️Hello My Love,
Today is Halloween and again there will be no candy or cupcakes on the counter. I was going to set some out for you, but I couldn't. It hurts to much remembering that smile when you walked through the door. Your eyes would light up and say "You know how I love my sweets Deb". Then you would give me a bear hug and kiss. Babe, what I wouldn't give to have one of those hugs right now. I miss us and life without you here is not the same, it’s a sad and lonely place to be.                                                   
                                                                   
Ps. I love you to tears

Clark,
You've been in heaven fourteen months now and I still dread the 22nd day. For that’s just a reminder of the day you passed away. Since you’ve been gone I’ve needed you a million times. I picture you sitting at the kitchen counter or laying on the couch. Yet wishing you would come through the door saying oh what a horrible day. I know that is impossible and I will hear your voice no more. I know you see my tears and you don’t want me to cry. But my heart is broken because I can’t understand why you had to die. I wear a mask from day to day and try to cope in my own way. Each morning when I wake I know that you are gone and no one knows the heartache as I try to carry on. To keep going since you been gone is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Never have I dealt with anything more difficult than having to face each day without you being in my life. I miss your touch, hugs and kisses but most of all I miss the way you looked at me with your loving eyes. Till death do us part wasn’t long enough, your wings were ready but my heart was not.

Ps, I love you to tears

Clark,
Today we would have been celebrating 39 years together. There are so many things that I didn't get to say. You were gone before I knew it and only god knows why. The moment I was told you passed my heart broke in two. One side filled with heartache the other died with you. I lie awake at night when the world is fast asleep. I take a walk down memory lane with tears upon my cheeks. Remembering you is easy, I do it everyday. But missing you is a heartache that never goes away. A world that was once full of happiness is now an empty place. I miss the sound of your voice the stories you told, the ring of your laugh and your presence that glowed. What it meant to love you know one will ever know. You were my best friend, my soulmate and lover. Please be at the pearly gates when heaven calls for me. I will run to you with open arms and kiss your smiling face. Then my broken heart will once again be back place.                                                                         
                                                                     
Ps, Happy heavenly wedding anniversary babe! Your loved, missed and needed more than you’ll ever know

We miss you each and every day. You are always in our hearts and minds.

Hello Babe,
Today is the anniversary of the day I lost you. It’s been 1 year, 12 months, 365 days. lots of hours, minutes, seconds and weeks that have passed. It seems like just a few days ago that I was told you were gone. Your death has reminded me that in this world nothing is permanent and we all have to go when god wishes. I will always miss having you here by my side, no matter how many days, nights or time that goes by. The pain of loosing you is immeasurable. At night when I look up into the sky, I know that the biggest star that is shining the brightest is you. We dreamt of living a long live together, but the dream was shattered when you left me here alone and went to heaven. I have an emptiness inside and it shows in everything I do, it’s something that I sometimes just can’t hide. I simply miss you being here, life is dull and flat without you and nothing is the same. People say I have to start over, but life is not a board game and loosing a loved one is never really starting over. It’s more like “continuing without.” One day we will meet again and everyday until then I will be missing you.                                              
                                                                     
Ps, I love you to tears

Clark,
I meant to post this yesterday but I was really having a rough time. You’ve been gone 11 months and the pain of losing you is still so raw. I got eleven balloons but as I stood out back holding tightly onto the strings my eyes filled up with tears and I didn’t want to release them. I've sent balloons up to heaven every 22nd day of the month since you passed away but for some reason yesterday it felt like I was losing you all over again. I shut my eyes and I could see you looking at me with so much love so I kissed one and let them go. As I looked up to watch them float away, I felt this brisk wind around me. My hope is that you heard me whisper "I love you too babe."                                   
                                                            
Ps, I miss you more than life itself

It’s just one of those nights, where all i can think about is you and how in an instant my world was flipped upside down. I can’t believe it’s been 11 months Dad, 334.8 days without you. My heart hurts just as it did that day if not more, hell If I’m being honest saying life has been hard without you is an understatement. There are no words to describe how hard it is waking up and not being able to do so many things like before: texting you good morning and wishing you a great day, Calling you when I need advice, Pickin on each other and hearing you laugh, or giving you big hugs. I could go on forever. 
I really miss you Dad

