What you have once loved can never be lost...
Because all that we love deeply becomes a part of us.

You are so much a part of me and I wish you were here with me to help make important decisions, like buying a new house. We are looking at so many beautiful houses and I still think what would you choose. I miss you more and more everyday and love you with all my heart. Please guide us to the perfect house, because I know you are watching over us everyday. Yours Forever and Always

To lose the one you love alters your life forever.
The pain never stops and the gap never closes.
The hole left in your heart is the shape of the one you
loved and lost and no one else will ever fit...
My heart and my soul miss you everyday and always will.
I love you.

The memories surround me
A word someone might say
Will suddenly recapture...
A time, an hour, a day,
That brings you back so clearly, as though you were still here.
And fills me with the feelings that say your always near.
For if I keep those moments we will never be apart.
And they will live forever safely locked within my heart.
I love you ~ Always and Forever.

I wish you knew how much of you there is in everything I do.
It can be the smallest thing... But you are there.
I wish you knew how I carry you with me always... Everywhere I go.
I wish you knew how my heart breaks...
Because you are not here with me.
But most of all I hope you know how much I love you...
And always will forever and ever.

You are the sun, the moon, the wind, and the rain to me.
You are in the air I breath with every breath I take.
You sing a song of hope, there is no more pain, no more fear.
I see you in the clouds above, I hear you whisper words of love.
I see and hear you everywhere I go and with everything I do.
I love you with a love that will never die.

I carry grief and no matter what anyone says it is always there.
What happened can never be made right.
What has been lost can never be found
The pain can never be made better.
The reality of grief is far different from
what others see from the outside.
No one knows while standing in front of them
there is a hole in my heart, a part of my life that is gone.
They don't realize this is something I will carry for the rest of my life
                 My life without you.
                     I love you.

I miss you so much and everyday is full of memories of out life together. I have been switching light fixtures in the house, not because I have to but because I can't leave them behind. They are fixtures we chose together and the memories behind them are so precious to me. I have switch out five fixtures and the one that means the most is the chandelier in the dining room. I remember we looked and looked for the perfect one and when we found it we brought it home and put it up in the dinning room, we had no furniture but we had this beautiful crystal chandelier hanging in our dining room. I miss things like that, just doing anything together was so much fun and I miss that so much. You were my world and now my world is without you and it is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, facing everyday without you by my side. I love you with all my heart ~ Forever and ever.

If you ever wonder if I miss you,
The answer is always.
Some days it's fierce, but over time,
It becomes gentle, like a melody,
Your name pouring through my mind on repeat.
Your memory is always the undercurrent of my day.
Forever and ever you are my love.

Butch,
You drew memories in my mind I can never erase.
You painted color in my heart I could never replace.
The light you brought into this world was so bright,
even though your gone, your light still remains.
I love you forever and ever.

As the world moves forward, I stand in darkness.
Frozen, broken, and shattered into pieces,
I knew it was real...
You were gone.
Your death changed me.
It took a part of me with you.

I spend my time replaying our memories in my mind.
I'd rather spend time remembering the moments I shared with you,
Than thinking about my future moments without you.
These moments build a bridge from your side to mine.
At this moment I know that I'll cherish all our memories for all time.
I never want to forget how your voice sounds or how your touch feels.
I never want to forget anything about you because you are still in my heart.
You are and always will be my love forever and ever.

It's St. Patrick's Day and I have so many special memories of you on this day. I know you always worried if Amanda was wearing green or not, well today she went to work In her green scrubs, she is so much like you I am sure if anyone in that hospital tried to pinch her she would punch them in the face. I miss holidays with you because you always made every holiday so much fun. I hate that you are not here with us, it's such an odd feeling that I feel you so close but I can't see you or touch you. I always think how can such a strong spirit leave this earth who fought so hard to stay. You are mine and always will be. I love you with all my heart ~ Forever and ever

If you live to be a hundred...
I want to live to be a hundred minus one day
So I never have to live without you.

This quote makes me cry because I never
wanted to live a day without you.
Forever in my heart and always on my mind.

