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This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Brian Santos Jr., 32, born on October 29, 1981 and  on January 1, 2014 he was murdered. He was a Sergeant in the military and did 2 tours over seas. He loved his country and his family and friends with all his heart.  
We will always keep him in our hearts until we meet again. As long as there is still ME, there will always be YOU.

January 16, 2015
January 16, 2015
Praying everyday for Justice. Miss you soo much. Your brothers are finding there path and making life changing decisions. I pray for them too. I hope where ever they go and what ever they do they are happy and safe. I love you my son.
January 13, 2015
January 13, 2015
My prayers for you Brian are every morning and evening there is not a day that goes by without you on my mind . Miss you and wish I could here your laugh .
January 12, 2015
January 12, 2015
Your brother Randy is going home to Hawaii. You and God watch over him for me. I pray he will be happy and find peace. He misses you so much even though he tries to be strong. I can see that he is struggling without you. He lost his brother and his best friend. We love you and miss you sooo much Brian.
January 11, 2015
January 11, 2015
Jan 29 is the pre preliminary hearing to find out when they will have the preliminary hearing. I just keep praying to God that justice will be served for you. I miss you so much. Some days work is hard but I know I have to keep getting up and keep moving. I love you my son.
January 8, 2015
January 8, 2015
Waiting again. Another pre preliminary hearing for Jan 29. It is sad to me that the victims have to wait so long for justice. But Brian we will continue to pray and not lose faith. I miss you so much. I love you always my son.
January 6, 2015
January 6, 2015
I have butterfly's in my stomach today. Today is the day we find out about the preliminary hearing. What date it is going to be. I pray they set it for Jan 26 and not continue to move it. I love you Brian and miss you soo much. We pray for justice for you for 2015.
January 3, 2015
January 3, 2015
All I can say today is that I miss you soo much. I am still taking it slowly. Some days are so hard.
December 31, 2014
December 31, 2014
2014 Has been the hardest year of my life.
My heart is still and always will be broken Brian.
Losing a child is the most painful thing I have gone through.
But through it all I have learned a lot.
I have learned that life is short. Enjoy
every waking moment. Don't hesitate to
do the things you want to do.
I have found out who truly loves you and
has your back and who doesn't.
I have learned God is control and not us.
He truly has the last say. And he has his hand
in everything even though at times you feel like
he is not there.
I have learned that the ones that truly care
go way beyond themselves to show you and be
there when you need them most.
I have made many new friends and have had to
remove myself from many who have been negative in my life.
But most of all it has made me stronger,wiser,appreciative
of what I have and family. Which has bought me even closer to God.
2015 will be a fight for me. Justice for you is
what I will be aiming for. And all the strength I had
to gain and pray for in 2014 will help me see it through in 2015.
I am thankful to all who have been supportive emotionally and spiritual with there prayers. I kindly asked that everyone please continue to keep us in there prayers in 2015. That there will be justice for you and those people will be put in prison for a very very long time.
I love you and miss you my son!
December 29, 2014
December 29, 2014
Miss you so much..it's almost been year, its been rough but one small step at a time. You are loved so deeply beyond space and time. I love you and hope that you hear and laugh at the things I say to you.you are forever in my heart.
December 28, 2014
December 28, 2014
We miss you Brian. Find myself thinking about you more and more everyday. please watch over your mom. sorry i couldn't be there. I will always remember you smile. Always so happy.. No one could really make you upset. LOL I love you Cousin. Untill we meet again. xoxoxo
December 28, 2014
December 28, 2014
Im sitting here looking at all these pictures. Its hard to believe your gone. I just wanted to let you know that you would be so proud of Stylez. He is growing up to be a good young man. And Raiey, he is a very smart kid. :) I wish you got a chance to meet my baby Pono. He is a rotten kid but always so happy like you were. :) Me and Ikaika miss you a lot. :(.....
December 25, 2014
December 25, 2014
Merry Christmas my son. I miss you soo much. I sit and think of all the wonderful years we shared Christmas. It was your favorite holiday. I know now you are in heaven with the reason for this day. I pray Jesus gives you a big hug from me and lets you know how much I love you both.
December 23, 2014
December 23, 2014
All I can say today is I miss you soo much. I just want you to show up at the door or call me. My heart is sooo broken.
December 23, 2014
December 23, 2014
All I can say is tears tears and more tears son I love and miss you so much as the decorations get put up and the festivities begin I just want you to know the emptiness in my heart is very overwhelming It is for us all. We love you Brian . I trust God and believe he will allow you to visit all that are heartbroken. I pray that heaven is beyond your wildest and beautiful dreams. And there are a zillion fish and hundreds of dog's to keep you busy . May you be surrounded by the rest of your brother's in arms that have been laid to rest . When the sun goes down I look at the star's I say a prayer ask God to watch over you and let you know how much you are loved and missed. Merry Heavenly Christmas to you . I send you my love .
December 23, 2014
December 23, 2014
