My dear, sweet Joanne,
Two years ago, my heart was broken so badly that I did not want to go on, I just wanted to be with you. That has not changed. What has changed is my heart is being mended by and through Jesus and I am learning how to put my faith and trust in Him. I had a special Mass said for you today and I was happy to offer myself and my love for your happiness. I know you are with our Heavenly Father and His love is all around you. I will know that love when I join you, in the Father's time and not mine. My Angel Girl got so sick and had to be put down in January. It was so painful. Last week my Spirit Boy could not go on suffering from bladder cancer, so he was put down on Monday. Then, most shockingly, Sheba got severe diabetes and had to be put down on Wednesday, two days later. I just picked up their ashes last night. I really had such a painful time accepting those loses. But, again, I am accepting God's will for me and trying to make the best of my sadness. Lots have happened over the past two years and I will tell you all about when I join you. I've been in touch with your boys and your husband and they are doing okay as well. Of course, they miss you greatly. But, your little Nemo is now back in your arms and I am happy for him and for you. Pray for me my sweetheart, you know how difficult life can be. I am doing my part as God would want me. I am not nearly perfect, but I try hard. I love you Joanne and every single day and every single night, I look for you in the heavens. Sometimes, I think I see signs of you there and my heart is filled with joy. If you can, like you promised, please show yourself in the farthest star so that I know it is you looking over me. A kiss for now and a goodbye for a short time. God will take me home soon, I pray, and I will see you again. I will see Diana, whom my heart breaks for, and Mary Ellen who owes me a Dunkin Donut visit. Tell them and yourself, I love all of you. Hugs, Kisses, and lots of love my sister. My heart is with you.