Well it has been awhile and for that I am truly sorry. Jay today or rather yesterday was my 3rd thanksgiving day that we did not get to go to the movies. So much for starting new traditions. I miss you more as time goes on,there is no comfort no easing of the pain.I love you and wish there was more time.

Another birth date and missing you so much. you took a part of me with you. Why couldn't we have more time. You became a friend and confidante and someone I was blessed knowing.

Some days, it feels like you have been gone forever, and other days seem like it was just yesterday that I heard the awful news that you would no longer call, message, show up at my door... Every year on your birthday, I miss my second son more than the year before. I always heard time heals all wounds. Time only closes the outside of the wound. The inside is still raw. It seems wrong to say "Happy" Birthday so instead I'll sa, y Miss you tons today and always, Jay!!

you have been in my thoughts so much lately. I often think how different life would be if you were still here. I miss you so very much. Your oldest daughter got her first tattoo, you would be so proud and you were right about how she would be as she ages. She chose a beautiful tribute to you to be forever on her shoulder. later..... love ma

I thought the first year was unbearable, this 2nd anniversary is a killer. I miss you so very much. I have never in all my life had a pain as deep as this. Why Jay? There was so much we didn't experience as mother and son.Who am I gonna go to Ireland with now?I would give anything for just 1 more moment in time to let you know just how loved you were and still are. Forever in my heart.Love Ma.

well it is that time again.I will continue our tradition of going to the movies in place of celebrating thanksgiving. You will not be with me physically but in my heart I know you would be if you were still here.I miss you so very much Jay,it still hurts.Someday......Love ma.

Happy Birthday in Heaven!! You will always be loved and missed here :(

It's almost August and it's such a hard month. We should be celebrating your birthday and laughing about all the crazy times growing up. It hasn't been the same without you. Brookie Cookie looks soooooooo much like you. It's been different without you. There have been so many times that something Star Wars came on tv or a friend dressed up like a Storm Trooper and I wanted to tag you in a pic or call you and tell you about it. I know you're in a better place and free from the pain you didn't deserve, but it doesn't make missing you any easier. Luv ya always! *HUGS*

I cried for you today my son.Sitting on the steps of my porch, could not help but think that today would have been a great day to just hang out and chill.This is when I miss you most.You would have understood just where I was coming from.Always in my thoughts ,forever in my heart. love ma.

I will always love you

Jason its been a year and you are in our heart, Jay always in our hearts and souls.. Miss ya kid...Larryc.

The pain of giving birth to you was a joy, the pain of losing you to death is unbearable. I was blessed to have had you in my life for 35 years,and I know we will see each other again in the paradise that is promised to us. Love never ends.Ma

It's so hard to believe that it's already one year ago since you left us to rise up to Heaven. I still miss you, Jay, and still can hear your unique voice. The tears still flow for you here, but I know you have only happiness and joy where you are, which helps a little. Love you forever and ALL ways

How can it really be a year later? How could this year have gone by so fast? It's so hard to believe you're gone and we don't get to hear your stories, your sarcasm, your wit, and your laugh. You brought a light to the world that can't be replaced. I know you finally found peace and are in a better place, but selfishly, I wish you didn't have to go. *HUGS* Love ya, always.

Jason Alexander, where do I begin..... To everyone you are Jay, to me you were always my Jason. I owe a huge part of my happiness to you, Miss Brooke "Brookie Cookie" Alexandra Rose. I had the best of times with you. I have letters & pictures & videos & memories that I will ALWAYS hold close to my heart & cherish. We had some awesome adventures. You attempted to show me how to drive a stick & honestly got closer than anyone. Lol, You let me drive Grace through the neighborhood but no further cause you already knew I would kill the clutch. You made me the Star Wars Nerd that I am today, you schooled me on everything & ALMOST had me convinced to get the matching tattoo. When I was pregnant, you waited on me hand & foot. Rubbed my feet, my back... I literally felt like the luckiest woman on the planet... I will never forget our "special" times... Our walks & our LONG talks... We did sooo much exploring, a lot of my first visits were with you. We fell apart & there were days when I cried relentlessly hoping that things would be different & we would be pulled back together like a "force" but it never happened. I love you & I miss you & I ALWAYDS will. A part of my heart will forever be yours & when I look into our daughter's eyes I see you..... Blue October, Calling You... Seeter & Amy Lee, Broken... Billy Currington, Must be do something Right... songs that every time I hear, I think of you singing.. Know that you picked the best mother for Brookie, even if you didn't know who she would be then. I will share stories with her & let her know Just how much you love her. I'll be seeing you........

I look at this page often and always want to write something, but can never find the right words to say. Even as the months pass, I still can't seem to believe that you're really gone. It's like I can still hear your voice laughing about something stupid you and Adam were doing or just did and how animated you'd get when you tell a story. With the colder weather coming I can remember snowball fights and the "daring" sleigh rides down the hill of death…let's face it, we were completely insane to go down that thing! We would always try to see who could make it completely across the street and into the parking lot of what used to be the liquor store! What were we thinking??? I miss times when life was simpler and the only worry we had was if we'd be allowed to have hot chocolate when walked all the way up that huge hill! I can't think of a single memory from age 7 until adulthood that doesn't have you and the rest of the "crew" in it. You are so badly missed and will always be the big brother that wasn't biological! *HUGS*

" At this moment I'm having trouble finding the words i want to say. But for now i will say,  i miss you very much and especially how you remembered the Lyrics to certain songs we loved. I just wish we had more time, but i will always cherish the time we did have and thanks for that" Lv Ya Jay........

Jay you were always cool and so much fun in class. Always smiling and having fun, always there to help someone or make their day. I can't understand how this path has claimed you. I'm sorry it has. You are definitely missed. :(

Jay you don't know how much your are missed. I wish that you could see how much your mom is hurting then you would truly know how much you are loved. You will forever remain in our hearts, you will never be forgotten and we will love you always. Miss you Jay. Your aunt Barbara.

What can I say? You were the big brother I didn't biologically have. You were at my house more than I was and there was definitely never a dull moment. Since I was 7 years old, you were such a huge part of my life and it's still so hard to believe you're not here, but you will NEVER be forgotten and will ALWAYS be loved. *HUGS*

I loved you like a son and watched you grow from a caring child who brought me an injured bird to heal, to a compassionate adult with children of your own. No matter what else was going on, it was always a good day when you walked through my door, wherever I lived. Although you will never walk through my door again, you will remain forever in my heart. Forever and ALL ways....

you were my love child and I wish I could be more like you..You were troubled, but yet found ways to make others feel good about themselves.I miss you so very much my pepper shaker.