UNTIL IT ENDS~THERE IS NO END
It's been awhile since Eric sent a song. But he has.... Thru two of his Loved Ones.
We know it's him. No doubt. Out of nothing it begins with a thought of some notes, humming a few bars, some recollection and recognition, it comes together and then confirmation with each other..Not Coincidence..
We are the Onez in the NIGHT!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwkUY7LebDY
To quote from one of Eric's Writings:
"NOT CHANCE
TRUTH ~ DiSCOVERY
IS A DANCE "
Perfect
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3EtCoL0XGRg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6OMZWXgpPpw
The moment we saw each other ,it was as if we've had known each other forever. We saw the fabric that made up our existence. All the cuts we have endured, all the wounds we have healed. Our scars ran so deep that only those with the same scars could recognize them. The look in our eyes revealed how crazy we lived life and... we were each others kind of crazy. We could see straight to the core of each others being, revealing our very essence. We could hide from the world, but not from each other. It felt like we had traveled through the cosmos to that very point in space and time. In that moment, there was a spark like fire, there was a feeling of flow like water. Our minds floated to the clouds like air, but we grounded each like the earth. In that moment, we rewound into the past and fast forwarded into the future. We saw eternity in each others eyes
ETERNAL LIFE
TO THOSE WHO WERE CALLED FIRST..IT WAS NOT A HARD TASK TO SAVE HIS LIFE, BUT YOU SENT HELP, THE FIREDEPARTMENT AWAY.. THEN WILLFULLY ABANDONED HIM TO DIE ON THE STREET ,FOR WHO? WHY?...THIS IS FOR YOU...PAYMENT IS DUE......DUDE!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZA6stUGLJzQ
Eternal Life is now on my trail
Got my red glitter coffin, man, just need one last nail
While all these ugly gentlemen play out their foolish games
There's a flaming red horizon that screams our names
And as your fantasies are broken in two
Did you really think this bloody road would
Pave the way for you?
You better turn around
And blow your kiss hello to life eternal, angel
Racist everyman, what have you done?
Man, you've made a killer of your unborn son...
Crown my fear your king at the point of a gun
All I want to do is love everyone...
And as your fantasies are broken in two
Did you really think this bloody road would
Pave the way for you?
You better turn around
And blow your kiss hello to life eternal....
Answer this, before the black wheel of death,
What is love, where is happiness, what is life, where is peace?
When will I find the strength to bring me release?
And tell me where is the love in what your prophet has said?
Man, it sounds to me just like a prison for the walking dead
And I've get a message for you and your twisted hell
You better turn around
And blow your kiss goodbye to life eternal, angel...
A Song for Eric
REMEMBER THE BEGINNING
Here, at the "end" of just one of his "many writings" Eric wrote:
"..Forsaking Truth...the "Unlawful" Poisoned the Waters of the Garden~
For Profit...For the Highest Bidder~
and I saw many Exquisite Miraculous Lifeforms suffer~
they became torturously ILL~
homeless and cold as the "Light" was extinguished~
Conditions were so horrible that some actually lost their minds~
Then the Vision went "Black" and only "Anguished Sounds" remained.
Less than a Thought Later~My Brain was Filled with Pure White Penetrating~
"Perfect Light"
So Friend~
Then the IDEA became Clear...REMEMBER the BEGINNING... when ~ALL WAS PERFECT....May Your Dream BE PERFECT Tonight...HERE EVERAFTER"
Eric said "Every Atom in the Universe is a Natural Timepiece because it absorbs "LIGHT" in defined "FREQUENCIES"."
I said at the beginning of His Memorial that I would include some of Eric's writings. There are many...if ....I have... "TIME"
And here is the song he sent
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjh_Yvmo7L0
And He broke BREAD..has the same Gemantria value as the word FEAR
Think about that....
REMEMBER....NO FEAR !
RELEASED
Eric was in a Coma for 11 days. The first day he really died, the day he was taken down, before he was revived was 3/3/2013. To some of you, that will mean something.
And so you will see the meaning of his writing the "Rabbit Hole". He was gifted in the Spirit and felt it long before it happened.
Much anguish and confusion during that time. And there were those who took advantage of our anguish. They know who they are. A sad testimony to our World today when a victim is considered an asset.
And..the first day we were there...the Doctor wants to know if we are going to CREMATE our SON! Since when does a Hospital ask these questions...So they know if their despicable acts for profit will not be revealed? No evidence?
