Hi yaya, so today I had my first meeting to get a house and counselling, I've seen mum has messaged and I've realised how much I've got wrong, I have so many regrets but I hope that moving forward I can lessen the regrets and mum, please don't think I don't want to talk to you and I don't like you, over the years I've had thoughts planted in my head and my memories have been manipulated and used against me. I really love you and I hope some day soon I'll be able to see you again, I really miss you and love you so much, I really want a hug from you and to see you again, maybe we could find a way in the future to meet and bring us all together again. I miss my family, the one I was born into, I don't care what happened in the past I only care about our future. Reading what you wrote made me realise how much love is still there even when I thought there wasn't. I had a good cry I won't lie haha but I really want my mummy back ❤️ and I hope some day you'll want to reconnect. Thank you for all the support, and everything you've done for me. I hope everything goes well, I see things are getting better for you all and I'm so glad to read it I love you all xxxx lots of love from katrina xxx

Hi Katrina, sorry to leave a message but I want to be able to help even just a little bit. If you go onto the hmrc child trust fund and register, I set you up a child trust fund when you were a baby. There won't be a lot in it but there should be a little even if it just ties you over a little. Your account is with nationwide

Hi mum, I can see that my baby girl is struggling. Please watch over her as she walks this difficult path in life. She is never alone and I really wish for her to know. I just want to put my arms around her and for her to know she is safe and loved. Life is difficult and I pray that whatever is happening in Katrina's life that I know she is good and strong. She has you and we are a family of strong women no matter what rubbish is thrown at us. I hope she has had and been given the chance to talk it out. Katrina is never alone and she will never be alone. It's not good what I have been through and what happened in our lives it breaks my heart more than anyone can possibly understand but the one thing I never want is for any of my children to suffer or feel alone. Things still aren't perfect with me but I am doing much better. Poppy and Gregory are much better, Katrina needs you more now. Please be there and please let both my grandads keep watch over her also as they have always been there for her since she was a baby. Katrina I know you don't want to talk to me and I completely understand but you are never alone and you won't ever be alone. I'm so sorry for what you are going through and I sincerely wish there was something I could do to help you. I am here.

Please help Katrina mum. Love you lots always xxx

Hi yaya, I'm pretty sure you know what's happening but I'll keep it brief I'm really struggling and I'm losing hope, I'm not happy with my "family", there's too much happening and I'm not sure if I'm about to become homeless or not. It won't be new but this time it's different because I don't know what I'm going to do or where to go. And it makes me so much sadder knowing if you were still around I wouldn't be in this situation and I'd be surrounded by love. My partner has looked after me for the week but he can't really keep me around too much longer. I just wish I knew what to do, I don't want anyone to worry but I can't tell people not to worry when I'm in a Constant state of panic. I'm really unsure about what's happening. I've kept quiet about it for so long about all the issues that have happened and I just feel so lost and broken. It also doesn't help How I have so much anxiety and fear talking to other people and trying to reach out for help. I feel so used and then when one thing goes wrong it's all my fault. I just don't know what to do :( I wish I was dreaming and wake up to you hugging me and telling me everything will be OK and I'm safe but it's not possible. Life's playing such a cruel joke on me right now and I don't know when I'll be free and happy and finally have my life sorted.
Please help me yaya, or atleast guide me onto the path I'm supposed to be on, because I'm really utterly lost ❤️

Hey yaya, I've seen mum's struggling and poppy, please look after them and guide them. They may be a bit lost how I was and I would really appreciate it if you watched them for me. Despite everything that's happened my heart is filled with love for them all. I hope everything is going well wherever you are right now. I find it such a huge shame that you were gone so early in my life and I wish everyday I had more time with you. To listen to your voice and your laugh. I remember when you had a big bump on your head and i tried pushing it down haha and the way id always check your hair for nits when i had them. So many great and happy memories with you even if i dont remeber them all. Your always in my heart and your always going to be a part of me. Much love now and forever. Always my yaya ❤️ xx

The memories you've left us with will never go away, they help us live our lives to the fullest every day. Happy memories and sad ones they are inside our hearts each day. Which is why the memories and love for you will never fade away. Happy birthday mum. ❤️  xxx

Hi mum. Have a very happy 73rd birthday. Hope you're having a real good party up there. We are starting to get sorted for Christmas and wishing today you were here with us still. I remember getting you so very drunk with my brandy cream and the smell of my brandy and whisky cakes, all you had to do was open the fridge and you got drunk just off the smell. Well like me I hope you are enjoying our favourite drink.. a lovely hot cup of tea. Miss you always love you lots. Sarah, Katrina, Gregory and Poppy xxx

Its been too long yaya, but life's starting to look up again, I can feel you there near me always thank you for your love and your guidance, I can't wait for when I'm able to see you again. I love you yaya ❤ oh and also happy birthday

Mum I really need you right now. I wish you were still here, we had to leave home in a rush on Tuesday. I've never been so terrified and what really upset me and makes me feel so guilty is seeing and hearing Poppy and Gregory as scared as they were made. I know the police said they knew who the 20 people were but what doesn't sit well with me is that none of them have been caught. I've never been so scared of going home but even gregory and Poppy don't want to go home. Please help me, give me the strength to go back home and for the children to know that I wouldn't let anything bad happen to them no matter how scared I am. I got them out of the house within minutes but I had to go back and obviously they didn't like that. They have arranged to stay with grandma and aunty sue for the week which has destroyed me a little bit as I had planned so much christmas baking but they are too scared to come home. How did you help to make us feel safe when we didn't feel safe? Please help and guide me. I really need your help mum. I love you so much xxx

