April 10
April 10
Hello dad
I'm sorry I didn't come here for your birthday. I hope you had a happy birthday in heaven with mom. I'm sure you both are happy to be together again. As for me it's been a struggle. Your gone mom is gone Helene is gone. My friend Dorothy is gone. I recently lost Star my pet Guinea pig who was one of the first Christmas gifts I ever have to Helene. They're days I'll admit that sometimes I wish I was gone. I have no real friends and barely anyone comes to visit me at my apartment. They're days were I wish I could join you and mom but I'm too much of a coward to harm myself so sometimes I ask God to end it for me already. Many have no idea how alone I feel. I look forward to going to work these days than I do when I get home. I'm sorry I'm using this visit to moan about my issues but I feel this is the only way to talk to you. I wish you where here. Again I hope you and mom are happy together in heaven. I hope in my next visit I can be more positive. Love you and miss you dad.
I'm sorry I didn't come here for your birthday. I hope you had a happy birthday in heaven with mom. I'm sure you both are happy to be together again. As for me it's been a struggle. Your gone mom is gone Helene is gone. My friend Dorothy is gone. I recently lost Star my pet Guinea pig who was one of the first Christmas gifts I ever have to Helene. They're days I'll admit that sometimes I wish I was gone. I have no real friends and barely anyone comes to visit me at my apartment. They're days were I wish I could join you and mom but I'm too much of a coward to harm myself so sometimes I ask God to end it for me already. Many have no idea how alone I feel. I look forward to going to work these days than I do when I get home. I'm sorry I'm using this visit to moan about my issues but I feel this is the only way to talk to you. I wish you where here. Again I hope you and mom are happy together in heaven. I hope in my next visit I can be more positive. Love you and miss you dad.