ForeverMissed

                                                       

I have decided to start this memorial for my son because as his mother we as family and friends need to remember Eric as he was before July 2nd in that parking lot and the way he was killed. We need to remember him before he changed which was around 11 years ago. Eric was a very loving,caring and loved making people laugh. He had a beautiful smile. Over the years he was in a vicious cycle with schizophrenia and addictions which was a daily battle and over the years as his mom I tried to help Eric but in the end I had to walk away.That was one of the hardest decision I had to make. I was hoping he would hit rock bottom and get the help that he so desperately needed. But someone took that away from my son so I’ll never know what could have been. I’m having problems going back and remembering the good times with my son. All that keeps playing in my head is his last days.That’s not what I want I want good memories.                                                 

Just to show you how caring Eric was I have a funny memory of him it was the time he tried to save the rat from the cat. I told Eric it was just a rat let the cat have it he said no.The next thing I see and hear is Eric running through the yard with a rat  attached to his finger screaming get it off of me. I had to take him to the emergency room for that one. Memories like this is what we all need to remember.                                                        

 One last thing I want to tell everyone what happened but this was a couple days after Eric was taken. Some of you might think I’m crazy but for a little while I felt peace.I was sitting on the back porch listening to music losing it and looking at Eric’s Facebook. So I don’t know how long this blue and black butterfly is flying around me. All I know is it landed on my hand I just sit there for a minute.Then I take my finger trying to get it to fly away this butterfly wouldn’t leave. So I sit there and watch it walk onto the screen of my phone it was so close that I seen the feelers. It’s like this butterfly was all into Eric’s Facebook.Then I said "Eric if this is a sign from you I love you and miss you so much and I wish I could have saved you that night that’s what mom’s are supposed to do."

This butterfly walks back on my hand and just sets there for a little while longer before flying around my head a few times and then just flys away. After that for a few months if Summer and I was in town or just outside at home there was always a blue butterfly with black around it’s wings. It was so weird because that butterfly would give me piece every time it was around.

Posted by Amy Neff on July 3, 2020
Dear Eric,

Where do I even begin on our memories? You were my best friend since we were 8. We were almost always together out playing and spending quality time together. We would ride bikes to the park, go to each other house (you'd almost always forget your inhaler lol), I had the biggest crush on you haha.Your home was like my second home. You gave me such a fun childhood being a great friend. I miss you so much to this day 2 years later. I hope you know much I cared about you. You were always laughing which made others laugh. I hope to see you again someday Eric until then please watch over us. I wish you could have met my son. I will always miss and think about you.

Love, Amy
Posted by Frannie Pickenpaugh on July 3, 2020
I remember when we were in school we would talk about all kinds of stuff. He was always there for me when I needed a friend. I would tell him the day I had and I would be upset and he would be the only one that noticed. No matter how much I would tell him that I'm ok he knew better. He would drag it out of me. He always would tell me jokes to make me smile. I would feel better and everything that was bothering me just floated away. Oh and there was a couple of times he would come over to my mom's and at that time I was living with her. We would watch The Steelers play. We both would be yelling at the Tv when the refs would make a bs call. We both would have been great Refs. Lol. I miss him so much. Love you Eric. Thank you for always making me feel like I mattered. You are truly missed!
Posted by Sue Mellon on June 25, 2019
ERIC was a person that came into my life that made me laugh,made me cry, but most of all made me learn that when you love someone,no matter what they are there for you. He never once walked by me and stop to give me a hug and ask how I was. He is missed but never will be forgotten

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Posted by Amy Neff on July 3, 2020
Dear Eric,

Where do I even begin on our memories? You were my best friend since we were 8. We were almost always together out playing and spending quality time together. We would ride bikes to the park, go to each other house (you'd almost always forget your inhaler lol), I had the biggest crush on you haha.Your home was like my second home. You gave me such a fun childhood being a great friend. I miss you so much to this day 2 years later. I hope you know much I cared about you. You were always laughing which made others laugh. I hope to see you again someday Eric until then please watch over us. I wish you could have met my son. I will always miss and think about you.

