Today marks the 8th Christmas without you. Nothing is easier nor better and the seat you should have been sitting at remained empty. You would be so proud of 3 of your nephews. They managed to include you in this day in such amazing way.  Their gifts to me were about you. This is the first Christmas I was able to push the tears away. I look at the village and tree and wish you were here to see them because you loved them so much. It was such a struggle to do either this year. How I wish you could have been here to see your 10 nephews and your niece and to see how amazing they are. They remember you and that brings me joy because it shows me just how much they felt your love when you were here. I told Kerry that we got to celebrate the birth of Jesus but you got to sit at his table and celebrate with him. I want you to know I love you so much and I miss you more and more everyday. Especially this time of year. So until I see you again.  know I love you and will hold you in my heart and keep my memories close until that day comes. You are the most beautiful Angel that there could ever be. I live you baby girl! Love Mom

Today of all days, I see a spider. Made me think of you, I know how you didn’t like them. Logan is terrified of them too. You being gone 8 years today, I can’t believe it’s been that long. You are missed and still very much loved. 

Hey beautiful girl, 
been thinking of you a lot lately. Talking about you a lot too. I remember when I first met you, Rob called you “Bonehead”  You and I had a great bond, you were like a little sister to me. You always said you were going to steal me from your brother, always made me laugh. You never realize what you have until it’s gone. It’s an emptiness that can’t quite be explained, I want to give you a hug and see your beautiful smile. I love you, keep smiling down from heaven on all of us.