Mum soon it will be 15 years since your passing. A lot has changed and I just wish you were still here. Robbie is finally able to leave hospital hopefully this year, both myself and Paul have been trying so hard to help and support him trying to keep him on the right track. Definitely no easy feat. I just hope I have the strength you had in life to not only help but to keep going. Life has not been easy and there's still plenty of challenges, but as I've always known life has a funny way of showing you how strong you are. I hear so many people telling me how strong I am as a person but can't understand how I've coped with everything that I've been through. My simple answer is because of you. My carers always ask why I always have a smile on my face I tell them with all the negativity I have had to endure in my life I try now only to see the positive. I'm really happy to see Katrina has reached out to you and I pray you look over her and help her. I wish I could and I wish that she knew how much I would love to be there for her. Poppy and Gregory are doing well I wish you had the chance to meet them as well. Thank you for helping us get back from London the other day even though the day and especially the train back was really awful. Please can you look after both Mel and Tom for me especially Tom at this moment in time. I am absolutely distraught with how he went and I need to know he is being looked after up there. Anyway I will be back on your birthday. Until them mum. Love you always and I miss you so much. I wish you were still here so much. 

Its been too long yaya. I miss you and keep looking at your photos more recently. I loved you like I could never love anyone else. You were always there, making me laugh feeling safe and warm inside even when things didn't go well. You were a light to the darkness of my life and still are. You mean so much to me and I can't believe you've been gone for so long, but your always with me in soul. I'm so thankful I had someone like you, who taught me to always see the good no matter what. I wish I could speak to you now and seek your advice about a few things, but I try to stay optimistic, as I hope that is what you'd want. I love you yaya now and forever ❤

It's 14 years since you left us. Not a day goes by where you aren't missed or thought about. They say times a great healer and you learn to live with the loss. But you were the rock that held me together. The one who always pulled me through the darkness. Why did you have to go so early? I really need you by my side, I need you pulling me out the other side of this utter nightmare I'm living right now. Please watch over me and your grandchildren. Help us all have a great Christmas. We try to go all out for them and in your memory. Just know you are so loved every day. Sending warm wishes and a great big hug to wherever you are right now. Until we meet again some day. Lots of Love Sarah Katrina, Gregory and Poppy xxx

13 Years you have been gone now, yet it still only feels like yesterday. The pain of losing you has eased but the heartache of never seeing you again or hearing your voice again or even having one of your wonderful hugs is still just as hard. My heart still breaks for you. This anniversary is just as difficult for me, and it is made harder being on my own and having to deal with everything without you being here to hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok and things will sort themselves out. Happy 13th anniversary mum.

Today would have been your 70th Birthday mum. I wish you were still here so we could really celebrate. 13 years since you passed but it only seems like yesterday. Please can i ask you to take care of my friend Mel who passed on 16th November. You will love her, she is an amazing person with a big heart. Once again another good one taken far too early. Anyway i hope you are having a blast up there. Please watch over me and your grandchildren as we prepare to move and help us to resettle and get organised quickly. Anyway mum happy 70th birthday Love from Sarah Kat Gregory and Poppy xxx

12 years since you passed. Still loved. Still missed. Trying to celebrate Christmas and trying to make it really special for the children. Wish you were Still here. I'm finally attempting a Christmas dinner and wish you were here to help and enjoy. Love you so much mum miss you too much.

Today you would have been 69 years old and looking forward to turning 70, unfortunately you passed away too soon. 12 years have passed already yet it still feels like only yesterday. The days get harder. When they said it gets easier, it really doesn't. I really really need you right now, I need your support and your wise words and your comfort but i know i won't get that again i miss you so much and i love you. Happy 69th birthday mum. I hope you are having a good time up in heaven. Love always, Katrina, Gregory, Poppy and Sarah.

11 years doesn't seem so long since you left this earth for you're place in heaven. I miss you every day, and as Christmas draws near it's the hardest time for me without you here. It upsets me that my children won't get to meet their ya-ya. You would have loved them so much and them you also. Hope you have a wonderful Christmas mum xxx

Happy 2019 mum. I miss you terribly but I hope you are having a great time in heaven or wherever you may be. I love you so much and hope this year will be a good year. Happy New year mum xxx

10 years ago today you had to say goodbye. You are loved and missed everyday. Life is hard without you, but knowing you are always here even though it's in spirit alone gives me the strength to carry on everyday xxx

10 years ago I lost you and i miss you every day. I hate that I'm having such a difficult time without you here. There's so much bad mouthing about you from my sister and it's not right, i need your guidance and warmth and support and I need you here to help with all that and with dealing with the past that is being twisted. I am finding everything so difficult and have no support because it is only you who knew how to help and what i was dealing with. No one knows or understands what i deal with and having to deal with the past being used against me everyday and having to be your voice is so hard. I am struggling to help myself but I'm really struggling to help my brother. I wish i had your knowledge and determination because I don't how to manage. Please come back to me mum I really desperately need you.

Mum another year has passed and a lot has happened. You are missed so much. You now have a grandson and another granddaughter. I feel you near me in times of great need and it's comforting to know you are near. I love and miss you so much. Happy birthday 66th birthday

Today is your 65th birthday mum happy birthday to you. Dearly missed and thought of. Hope you have a lot of fun up in the kingdom of God. Celebrate today with the love and thoughts and prayers of all your loved ones xxx

The love and passion you shared with us in life you still share with us since your passing. Loved and missed always