Love, Amy
Posted by Frannie Pickenpaugh on July 3, 2020
I remember when we were in school we would talk about all kinds of stuff. He was always there for me when I needed a friend. I would tell him the day I had and I would be upset and he would be the only one that noticed. No matter how much I would tell him that I'm ok he knew better. He would drag it out of me. He always would tell me jokes to make me smile. I would feel better and everything that was bothering me just floated away. Oh and there was a couple of times he would come over to my mom's and at that time I was living with her. We would watch The Steelers play. We both would be yelling at the Tv when the refs would make a bs call. We both would have been great Refs. Lol. I miss him so much. Love you Eric. Thank you for always making me feel like I mattered. You are truly missed!
Posted by Sue Mellon on June 25, 2019
ERIC was a person that came into my life that made me laugh,made me cry, but most of all made me learn that when you love someone,no matter what they are there for you. He never once walked by me and stop to give me a hug and ask how I was. He is missed but never will be forgotten
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Eric and Summer in Caldwell


I remember this day like it was yesterday. We went to this restaurant in Caldwell and he was at a group home at the time. We had to open Christmas presents in the restaurant because we had no where else to go. Eric was pretty upset because he wanted to spend more time with us but really there was no where else to go. It has been awhile since we saw each other I recently started to wear some makeup and this was the first time he saw me wearing any. He saw me and he started to tear up and said I was growing up too fast. People at that restaurant probably thought we were nuts because he was crying over something so small but I was his baby sister and I was growing up right in front of him. I'm so grateful that I had that special moment with him. It was honestly beautiful looking back at that day. Back then I'm like stop Eric your embarrassing but now im really glad I have this memory. 

The Haunted House

I was pretty young the time that we all went to the haunted house but I remember it really well. As you can tell from the picture I was freaked out. Eric laughed at me a lot durning the haunted house because I was acting ridiculous. He introduced me to scary movies when I was like 4 so being in a haunted house with Michael Myers, Jason, Ghost-face and all of them was pretty terrifying for me. I remember I talked to Michael Myers from across the room and I said hi I like your movies and Eric busted out laughing and said did you actually just say that. I find it crazy that some memories you don’t remember at all and there are others that you remember like it was yesterday even if it was years ago. Halloween was his favorite time of year and it will always be mine. Every Halloween I will think of this funny but precious memory and I won’t be sad because it was a fun night with him. A lot of people when someone passes they don’t wanna like their favorite time of year or holiday that their loved one loved.but Eric would want us to keep celebrating his favorite time of the year. I wanna keep honoring him by enjoying Halloween and I will always remember that look he gave me when I would scream in the haunted houses or try to talk to Michael Myers. I’m glad I got to have that memory with him and I will always remember it. 

He liked Going to the Library

I go to the library a lot for two reasons. I get movies there and I love to read. The second reason is so I can feel connected to him because I know he went there a lot. He mainly went there for the movies and I go there for the books. He would sometimes read but he mainly got some good movies there. The second I walk in there I automatically get this memory of him. The picture above is what gets me the most. When I walk out of the library I walk past where he was sitting. Sometimes I just can't help but stare at the spot because I know he was once sitting there posing for a picture. 

- his baby sister 

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Remember Eric and family.

Shared by Doralene Hayes on July 2, 2019

When I did get a chance to be with Eric, Michelle & Erica we enjoyed just being together. Eric was always funny and just fun to be around. I moved away but still kept in contact with Michelle. Just wanted to let people know that his mom loved him and still does love him. We miss you Eric  and love you, will always keep you close in our hearts forever. One day we will see you again.

Eric Loved the Outdoors.

Shared by Michelle Stevens on June 24, 2019

I have a good memory too share about Eric. He was always going into the woods he loved it. One day he told me he was going into the woods and like always I told him to be careful. He was I think around 15 at the time. A little while later he comes running through the door out of breathe and white as a ghost. I had to calm him down just to understand him. He was like I’m never going into the woods again and your not going to believe me but I seen a bear a big bear. I did believe him because he was freaking out so bad and we do have bear around this area.It took Eric a while but he did start going back into the woods again. He loved nature just without seeing that bear. This is a memory I will never forget about my son. 

The Time at Lake Seneca

Shared by Michelle Stevens on June 20, 2019

I sadly don’t have any pictures of our time at the lake but sometimes the best memories are the ones that will forever be saved in your hearts rather than in a photo gallery. We decided to go to the lake in 2010 I believe. Dad asked Eric if he would like to goand we had a blast. I remember thinking there were sharks and yes I know it’s a lake and it’s impossible but Eric knew I thought that there were sharks so he decided to go under water and grab my foot. I scream bloody murder and he started laughing saying this is the lake there’s isn’t no sharks. I was mad at him for a few but now looking bad at it... it’s  honestly hilarious and a good memory. Later on we was leaving the lake and we wasn’t from around there so dad got kinda lost. We saw a guy approaching the car to ask us if we needed help and I remember Eric saying keep on driving he’s looks like he’s from wrong turn. That day was just really fun and I was glad that he was having fun also. It was really good to see him laughing and smiling. At the time I didn’t know this but that day was going to be a really good memory that I can always think about when I really miss him. I will forever remember that laugh that he had at Lake Seneca.

- his baby sister