But even more despicable is to know that those who are assigned to uphold the highest integrity are nothing more than LIARS.. and they would dismiss and disregard the testimony of his Family and in fact it seems to be purposely excluded from the record.
The Palliative Care Provider said to us, as she was pushing us hard to remove Eric from the respirator "You close your eyes, and then it's over". She made this announcement as she came in accompanied by what seemed to be several male bodyguards for back-up. I thought "How morbidly sad". We absolutely know she is so wrong. Eric has shown us how wrong she is. But perhaps that belief enables her and others to feel less guilt and do what they must for profit . She mentioned "We almost have enough money for the New Hospital".
Eric was breathing strongly even after they removed the respirator. But the large amounts of Ativan and Morphine that they adminstered would suppress his respiration. Curiously, those lethal drugs were missing from his Medical Records as was the first two days of observations and progress notes on Eric's condition were also missing .We, his family, were not notified until Eric was hospitalized for 2 days. What happened?
Why did they allow strangers into ICU before his Family was notified? And those strangers took pictures of our Loved one in a COMA? Why the need to document a dying man?
Why did Responders from a Private Ambulance Company Lie on their report?
Why didn't the SF Medical Examiner do an autopsy as requested? Why did she keep his remains for 11 days? Why WON"T she open an investigation when she was told we have evidence?
Not only was an autopsy NOT done, even though Medical Records indicated death was suspicious and that it WAS a CORONER case, but the Medical Examiner destroyed the only Fluid Samples connected to my son after she said his family could have them for further testing. This was diliberate. And this same Medical Examiner is on a Board for Muscle Skeletal Transplants. I repeat, she had my son's remains for 11 days and NO Autopsy was performed!
Why was our main witness found dead after revealing his name to Medical Examiner?
And this witness had no Death Certificate issued with cause even 4 mos after his death.
Another man involved, allowed someone else to use his cell phone and claim to be him. Text messages were also sent from the same phone with conflicting times to obviously set up false alibis. The man who sent the voice message was NOT the owner of the phone though he said he was.
And even with these highly suspicious activities, the Medical Examiner REFUSED to open an investigation. Her findings on Eric's Death Cerrtificate say "Probable"!!??
There was no scientific testing to prove her probable. All conjecture and assumption and WRONG. A LIE!!! BUT WHY??
So many questions and NO ANSWERS!
There is more. Enough for now..
Eric began leading us even before he passed. During the time he was in a Coma, he also sent songs.
An amazing phenomena for which we realized he was sending clues to who was responsible.
Those close to Eric are not surprised at all that he would use music as his medium of communication. Nor are they, or any of us surprised in his Spiritual abilities.
But of course, Mysticism is not concrete evidence. But....Eric surely lead us to that evidence.
Lyric by Lyric, Line by Line, the Truth is being revealed.
And WE KNOW ...ALL is being revealed.
Here are two songs Eric sent during his COMA.."They Blinded Me With Science" which speaks for itself
and the song I post here "RELEASE". I would invite you to look carefully at these lyrics:
Note: I will be updating this writing periodically as more TRUTH reveals itself!
"I SHALL BE RELEASED"
They say everything can be replaced
They say every distance is not near
So I remember every face
Of every man who put me here
I see my light come shinin'
From the west down to the east
Any day now, any day now
I shall be released
They say every man needs protection
They say that every man must fall
Yet I swear I see my reflection
Somewhere so high above this wall
I see my light come shinin'
From the west down to the east
Any day now, any day now
I shall be released
Now yonder stands a man in this lonely crowd
A man who swears he's not to blame
And all day long I hear him shouting so loud
Just crying out that he was framed
I see my light come shinin'
From the west down to the east
Any day now, any day now
I shall be released
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=49mGaGyxoF8
DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE
In this writing Eric is clearly prophesizing his own Death and what occurred.
The Gift of The "Holy Spirit" revealed much to him...and much he kept hidden to protect his "Loved Ones". Clearly it explains why he still is very much present .. untill "ALL" is revealed. Can "YOU" feel him too?
"THEM" R REAL
BY ERIC
I AM MORE REAL THAN REAL ALLOWS ME TO BE
I TAKE MY CHANCES
I MAKE FUN OF MYSELF
I FIND LOVE
FEEL AT THE DEEPEST LEVELS
I ACKNOWLEDGE THAT NOT ALL PEOPLE CAN GO THERE
BUT I DID AND STILL DO
I AM TO BE ALL THAT I CAN
TO DESIRE ALL THAT MUST BE RIGHT
AND I HAVE ALWAYS QUESTIONED
WHAT IS THIS LIFE?
