Eddie, 1 month. When I look at these pictures, I remember you hugging your favorite soft yellow pillow and came ask for a good night kiss, at least till grade 4. You grew older, when I stared at your innocent, peaceful, handsome, angelic sleepy head (similar picture in the photo gallery, check the above tool bar. But this picture was taken in Patagonia, Chile, 2013 around Christmas by Asuka, his wife), I couldn’t resist, but stole a kiss to you. Then you left for university, and later the States. Our love and bond grew stronger than ever. I didn’t realize it till 3 years ago. You cancelled your Christmas Central America trip with Asuka to come home the minute I told you I found a lump on my breast. I told you I didn’t know if it’s benign or malignant. You said, ”It’s ok, I’ll book it again if it’s benign.” The day I had the operation, anxiously you called Sandi several times at work to find out my conditions despite both you 2 were on a super busy, high stress job. You got upset and accused Sandi for not knowing. You demanded to read all my medical records, all the treatment plans and medication, all the handouts from the doctors/hospital, what I should eat, not to eat, should do, not to do …… Then you wanted to come home every weekend and said you had enough emergency fund to cover all the air fares. Even Asuka told me, “You know Eddie loves you very much, once he found out you had cancer, he claimed he had to go home every weekend to visit you." During those agonizing 4 weeks in the hospital, I got to witness, not just to me, but to many, many people you had inspired, whether it’s engineers, professionals from the top high tech companies, or medical professionals from Stanford, or staffs from the climbing gym. Your zest for life, your genuine, kindhearted nature had inspired, and touched so many people you came across along your path. The 1450 paper cranes they folded for you in the hospital waiting areas, on the chairs, or on the floor, or on the counter, was impressive (again photo in the photo gallery). Each one carried just one same wish in their minds. Eddie, you were my pride and a mother’s best dream! Now, it’s all just a bitterly sweet memory. There is no time for me to return all these loving care of yours, and love you as much as you love me. There was not even a minute to say goodbye, nor tell you that I love you? Eddie, you will live in my heart forever …