God how I wish you were here, I miss everything about you, but most of all I miss you, the love of my life, the one who brought me more joy and happiness than I had ever know. I wish you were making this move with us but I know you will be there watching over us every step of the way. I have been cleaning out the garage and I keep thinking how you use to call me a packrat, I never dreamed all the stuff you have stored in the garage. Yesterday I started the corvette and the coupe, I'm still having trouble getting the little red truck started but I will worry about that when we are ready to move. I have been separating everything in the garage that I can take and what I have to leave behind. Now that it has stopped raining I can pull everything outside. I am finding parts for the 56 and putting them all together. I will have forty five days after we sell to get everything packed and ready to go. I still can't believe we are doing this without you, but if you could see what California is turning into I know you would be ready to move. It's going to be a very long move because Amanda has someone special in New York and she want to be near him, as for me as long as I am out of California I don't care how far we have to go and I know you will always be with us where ever we are. I love you and miss you more and more everyday. Forever and ever yours.

For the rest of my life I will search for moments of you...

Butch My Love,
You have no idea how much love and happiness you have brought into my life. I love and miss you more and more every day. My heart is still broken because I have to live my life without you. You are and always will be the love of my life, my soulmate, and the best husband and father ever, I wish with all of my heart you were here with us today and every day.
Happy Heavenly Birthday ~ I love you ~ Always and Forever. Sherry

My love for you will last
Till time itself is through
Oh, my darling
Oh, my darling
This I swear is true
My heart is yours my dear
There will be no one new
This love will be eternal
This I swear is true.
I miss you so much and you are always on my mind.
I can't tell you how many times a day I have memories of
our life together and wish you were here. I know life will never
be the same and I feel so angry that you were taken away from us.
I told Amanda the other day it's going to be so hard putting the
Corvette on a transport truck and not seeing it for five days. That car
is a symbol of you " BUTCH 63 " is what it will always be, everyone
knows that is Butch's pride and joy and a piece of you we will
never part with. The new house will have a special place for your
Corvette. I look at that car and see you in the drivers seat and that's
the way it should be. We are counting down the days until we can put the house on the market on our terms and move as soon as possible. You are and always will be my eternal love. I miss you with all my heart
Forever and ever.

My love for you will last
Till time itself is through
Oh, my darling
Oh, my darling
This I swear is true
My heart is yours my dear
There will be no one new
This love will be eternal
This I swear is true.
I miss you so much and you are always on my mind.
I can't tell you how many times a day I have memories of
our life together and wish you were here. I know life will never
be the same and I feel so angry that you were taken away from us.
I told Amanda the other day it's going to be so hard putting the
Corvette on a transport truck and not seeing it for five days. That car
is a symbol of you " BUTCH 63 " is what it will always be, everyone
knows that is Butch's pride and joy and a part of you we will
never part with. The new house will have a special place for your
Corvette. I look at that car and see you in the drivers seat and that's
the way it should be. We are counting down the days until we can put the house on the market on our terms and move as soon as possible. You are and always will be my eternal love. I miss you with all my heart
Forever and ever.

Your loss has changed me entirely,
Living life is different now, It's all so different.
Missing you has stripped me to the soul.
I've learned that true strength and courage arise when
you experience loss and cannot imagine carring on.
I've learned that the deepest joy is known by those
who have also experienced the deepest pain.
I've seen that unending grief is really just a sign of unending love.



For every day, I miss you,
For every hour I need you.
For every minute, I feel you.
For every second, I want you.
Forever I will love you.

You will never be forgotten...

So sleep can come around,
For when you dream you'll find all that's lost is found,
Maybe on the moon or maybe somewhere new,
Maybe all your missing lives inside of you.
So when you need his touch and his loving gaze,
Gone but not forgotten is the perfect phrase.
Smiling from a star that he makes glow,
Trust he's always there watching as you grow.
Find him in the place where the lost things go.


You may be lost to this world but you will forever live in my heart.
I love you and miss you more and more everyday.