Happy 4th of July Clark,
I hope you will be able to enjoy the fireworks from heaven tonight. I wish you was here so that we could watch them together. You are always, always in my thoughts and my heart.                             
                                                             
Ps. I love and miss you

Hello my love,
Tonight I write to you with a heavy heart. I'ts been 10 months that you've been gone an I still have not processed it, maybe I just don’t want to. It still feels like yesterday I fell asleep and woke up in this nightmare. It’s like being in a black tunnel and seeing no light at the end. No one may truly never understand how hard Loosing you is, it’s was especially even harder during the first holidays without you here. Your death has taken a mental and emotional toll on my heart, body and mind. This is the hardest journey that I have ever walked, it has taken me to a place where I have sometimes not even been able to manage the simplest things. I may look fine but I’m not, I am however trying every day to be that way. I know that the world keeps going, but just because the world keeps moving, doesn’t mean that I am. I feel lost and helpless and I’m lonelier now than I have ever been in my entire life. With each passing day, my life doesn’t get easier, it gets harder without you here. People don’t seem to realize that my grief and sadness is 24/7 and will possibly even be years down the road. The day you passed away part of me also died, you were my life and I will never be the same person that I was before. I may cut a smile or a laugh once in a while but I’m still empty inside. Trying to process everything that’s happened and carry on is not easy, but I am trying to do the best that I can right now.       
                                                                     
Ps, I miss and love you to tears

I miss your advice, your voice , your hugs. Dad I miss you every second of every minute of every hour of every day always. It don’t matter how much time has passed or will pass because I still feel like it was just yesterday you were taken too soon. I love you so much I wish I would have told you that more when you were here. You’re with me everyday dad but I wish you were here with us. I won’t ever say goodbye but I will see you later. Miss you to tears dad .

Clark,
I hope you're shooting a round or rippin lips up in heaven today. I can picture you doing what you loved with the biggest smile on your face. Happy Father’s Day from Earth to Heaven. Your missed and remembered everyday babe.                     
                                                                
Ps, I love you

Happy Father’s Day in Heaven Dad, your guiding hand will remain on my shoulder forever. I miss you everyday you’re gone. I love you to tears and miss you so much it hurts.

Clark,
Your always in my thoughts and I carry you in my heart. I wish you were here even for just for a little while. I really need to talk to you, I look for you in my dreams but I don’t see you. Nothings as it seems, I’m not the person I once was, grief’s now a part of me. I struggle to hide my heavy heart and tears. I need to hear your voice and ache to feel your touch. I’m shattered and broken, sometimes I sit and look at your picture and think of you with so much love. I’ve spoken a thousand words but they couldn't bring you back, I know because I’ve tried. A thousand tears couldn't bring you back either, I know because I cry. One day the lord will call me home, I know your waiting for me. When I see you, I will run to you with open arms.                 
                                                             
Ps, I love you

Clark,
Today you have been in heaven 9 months, I released that many red balloons and watched untill I couldn’t see them. I really don't care what the calendar shows anymore, my heart tells me that you just passed away yesterday. What I really hate the most is time I get sad when I have to look at a clock or calendar. Really anything that has to do with letting me know that the world is moving on, I know that I should be moving on with it but I just can't. You were supposed to be here for all the big moments that happened in our family’s life even the ones still yet to come. I wish I could turn back the hands of time so I can hold you, kiss your lips and say I love you.
                                                                   
Ps. You are missed and thought of everyday

Hello Babe,
Today is my Birthday and it being the first without you it's not the same. I didn't wake up to the sound of your voice saying Happy Birthday Deb! I didn't get that happy feeling when you would text or call and ask me if I had decided where I wanted to eat. I'm not sure how to be without you anymore, I'm also not sure on what I’m supposed to do. You were my everything and I built my life around you. Everything that I thought was important, was only important to you. Today I'm supposed to get a wish one that I know won't come true. But my wish is that you would come home even for just a little while so you can hold me tight and tell me that I'm going to be okay here without you. I know this is not possible so I’ll just ask for you to come into my dreams tonight.  
                                                                   
