My boo boo, I remember how you always encouraged me especially with my career, how you travelled with me to write my professional exams, how you went about dropping my CV in different offices, how you attended meetings with me, how you took me for all my antenatal classes, how we went even to the local markets together, how you went about sharing my business flyers on my behalf, how you were always with me everywhere....Even in your crisis, it was not a big deal...
I just knew everything about you was different, even though I knew you were deeper than you looked...you loved me beyond the usual, you never did anything deliberate to hurt me.
I remember how patient you were with me especially when we had to attend Sunday morning masses, you just didn't know how to complain.
In a way I felt you knew you were going to die, you always lived for today, you didnt believe in acquiring matèrial possessions, all the things you did and said, going through your wish list, everything came to pass...especially the gift of Ifeanyichukwu.
I remember how your you wanted Bro Emeka to be Ifeanyis Godfather, as if you knew, he has been helpful and supportive.
I remember how you were so eager to take your legion promise, as if you knew.
I remember your favorite word "I'm sorry" at all times, as if you knew.
I remember the day you said how much you loved me and how your life changed since you met me, how we were destined to be together...Now i believe destiny brought us together.
I remember all the times you were appreciative of everything, how you would say Boo boo thank you for everything.
I remember when I cried and cried during one of your crisis, you held and assured me everything would be fine.
I remember when you had to sell your expensive phone just we could have money in the house.
I remember the times you would bring home your salary and tell me boo boo, take, this is all I have, manage it and run our home.
I remember when you had to follow me to see a certain VIP for my job a certain time.
I remember all the times during your crisis and torment, after wandering all over, you would always return home.
I remember how responsible you were, you lived a decent life...
I remember how you loved our neighbours, especially the kids...
My phone inbox is filled with so many I LOVE and MISS you from you, I remember you telling me how your life was not the same since I left for Lagos, how you felt you were in a cage living with strangers, asking why I left in the first place, how I had to explain why I had to leave. You told me severally how you cried at nights because I was not there. I felt broken knowing you missed me that much, we were superexcited when i was to return home only to be told my very beloved Arinze was dead...
Even though I didn't see this coming, I was no longer comfortable with the whole arrangement. How i wished you could leave that house. The people around you I didn't trust, how they took advantage of our situation. So many things you told me i cant say here, i really wished i was there. Your sudden death is still a mystery to me and everyone...
Even though I felt bad that those who should have cared more for you, are those busy planning your funeral. I am a widow at 30 and your Son is fatherless. I pray your death will not be in vain. I pray God grants your family total conversion and deliverance, above all i pray for the grace to make Heaven.
Boo boo I miss you, I cry everyday, I'm so empty without you...how do I explain to your Son happened to his father? I'm still in shocked, that I didn't drop dead, is the grace of God.
I know God is fighting this battle and as you said God has given us victory...
Even though I believe you should not have died, God surely knows best.
As you are with your creator, don't forget to intercede for us...I LOVEEeeeeeeeeeeee you my beloved husband.