Grief is courage...
The courage to keep stepping through a life
that feels like it has ended...

Everyday I wish you were here because trying to make all the right
decisions without you is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. In selling the house I made a really bad decision in trust and now I have a lawyer trying to get control back so I can make all the decisions on selling my own home. The house will be free the end of March but we don't want to wait that long to move. This has really taught me a good lesson about doing my research and it will never happen again. I know if you were here this never would have happened. I will never get use to being without you and I miss you more and more everyday and love you with all my heart.

Sometimes happy memories hurt the most, because you aren't here.

Today is one of those special days that are so hard to face without you, It's Amanda's birthday and this day brings back so many wonderful memories. On that day we had no idea what to do for a premature baby, but together we managed to raise a beautiful and talented daughter. I'm sure you are watching over us and are very proud and surprised at the way her life is going. There are so many time I wish I could tell you everything that is happening and then I realize you already know. Sometimes I feel you so close to us, we have both dreamed you are helping us pack for the big move and I tell Amanda that means you are planning to be with us there. I love you with all my heart and miss you so much. Yours forever and ever.

The hardest battle is between what I know in my head
and what I feel in my heart.
I know in my head you are gone from this world
but my heart still loves you and needs you here.
I love you and miss you ~ Forever and Always.

Some say it is too painful to live every day with my memories of you,
but I say you are too wonderful to ever forget and I never will.
               I love you with all my heart
                    Forever and ever.

It hurts everyday, the absence of someone who was once there,
and loved so very much. You are a beautiful memory
I keep locked inside my heart, where you will stay forever and ever.

I met you on a Friday
I fell in love with you by Saturday
And by Sunday I knew in my heart you were the one...

The love I give to you has no beginning and no end,
I will love you every second of every minute forever.

I know I have to let go of having you by my side,
holding your hand and talking to you everyday.
But I will never let go of loving you, remembering you,
honoring you and missing you. Forever and Always

Losing you was painful,
but the biggest challenge was learning to live without you.
And today, I am still struggling because I love you and miss you
with all my heart. As always, yours forever and ever.

What it meant to lose you, no one will ever know,
My thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can ever fill,
In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still.
My love my life ~ Always and Forever.

I know what love is because of you...
I heard someone talking about how our lives are filled with magic,
and I realized our life together has been filled with magic...
Our first kiss was magic,
Our marriage was magic,
Having our daughter was magic,
Our life together was magic;
And the love I feel for you now is magic.
I love you ~ Forever and always.

One breath, One step,
and one day at a time.
These are the words I now live by.

I often wonder what I'd say
if I could see you just one more time.
and I realized that there are no words for that moment,
I would just hold you and cry and whisper that
I love you and miss you.
I always have and I always will.
Our hearts don't need any words at all...
                                                

"He's gone" they said
and in that moment my heart shattered into a million pieces
and my whole world turned black.
Yes, life does go on but it will never be the same without you.
It seems like yesterday that I heard those words
but my love for you has grown stronger and stronger.
I love you and miss you so much ~ As we always told each other
               Forever and ever.

How I wish you could come back to me...

I talk about him, not because I'm constantly living in pain,
because in my world this is normal
Love, joy, and gratefulness are my everyday,
but so are death, loss, heartache, and grief.
He brought me so much love and happiness.
I talk about him because he was and always will be a part of me that
I refuse to let go of.
I talk about him because I want him to know he is always
in my heart and on my mind.      
I talk about him to keep his memory alive...

Yesterday was a really hard day, I sold your work truck
and knew that when it went out of the driveway for the last time another piece of our life together would be gone.
Amanda stood outside and watched it go
but I couldn't do it, I want to remember how every
work day I would stand at the window and wave goodbye to you.
And I am so glad I didn't because she came in so upset and crying,
saying another piece of our lives had been torn away. I understand
because that is how I feel. We love and miss you so much,
If I had one wish you would be here with us and I could still stand at the window and wave goodbye to you as you backed out of the driveway in your truck.
I love you ~ forever and ever.