I really tried. Got to the store for the last minute gifts. Went to the next store and I fell apart. Had to call randy to the rescue and he had to purchase the food. I felt so heartbroken and confused. Thank God for your brothers who have taken over this holidays. If it is not for them I would just lie on the couch and not move. Just like you they are so strong. Keeping the holidays going because they know you loved Christmas. I miss you so much. xoxoxoxox
December 18, 2014
December 18, 2014
I miss you so much..looking through our pictures because I had to see your smile. Even though I cry your smile still makes me happy. Love you.
December 17, 2014
December 17, 2014
It is very cold today and snow has fallen. I think if you were here you would probably be making snowballs and trying to throw them at everybody. And laughing as we all would be running away from you.
December 17, 2014
December 17, 2014
Today wasnt a good day..but as I was walking to work from my car I found 20 dollars..my SGT said that it means someone watching over you wants to see you smile. I almost cried, because I knew it was you. Just want you to know that I love you. You will always be my forever, and I will forever be your always.
December 16, 2014
December 16, 2014
I miss you Brian. I can't even focus on the holidays. I see people running around like they have lost there minds. A guy almost hit me with his car when I was in the parking lot. But what shocked me was I didn't even flinch. I just kind of was like oh well. I just looked at him with my dagger look. You know that look. lol And he took off real quick. I am doing my best for the sake of your brothers to get through all of it. I love you soo much!!!
December 15, 2014
December 15, 2014
Miss you soo much. The tree is up. Randy and Sal did all the decorating. Randy even decorated the tree we are growing for you outside. I wish to God you were here.
December 15, 2014
December 15, 2014
These past few days have really been hard . Saturday night I just broke down these thoughts that run through my mind leave me devastated and angry . On Sunday morning I went to church and left a prayer request for you and for all of us really because we all are going through a rough time with this And I know prayer will help. It will never heal the pain in our hearts . But I do know that it will quite our minds and let us process this a day at a time. The lord also will be a refuge for the oppressed. A refuge in times of trouble. Psalm 9:9
December 15, 2014
December 15, 2014
The holidays are back around and it's not the same bro. We had donuts last week the last thing you bought for the guys at work. You may be gone but not forgotten.
December 12, 2014
December 12, 2014
Brian son I just want to let you know that I miss you very much It's very hard for me with this holiday season I'm really not looking forward to them I'm so sad but I know you and you wouldn't want me to be sad you were the strong one who has always made the best out of everything you always made something that was a negative a positive I miss you and am sending you my love and prayers I know that your watching overall you loved and care for may God use you in the most greatest ways we all miss you . God please let him know . In Jesus name I pray.
December 11, 2014
December 11, 2014
Hello Ms. Caroline Lamelas I was looking to set up a memorial page for my son and of all the tributes to pick somehow I was lead to this page I was a bit astounded reading your tribute and also the date of passing of your beloved son I also lost my on January 1 2014 he was murdered also I live your pain everyday I am from Hempstead New York the holiday season is just so hard for me my son was 26 years old a great son as your son sounds I wish you strength and I will pray for you and may Brian Patrick Santos Jr. rest in peace. Peace and blessings to you and your family
December 11, 2014
December 11, 2014
Time isn't healing anything. . Everything I hear or see reminds me of when we decorated the place..I would give everything, anything to just have you here, even if for a second. I miss you and love you so much!
December 9, 2014
December 9, 2014
Today at work I really missed you my son. Setting up the store and trying to smile at co workers has been very difficult. I miss you so much. But I know you don't want me to stop living even though I just want to stay in bed. The holidays are so hard. I see everyone making Christmas plans and they ask me and all I say is I don't know. It is so unfair that those people who murdered you can see there family. And here we are with out you. I feel so broken.
December 8, 2014
December 8, 2014
Today was a hard day. I miss you soo much. The holidays are on there way and all I feel is numb. I just want you to be here with us. I love you my son.
December 8, 2014
December 8, 2014
You'll always live on brother. In our minds and hearts, you will never die.
December 8, 2014
December 8, 2014
Brian you were loved by missed by so many you are missed today and everyday,RIP...
December 8, 2014
December 8, 2014
Today..yesterday...everyday..it hasn't gotten any easier. It hasn't been a very good last 2 months. I feel like I'm just spiraling down...still trying to find meaning to life. There are no words to explain this emptiness or the hurt. I hope you hear my prayers. You are missed so much and missed by so many. I love you , forever, for always.
December 5, 2014
December 5, 2014
Brian I really wish that I had the chance to meet the amazing person that you are I was too young when you left and I vaguely remember you but I do remember your beautiful smile wish that I could have got to know you like my brothers did but i was to young when you left I'm still blessed to have you in my life and I love you with all of my heart there's not a day goes by that I don't think of you I love you and its an honor to have you in my life... love always your cousian chandal

