Another year and another birthday. 19 years old today. My delightful baby girl gave me fulfilment as a Mum. Without her by my side is excruciating, not just on your birthday but it can be any day. I'm relearning to live with my sorrow and my pain. I try very hard every single day to remain friendly and smile. Say good morning or bom dia in Portuguese even if others don't reply. No one can ever know what people hide behind their smile. For many of us we do not want to share our sadness with everyone we might meet. My relationship with Jessica was and remains very special. Her joy, her sense of fun and her laughter. Infectious. Her maturity and her willingness to try to fit in. Try to belong. Try new things. Trying to find out about herself and others as she grow up. Her brightness can never, ever fade. It continues to shine everywhere. We must all learn to look that's all. The sunshine, the stars, the moon, the rainbow, the flowers, the birds and the butterflies. Love you to the moon and back. For all eternity.....Mum xxxx