WHY? WHERE?
THIS TRUTH I FEEL...
WHY IS IT THERE?
STIRRING WITHIN ME... WHO AM I TO BE?
BUT REALLY.. WHO IS TO BE DESTINED WITH ME..
WHY IS THERE A WHO ?
AND WHAT IS THEIR REASON ?
AND WHY DO THEY CARE?
MORE IMPORTANTLY
WHY MUST I KNOW.....?
AND THE "RABBIT HOLE" WIDENS AND IS CLOUDED WITH LIGHT
IT SEEMS TO EVAPORATE INTO NOTHING..
BUT KNOWS... EVERYTHING
NOT A STEP
OR A SLIDE
BUT A STILL MOTION RIDE
DESTINATION... UNKOWN
BUT I AM CLEARLY AWAKE!
I ARRIVED.....I DIED!
BUT.... SOMEHOW SURVIVED
IS THIS THE BOTTOM?
OR A BRILLIANT DISGUISE
I SEE I AM DEAD... AND ALIVE..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8RCQDDsMpU
TRUTH IS A DANCE
Here's a little anagram Eric jotted down in his notebook a few weeks before he passed over~
EASY~
<i>T
<i>S SNAKE
SPiRAL
FRACTAL
OF
NOT
CHANCE
TRUTH ~ DiSCOVERY
<i>S A DANCE
ENJOY YOUR JOURNEY
<i> [thank] LOVE YOU!
~ e r i c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZrbOR1nLkYU
Note: Sine Wave= A geometric waveform that oscillates (moves up, down or side-to-side) periodically, and is defined by the function y = sin x. In other words, it is an s-shaped, smooth wave that oscillates above and below zero
THE CROW
Eric loved movies with mystery and inner meanings. Much like the Books he read.
One of his favorite movies was "The Crow".
In a theatrical, playful mood one day, using his sisters black feather wings from a Halloween Costume, he entertained us with pictures.
What caught my attention was the "Light" eminating from his eyes.
Always the Spirit within revealing himself.
He continues to reveal much to us in the Present.
And he brought the movie "The Crow" into our consciousness this week once again. Several of Eric's "Loved Ones" discussed the synchronicity of having the Memory of it come to them at the same time in different places. And then the sudden need to discuss it with each other and review the content of it and the relationship to what happened to Eric.. and... to the others...right now.
We all knew immediately it was Eric once again working thru us.
It has deep meaning now. Not just for us, but for others who don't know yet, but will... Truth Will Be Revealed...So Very Little Time Left... All that is not Good will be Evaporated.
Spirit is free...not confined to just one. He is here, until no longer needed.
For some, it will not be pleasant.
"I live to Die....I Don't Live To Lie" Eric
Song from "The Crow"
"Burn"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfTkL-ZHDCY
The Eyes are truly the "Window of the Soul" and Eric's Soul was Good and Honest and True~
"YOUR EYES"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2v5d3WHVQFY
A Song for Someone
Eric sends a song
and I have to post it.
You see, he will not stop playing the songs to us until we realize what to do with them.
There is someone reading this who needs to hear it.
And No, it is not about Eric, for he is surrounded in Light.
His Heart was always "Good Intentioned"
But.. Eric has revealed to us that there are other victims too.
He has "Permission" to complete "Unfinished business" here,
for now, for "The Highest Good".
Such a Powerful Spirit.
So you are in the Darkness ?
But the TRUTH will set you FREE!
and you KNOW what you must do!
This song is for YOU!
You may make jokes during the Day...
But sleep does not come easy for you does it?.....
He is here...and will be here until there is Justice!
Be sure...If there is any GOOD left in you...Your own Spirit will destroy you body
from withholding Truth and Justice.. Disease!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01meBCTLQ4w
Thank You
Thankyou L. ,
I deleted your story as asked..
It means everything!
The "Truth" ALWAYS reveals itself..
I know a few more good ones will come forward.
Eric sent this song last week to two of us at the same time.
We wondered who it was for.
Now I know.
And when THEY SEE it,
THEY will know it's FOR THEM!
Pray THEY do the RIGHT thing.
Pray they REDEEM themselves!