Grief: The art of living after your heart is ripped out of your body.

When the one you share your life with, is gone,
they are gone in a million different places, in a million different ways.
They aren't just missing from the life you had,
They are missing from all the life that is yet to come.
If you were here I know everything would be okay.
Missing you today, tomorrow and forever ~ I love you.

Multiply it by infinity,
take it to the depths of forever
and you will only have a glimpse of how much
I love you and miss you.

For every day, I miss you.
For every hour, I need you.
For every minute I feel you.
For every second, I want you.
Forever and ever I will love you.

I know it's never going to get any easier.
It's never going away, missing you.
It's become a sadness I have incorporated into my life.
and quietly will carry around with me forever.
Grief is the hardest journey I have ever had to walk.

Butch, I love you with all my heart and always will.

You will always be the first one I think of when someone says...
                    "Make A Wish"

Grief is Love's unwillingness to let go ~ And I will never let go.
     Forever your light will always shine in my heart.

I don't know how it's possible but I miss you more and more everyday. You are a part of everything we do and this move is no exception, packing up your things are the hardest, your stop light and corvette clock will go in the new garage and every room will hold special memories of you. Amanda has been helping me pack up your garage and shop and she keeps finding all these things that would not mean much to anyone else but because they were yours they mean something to us. If I find something with your handwriting on it I can't throw it away. It's strange the things that become important to you after the one you love so much is no longer here. You will always be an important part of our lives and we will love and miss you always. My love for you is neverending.

I wish you were here, so I could tell you how much
I love you and need you and how very hard
everyday has been without you...
At the end of the day all I have is hope and strength...
Hope that in time it will get better and strength to hold on until it does.
I love you with all my heart.

My love lives beyond the stars.

I miss you so much and moving has brought back so many memories, everything I find of yours brings back a special time in our lives and I wish we could go back and live those times all over again. Moving has been really hard and we are pretty much doing it alone. I was worried about driving a twenty-eight foot moving truck and then I found a company called U Pack and we drive, what a relief that was to have them drive that big truck. I also found a car hauling company that will take all the cars to our new house in an enclosed and locked trailer. I can't wait to leave California and never ever look back. I feel blessed because I will take all our beautiful memories and almost everything you ever built with us, except the fireplace and fish pond, but I have plenty of pictures and I know you would love the new house we have chosen. I wish with all my heart you were here making this move with us. I love you and always will... You are my forever and ever.

I talk about him because...
He is mine and I am his and no passage of time will ever change that.

Time passes and life goes on, but in my heart you are never gone,
I think of you always,
I talk about you too,
I have so many beautiful memories... but all I want is you.

Every time grief steals my breath away,
I remind myself your love was worth it... It was so worth it.

Butch,
My life didn't have a purpose until you came into it and
made me realize it was you who I was missing ;
and the purpose of my life was always to love you.
And I always will ~ Forever and ever.

When the one you share your with life is gone,
he is gone in a million different ways.
He isn't just missing from the life you had,
he is missing from all the life yet to come.

I love you and miss you more everyday.

His star still shines bright.
Far apart but forever in my heart.

Every day, I grieve for you
I love you, I miss you, I need you,
I think of you, I talk to you, I want you.
Every day is so hard without you...

The new roof went on and the for sale sign went up, moving is so hard without you. We should be doing this together, I really need you here and I always think "what would Butch do" then I try to make decisions you would make. Amanda and I finally agreed on a house and are getting ready to make an offer, I know you would love it and there is plenty of room for all the cars ( that was a priority ). I wish we were doing this together, as I have said a million times before " losing you was so unfair ". I love and miss you every minute of the day. Be with us and watch over us ~ I will always keep you in my heart forever and ever.

You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I'll always love you, That's where I'll always be waiting.

I will love you and only you forever and ever.

I have been alone since the day you left.
You are no longer by my side and I miss you everyday.
Please come home, If only for one night,
I'll hold you until morning and then kiss you goodbye.
Remember I love you and forever will grieve.
You live in my heart and in my dreams.