Ps. I love you

Hey Babe,
Well, today is Mother Day and all I wanted to do was to stay in bed. I thought about how you would get up and say Merry Christmas, you were so silly. Then you would hug me and say not really Happy Mother’s Day, I love you babe! I miss you so much Clark, I once had something so special that not even money could buy, then one day I had to say goodbye. If I was asked why I thought the world of you, I could give a million reasons and they would all be true. I wish I knew how to ease this everlasting pain that makes my heart so sore. People say that it will lessen but little do they know that heartache and sadness that I carry just don’t always show. This road I have to walk alone is so long and it feels like I cry a tear for every mile. One day when I have reached the end, I know that you will be waiting for me with your arms out and a smile.                                                           
                                                                      
Ps, I love to the heavens and back

I miss you,                                                     
I always thought we'd have more time, I also thought you would always be there whenever I needed you. Today I asked myself, how do I get through another day without you. As the day started to slowly slip away, I wondered how do I go on without you. I thought of how you made me laugh with your silly jokes and I smiled without you. As the night began to fall, I realized that I couldn't have gotten through this day without you. Because thinking about you kept me going                                 
                                                             
Ps, I love you to tears

8 months dad I can’t believe it still, I don’t care how much time passes it still feels like just yesterday. I miss your laugh so much and the jokes you would make even if you were making fun of me. I hate that I have so many questions and want to tell you so much that has happened but I can no longer just text you and talk about my work or problems. I will never get used to you being gone dad. The void you left me in my heart can’t be filled by anyone but I will hold on to the memories we had together. I love you more than you know and miss you terribly.

Hello My Star In Heaven,
It's been 8 months today since you passed away, it still feels like it happened yesterday. Not a single day goes by that I don't think of you. I'm not the same person I once was, a lot has changed but then again, they had to. The part of me that I once was no longer exist. I talk to you every day but my heart is still broken just the same. Tears still flow and the pain inside of me is so surreal. The day you left part of me went with you and I was left here with emptiness. As I released 8 red balloons out back and watched as the flew away, I imagined your face with a smile. Clark you are loved, missed and will always be remembered.                                                
                                                             
Ps, I love you to heaven and back                                                     

Hello Babe,
This past week has been a struggle, situations are arising and I'm lost on what to do. You took care of everything and made sure things were in working order. If things broke down you knew just who to call, where to have it fixed or just do it yourself. To top it all off today is Easter just another reminder to my heart that I have to spend another holiday without you. I'm sending a balloon up that says Hoppy Easter and has little bunny ears on it. I prayed and asked the bunny to hop into the heavens with a beautiful golden basket full of colored eggs and candy. Also, to whisper in your ear the Happiest Easter from me! I miss you more with each passing day and months.               
                                                             
Ps, I love you to the moon and back

Hello My Love,                                                   
Today I went through some of your things. So many memories, so much of you in everything that I touched. It still doesn't seem real that I am having to do this. I cried, smiled and at times thought I felt you nearby. I held your shirts to my face and wished they still smelled like you. I also wished that you were in the room with me. I closed my eyes and pretended that you were. You left so many things behind when God took you away, one was ME! Untill the day that I join you, I will be missing you.                                                  
                                                             
Ps, I love you to tears

Dad, I still don’t believe it’s been 7 months since you’ve gone :( it just isn’t fair. I hope you know how proud I am to be able to call you my dad. I wish that you were here today, there is so much I wish I could say so many questions . I miss your words of encouragement, your laugh, your silliness everything about you. I think of you always everyday I miss you so much and love you more than you know!

Hello Babe,
Today marks 7 months since you’ve been gone and yet it feels like you passed away yesterday. I sent balloons to heaven 6 white and 1 red the white for my tears and the red for my heart. I stood out back and watched them float away, I watched till I could no longer see. I hope you get them and know they are from me, I know they had a long trip to make. For they took the same journey your soul had to take     
                                                             
Ps, I love you to tears

It seems that I just saw you, but in truth, I see you daily in the pitcures that flash in my mind. The memories are sweet, but they never could ease the pain and frustration of you not being physically present. To say I miss you is an understatement those words don’t come close to how i feel. I still look for your truck and I still catch myself trying to text you wishing I could tell you just one more time how much I love you. I wish I could have 5 more minutes with you dad but even that wouldn’t be enough. This hole in my heart will never heal, until I see you again, I love you to tears

Clark,
I miss you so much, the day I lost you I also lost myself. I've been trying to find me but it's hard. You were a huge part of my life and not having you here is so painful that I'm just not me anymore. I will never get over loosing you but I Thank God for the time we had together. 
                                                             
Ps, I love you to tears