They have little time left now...Sleep does not come easy for them..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=db94u6R7pLk
A Haircut
When Eric was young, very young, and his hair was kind of long and sometimes wavy curled, he'd get very angry because he would be mistaken at times for a girl. He had a "pretty" face as a young boy. He hated that. He would demand I cut his hair.
My snake handling,
Tadpole catching.
Bug-in-a-jar.
Grass on the knees,
Mongoose riding,
Road Rash from BMX racing
and Football catching son
was NO WAY going to be mistaken for a girl.
The insult!
He lost his thick beautiful wavy hair at 26, so young, so fast. But instead of trying to battle a hereditary condition using products with promises of hairgrowth, he accepted with resignation, and shaved his head... to my shock.
He had a nice head too. :)
Here he is at the end of Summer before 3rd grade I think, and in desperate need of a haircut.
So I asked Eric after posting this, give me a song. Can't find one.
He answered thru his Aunt. He delivers to whoever is receptive.
IN THE AIR TONIGHT (I can feel it commin, Oh LORD ..Yes it is)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x2XiF8Fabx0
Magalia
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVI7A7YOho4
More Than Words
Another Writing
Eric Wrote April 25, 2012
"Just concentrate on Love~and Know Love IS the idea ~ The ultimate expression wanting to come forth.
Even scary or ugly is an opportunity for Love- ugly is illusion~
Polar consciousness is the illusion~
All is One~
Pray for ALL of them- THEY need you
The MOMENT IS LOVE - the past IS the PAST"
Love Eric
..and then he lead me to this song
Jeff Becks's interpretation of a Classic Indian Love Song~ Nadia
(Nadia means River. A song about 2 Loved ones separated by an impassable River.)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4LUH2kB9RY
Eric ❤
With Appreciation
Thank you to those who sent your private messages of sympathy and rememberances of Eric through this Memorial. Your expressions of Love for Eric a deeply appreciated and acknowledged.
I Pray intently for Justice for "Our Eric".
Words are so inadequate to express the loss and void that we feel in our Hearts.
He would not bend to the unjust Will of others or be exploited by them. Always Free...
Again Eric Sent a Tune through several of us. It seems to go here.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7xjYeWOhbU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OLc88eGLwPs
Eric was and IS a Special Angel
THE BANANA BOAT
Eric's first car was a 73 Maverick. He bought it with his own money, which wasn't too much. When new, it was once a shiny copper/bronze color but had faded to a flat brown and not only were the struts and shocks bad, it squeaked loudly as it rocked excessively. You could hear and see him comming. But despite my misgivings about the car he was way too exuberant to be discouraged.
He took the test for his license in that car and I remember the look of shock on the DMV Officers face as he drove off with Eric. I think I was hiding behind a bush somewhere.
I am not aware of ALL the "FUN" he had in that car up in the Paradise area, and it was better that I didn't know.
His friends named the car "The Banana Boat".
All the "FUN" ended when Eric and friend were at a traffic stop behind a moving truck and an elderly, wealthy lady claiming the sun was in her eyes barreled into him with no brakes.
Eric and friend were both seriously injured when the car was crushed into the tailgate of the truck in front of them.
He spent an entire year going to a chiropractor and never once took any kind of opiate for the pain. The insurance company settled , paid his Doctor Bills and after the Attorney took his cut, Eric was left with 7000. Sigh....
Eric would continue to have chronic back and neck pain for a very long time, even for the rest of his life. But it never stopped him from going on to the next "Adventure".
There are "key" words in this song that point to "How" and "Who".
We know what they are...Do you?
Eric has been leading all the way..and will continue until Justice is served!
"ON THE HOOD" (Eric's friends will get this..and yeah...he sent another one)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WidcNryOye4
with a whole lotta love (yolanda)
Little Brother, I still cant believe you were snached away from us the way you were.I'm still having such a hard time dealing with this. I have so many good memories its like trying to put a millon pictures into a frame for one.There is NO One in this world that could replace your BIG, STRONG BEAR HUGS. Besides our little BRO. I have no other words to say at this time. My heart goes out to your family with all my love GOD BE WITH YOU ALL LOVE YOU ALL YO
My thoughts and prayers are with Eric's family. I never had the privledge of meeting Eric, but I know and love his little brother Brian. I heard many stories about Eric and am saddened to know we will never meet. Brian , my prayers are with you. I know you are a strong person and will make your memories of Eric last you a lifetime. God Bless, Love, Lisa
I did'nt know you Eric, but I heard so much about you before you left this world from your brother,aunts and uncles.I know you would have lifted me over your head like a ragdoll. I know what a BIG HEART you had and how funny you were.I lit candles, sent prayers, and just knew you would make it. My heart and prayers are with the family and friends you left behind. Your family is doing the best they can without you, you know how much you are LOVED and MISSED and ALWAYS WILL BE!!! All my love goes to your loving family and my heart is with you all Teresa I will always be here for you GOD BLESS YOU ALL Love, Debby
To Eric
Aunt Eileen sent this..
