Missing you so much my beloved brother

You were honored today my beloved brother, with Taps and the release of Doves. Miss you! so very much

I still can't believe I'm not going to be talking to you soon :-(

Miss you so much Eric!

Missing our talks today...miss You everyday

If only you were here to go with us to the wedding today...I can imagine how much fun we would have. Every morning you're in my thoughts, and my heart misses you. Love you my sweet brother.

April 20, 2018...How can this be...I miss you so very much and days the tears just flow. Time heals nothing in fact I think my sorrow gets worse..how can I not think and speak of you in death? You were such a huge part on my world in life. I love you, my son.

One year ago yesterday, we buried you so we went to the cemetery today. It just seems so unreal still. Just miss you so much.

Eric you teased me about my "December" tape..You would smile as George Winston is coming to KC. in October. Sue will go with me to see him. I did see him years ago in Ark City, Kansas..I miss you so much . You always made me laugh..Never is a very long time

Thinking of you this evening....miss being able to talk and laugh with you. Still unbelievable that we won't be talking again. I love you brother

It still doesn't seem possible that you've been gone a year. I'm just so sorry my brother. Today at I just happened to look at the clock at exactly 5:30 p.m. - your time of death. Were you speaking to us from Heaven? I just know I miss you so much.

My son...one year ago you were in ICU. MY Facebook entry: my son is resting quietly.   I am so sad..I am grieving.I am mourning.

As mom said you had a sparkle in your eyes, Eric, that we miss so much. These days are difficult knowing your really gone.

This week goes on like it will not end. My thoughts are wild, my feelings jumbled. Nothing is clear and I guess its anxiety. I miss my son so much and I know there are "not better days ahead"! So what do i do? Hoping to realize a bit more to live with the loss of my boy...

One year ago, I was in such a heavy fog. Who would know you would die at the end of the month? I try to think back to what was going on in my mind and i can not......Like being in a protective bubble. Maybe God does that so we can make it and do what needs to be done.....NOW there is NO fog and my heart hurts...I love and miss you my son.

It just doesnt seem possible that it's been a year ago that I took u to the hosp. Feels like a couple month ago. Just so sorry u had to suffer like u did.

Missing you.....

Eric, the week of the year I am so sad. The year has flown and yet days have stopped....I miss you so much and will forever carry you in my heart.
I am broken

Last year. No way I could ever fathom what the next year would bring.  The first months after you died, I was in a fog...dear God, I wish I could of stayed there .and now it is so close to a year..The tears won't stop.

One year anniversary is near...just doesn't seem possible. Sometimes I still think you're not really gone. Miss you so much!

Eric, I am so sad. Last night, I woke up crying and heard "someone" say
"Mom" standing on the left side of the bed . Oh Eric, how many times in life did you comfort your mama.

Eric, it is soon a year since you died! The year has sped by, but many days stand still. Today has been a very, very hard day. The. Whys-howcomes- and unbelief have over powered me. The tears won't stop.I miss you so much

March 6, 2018........I miss you so very much and it will never change. I don't like life very much with this heavy pain.

I MISS YOU MY SON.......

Erics Mom 1/31/18 - You asked if I still think of Eric in the morning...I see Eric in his kitchen in Ft. Banning, I see him tattooing some guy in a room in Ft. Banning. I see him as that proud soldier graduating.I see him walking into store in Watertown to get cigs. I look up to the ceiling and see my son Sue, just see Eric all over. I hear him on the phone "hi mom"! I want to take my kittie and go stay with Eric.I want him to cook for me. I am tired lonely and too sad..nothing will ever ever be like it was.I am mad that stuff happens.I am tired:of thinking, talking, hurting.! Life does go on and sometimes that makes me mad..how can it? Eric is dead!!!!!!  I am tired...10 months today...where has time gone, flying like a bird and then at the same time it creeps like Turtle. You asked if I think of Eric first in the morning. I think of Eric all the time.
I love you so much as I know Eric did too.

You're missed so much my brother. You and i had such a special bond ever since we were little..some say we were like twins. It's so hard knowing I'll never get to talk with you again...we spent a lot of time together even though it was time over the phone the past few years. I feel sad and angry sometimes at the things you had to go through in life and how people treated you. I know life's not fair, but that doesn't help knowing how unfair it is that you're not here anymore. You were liked by everyone and you'll always be remembered.

Eric, I miss you more than words can ever say. In a few days it will already be 9 months. Sometimes it seems like so very long ago and then it seems like only yesterday. I miss you, my son!  :(

I am so broken. I wish so much we would of had a bit more time. However, a lifetime would never be enough time to spend with you. And your time was cut way too short. I am so sorry and sad.

Eric, I miss you more every day.

You will be forever missed. I am broken