not happy.
But the end of my road is coming. I'm not afraid. I sure hope I see you then.

Oh Aaron,
 Sure been thinking of you!! 
My son, my baby, that wasn't a baby anymore! Was a grown man, but I loved him.
One out of thirteen You were the one to be killed!
It took part of my heart that day! If tears could have brought you back, I sure wouldn't be writing this!! Instead I'd be telling you
Halloween is hear!!! Its our time!! Come on lets go to the mall! And you make
Your brain mold!!!
OH AARON I MISS YOU!!
LOVE YOU,
mom

What I would give!
To spend your Bday w/ you!
I don't think ill ever get used to you being gone!
Words just aren't enough!

Well Aaron, its been 13 years and I'm all alone! No one is going to see this, as there is no contact left! I sure do miss you!
What I'd give for one more hug, telephone call, long talk about any and everything! And most of all time with you laughing! Its just a very sad world I live in now!
Love you forever!
Your mom

Wow,44! What I would give to have ,44 minutes with you!
Or it doesn't matter I'm not going to get nothing!
The whole world is a mess and no one has a clue when what or how!
It will never be the way it was in 2007 or even in 2019 , I don't think!
It's sad, cold, dark...But you would have understood it all!
Wow the talks we would have had!
My mind feels like a 78 record that's skipping.
But I love you always will, your goofy mom.

Happy Birthday! Forever Aaron, I still miss you everyday! I sure know
if you were still here I wouldn't be lost, lonely, or any of the dam feeling I live in every day! ❤
Oh wow, I remember all the goofy things you liked to cook!
The jello brain, and when you showed me how to do the jello pudding in a cup!!
Id forgot that, wow!! It's just like yesterday, we were shaking up those cups eating pudding!!lol!!
Love you Always
Mom

Oh Aaron,
I can't believe it's been 12 years!
I still miss you every day! Wish I had pictures of all the things you have drawn!
I would share!
Listening to Crash Test Dummies
I know you'd laugh!
Your Always in my heart!

Well its that day! No matter how hard i try i hear those words in my head. The ones i heard 11 years ago....the ones that changed my life forever!
Never ever did i think it would happen but it did! The worse thing a mother fears ever
Her child no matter the age is taken away!!
Ohhhhhh Aaron what i would give to change everything about that day!!
I think on this day. I should be able to get a phone call from you at least.....
Anything....but ya know i can hear your voice now.....
I love you too son...
Always will....
mom

ohhhhh Aaron I'm trying its been the longest 10 years of my life . I can't believe it. it still feels like yesterday it still hurts I have no one to talk to any more... I guess ive learned why no one has ever wanted to listen. so I don't talk so much and its ok...but oh Hun I sure I could sure use one of awesome

Aaron, you were born today! I sure remember it so well! This week is just weird, your death and birthday, a week apart! I wish you were here for it! I can almost hear you talking to me! So much you've missed, but I'm sure your watching it all! There's so very much I'd love to tell you, but all I can do is hope you know it all already! I'd sure like to be making your Bday meal and cake! We'd laugh so much and maybe get a new tattoo!      Love Always, mom. .

Oh my Aaron, its so hard to think of you as gone, when I wish you were here so much! I still hear your voice, our talks, of course I haven't heard from anyone today, sure is lonely w/o you and Tom, I have no friends now, and don't even know why I'm still here!!! But Hon, I love you as always and time hasn't changed how much I wish you were still here!! Always your goofy mom

Wow Aaron! It would be your Big Birthday!!!! I miss you so much, I would love to talk to you! And I do talk to you a lot, as I talk to Tom too!!! My life sure hasn't been so peachy since I lost you both!!! Some times I wish I'm was with you!! With lots of love always! Mom

Oh my son, its been 8 years and still hurts today as bad as it did 8 years ago! I think of u so very often! I miss u so much, all the time! I know u know what all has happened in my life since u were took away! Its been rough! Harder than i ever thought it could be! I hope u hear me when i talk to u! Its often! I'll always love u and miss u with all my heart! Mom

Aaron, it's been an awful year! I lost Tom in 2015, and it was down hill after that! But things are going good now! I moved and me and Lynda are room mates! I know, you'd never have thought, me either but it's great!! Sure wish you were here! But I know you know that! Always love you! Mom

Oh Aaron, today would be your B-Day. I wish we could be celebrating it all together!!! But by now I know you know I lost Tom too, I hope some how you 2, are together! I'm so lost right now, I don't know what to do! I've cried enough tears to flood myself!! I don't know about this journey I'm on now, its not making sense, losing both of you has me in a whole different place! It hurts so much, but I can hear what Tom would say! But it doesn't change anything for me now, I don't know what I'm waiting for, that is the hardest of all!! And no one understands!! I love you and always will!! mom

Well Aaron!! I hope you have found Tom!! As he passed away on our wedding anniversary!! I thought losing you would kill me! But I went on! And now this! I am so tired! My heart is just about empty! I still think of you so often!! And now I pray some how you two have found each other! And will be waiting for mewhen my time is up!!! Love Always, Mom

I love you, Aaron!!! I miss you everyday!! I think of you always! You live on in my heart! All the awesome memories of all the things we did and laughed! Ohh we did have some laughs!! I would give anything too just have 5 minutes with you again!! We will be together again!!

Aaron, It's been 5 years now. I so wish I could at least email you. I will never forget this day and so much more I would like to say but I just can't right now. Just know you will never be forgotten and you are loved!

Well, Aaron its been 5 long years w/o you, I still miss you like it was yesterday, I would give anything to have just a little more time /you, 1 more hug, 1more phone call, 1more laugh, I have all our memories in my heart as they will always be, till we're together again, I love you, mom

Oh Aaron, I would so love to see you with your kids and with mine. They have all gotten so big. I have a teen and pre-teen, what would you think of that? Thinking of you, Love you and Miss you!!

Wow, Aaron, its been 4 years now, it seems to me like 4 hours if that, I still miss you, there are no words to describe it! I think of you every day, I think of all the things we talked about and laughed till we rolled! Thats what I have, are the BEST memories of all! I love you and plan on seeing you again, some day! All my Love Forever, Mom

Today is your B-day, a big one! You would have been 35, wow would we have laughed at that! And of course I am thinking of you so very much today, its like you are right here w/ me. I will want to call you in a few hours to say "Happy Birthday".

With it being your bday, I always think of that dumb little game we played when we were young how old each of us would be when. I always think of that on each of our bdays.