A recent video on YT that is touching the hearts of thousands who have
lost Loved Ones. It has gone viral,
To Eric...
We miss you soooo much!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YNoLJy68ZcE
Eric's Love
Eric never faked any emotion. He wore his feelings openly.
He spoke his heart openly.
Never lukewarm.
Some could not handle how real he was.
Sometimes quick to anger.... but so quick to forgive .
He didn't just hug you..... He embraced you.
He drew you into his Heart.
Eric said,
"I'd rather hurt than feel nothing"
And he truly felt the pain of others and "Empathy" was his gift in a World where most feel nothing but "Self gratification".
What will we do now......
I will miss those much needed, healing, warm hugs. I miss my Son...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YzdHMldyqtM
One of my Favorite Person
The title speaks for it self on how I felt about Eric. I was his Aunt Eileen, just seven years older then him. So my memories that go way back as kids with eachother. I was the baby of ten kids, so I was so please there was someone smaller then me. My deep love for Eric delevolped much later in life. He became one of my truest and dearest friends. When we would get together there was this engery of light, fun times, conversation that would last all night long about things most couldnt understand. A connection with another soul like its all ment to be. Someone you could tell anything to and a honest answer from his heart he would give you. I look forward to family gathers just so I could see him there, you new it was going to be a fun loving one. When he walk in a room you could feel the light and engery from him, it move me every time. Eric never had a mean thing to say about anyone. Eric would point out the best or he would have some off the wall commit, that would just make it all ok and you couldnt stop laughing. There was no way to be in a bad mood when he was around me, he brought out the best in me. Our last conversation on facebook was he missed our connection and we need to see eachother. I was looking forward for that this summer, He Loved the out doors and everytime we played out side it was always adventure. Many of us go through life really never meeting someone that fills you with so much engery, light, fun, and just Love my Nephew was that person for me. I dont need to say how angery I am that connection isnt here for me anymore. I will have to wait until I get to the other side, but for right now I will miss him for the rest of my life and Love him forever, he was and is one of my Favorite Person
My first Nephew
I was 14yrs when Eric was born. In a 14 yrs olds mind, Eric’s birth made me an adult. I remember holding Eric as a baby and saying, “Hey Eric, I’m your Uncle Mike.” Eric would be the first of many nephews and nieces to address me has “Uncle Mike’. All of whom I love dearly. However, it is hard to find the words to express the first of anything. The first experience always holds a special part in you heart. Although having many nieces and nephews, Eric being the first always held a special part in my heart. Like your first born. You love all your children the same, each for their own special gifts and reason who they are, but your first-born holds a special place in your heart. Maybe, it is because the first of anything symbolizes change in your life, or how you look at yourself differently inside. Eric, just being born did that to me. He grew up straight, strong and showed a confidence that any parent would be proud of. Our relationship went from child to adult, to two adults shooting the breeze. But always, I was Eric’s “Uncle Mike”. I cannot shed enough tears for the loss my sister and her family now feel. I cannot shed enough tears for my loss and the rest of the family feel. I thank GOD he blessed us with you. I know, in time, when it comes my time to go, I will hear you say “Hi Uncle Mike’. Until then, we all miss you Eric. I love you Eric, your Uncle Mike
Sesame St Memory
We Mothers who survive our children remember all the way to the beginning.
Eric was 6'4-5" tall. A strong handsome muscular man. That's how most will remember him.
But I remember and cherish every moment all the way to the beginning, and I hold those moments precious in my heart.
Eric loved Sesame St. Even cried when it was over. He would call me everytime "His" letter song was on. "E"
He thought they wrote it for him special.
I told him they did. :)
So this was his First favorite tune. And I liked it too. A little Ravi Shankar I think.
I suppose there are many in Eric's age group who remember this song with nostalgia when the world seemed to be a safer happier place.
God Bless!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mrdAbj3JiXg