 p.s I don't know if u ever heard the message my mom left on your Facebook messages it was Christmas and she was bringing up stories when u where a little boy and I told her I have u on my Facebook if she wanted to tell you something and she did while crying the whole time lol I hope u got to hear it!
December 2, 2014
December 2, 2014
I Miss you my son and love you very much. I am going to work on this a little at a time. It is very emotional for me. I will be putting pictures and other things on here for your memory. I hope others will join me in keeping your memory alive and always remember what a wonderful human being you were in this life and continue to be in heaven.
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February 2
February 2
It has been a while since I have been on here. I hope you know that I love you and miss you everyday. I pray 2024 will be a better year for all of us. I know you are here with us everyday in spirit. I hope God will guide me this year to better things. Please put in a good word for me. I love you always my son.
January 1
January 1
I love you yesterday today tomorrow forever. Life isnt the same without you. So much has changed and i wish you were here.

I love you bruno!
October 29, 2023
October 29, 2023
HAPPY BIRTHDAT MY SON!! WE ALL MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. MAY YOU BE FILLED WITH OUR LOVE ALWAYS AND ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN!!!
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Jan 1, 2019

January 1, 2019

Every day I miss you Brian. Never forgotten. Today makes 5 years since you were taken from us. We finally got those people in prison. It may not be as long as we wanted but they will be away for a while. This year I pray will be better for all of us. And that I know you and God are with us every step of the way. I love you always my son. Continue to fly with angels until we meet again.


Mom

Story time:From Your Brother Seville

January 5, 2016

Story time: 

Guys this is the most wonderful feeling I've ever had in my life.

This lady in this video had five kids of her own raising them by herself, I was adopted at just two weeks old by her, ever since all I've ever known was this lady her boys, they are my brothers and that is my mom. No ifs ands or buts about it. They deserve those titles.

All these years believe it or not we've never taken one photo together & always tried but never could get all of us together, sadly 2014 we'd never get that moment to attempt to, as my brother was murdered on New Year's Day, my other brothers well we all live in deferent states and with the passing of my brother a portrait of us together would never happen...

I had this idea to create a picture of all of us together in one photo, I called up Dennis Parians son Anthony S. Parian to help me and with the grace of God he said yes he could do it!

Few weeks later magic was created and a broken heart was fixed today as I gave my mother the best gift anyone could ever give their mother, she cried tears of joy and I want you all to see this, love your mothers take care of your family and tell everyone you love them, do something positive to make someone smile. Huge thank you to the Parian Family! Look at what you guys did lol

Merry Christmas mom I love you

So much going on

October 12, 2016

So much time has past. So much has gone on since you have left us. But you are always in our thoughts and prayers. We are all moving forward but you are moving with us. We know in our hearts you are with us in spirit and I hope you are proud of the direction we are all going. We try very hard to make you proud of us and stay as a strong family because you were always about family. We spend as much time as we can together. The grand children are growing fast and keeping me on my toes. But it helps me and gives me a reason to keep going.  I am still waiting for justice for you and I know the time will come and justice will be served. We love you and miss you. I  pray that God and you continue to watch over us and keep us strong and at peace. xoxoxoxo

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