Today is one of the hardest days of the year for me. You would have been 70 today and we would be sitting here growing old together. I know you keep wanting me to move on with someone else and I am trying very hard because I know you want me to be happy. This is not the way it was suppose to be but it is what we have to deal with. Even if I do move on I will still always keep you in my heart and never forget our life together. Always remember no matter where I am or who I am with, I will always love you and be thinking of you.I will never forget the love we had and the two beautiful children you gave me. I have turned them over to you and God to take care of now, so please take good care of our babies till I get there. Celebrate today and be happy. I love you all with all my heart and soul. Happy Birthday Baby!!!

Once again it is your birthday and once again we celebrate it apart. I am still going to fix your favorite dinner and bake you your favorite cake. I know you can't eat it but I'll eat some extra for you. I know you are not gone and that you are here right by my side as always. Although you can't eat it...you can smell it and see that I made it specially for you. I am so sorry that I cried so much and so hard. I know you don't like to see me cry but I know you would do the same for me. The thing that is the most comforting to me is knowing you are happy and not in any pain anymore...whether it be physical or emotional. I know you are at peace and I know you are here with me. Take good care of and love the kids. Let Joy and Michael know that theiir mother hasn't forgotten them and that I love them dearly. Please don't let them forget me. I look so forward to seeing all of you one day. Happy Birthday My Sweetheart. Always remember that I Love You and that I will always be your Charlie. 

Well Honey, today marks 31 years. Who knew it would end up like this. I have come a long way. I never dreamed I would take this long journey without you. We had so many dreams and plans. The good thing is we got a beautiful daughter out of it all. Even though she is with you and not me, I kinow she is okay. You are a wonerful many and I know you are being an amazing father to Joy. Just don't ever let her forget me and always tell her that her Mommy loves her with all her heart. Actually I love you both with all my heart and soul. I am looking so forward one day to seeing you both again. I know you both are here with me now. I feel your presence everyday. I feel your touch and Joy blowing kisses. That is what keeps me going down here. I know you two have a great life up there and it makes me happy to know you are both safe. It is lonely here by myself but you help me through one day at a time. It is amazing how your love for me lives on in my heart as I hope my love for you lives on in yours. Happy Angel Birthday My Sweet Darling. I love you and I will always be your Charlie. See you soon. 

This is for you John and all your buddies that were in Vietnam with you. I also have a good friend Dirk Gilbert that is up there with you that served in Vietnam at the same time you did. This is for him also. Love You and Miss You Honey.

I am not going into detail of what today is all about because it was such a horrible time for you. So I am here to just let you know that you and all others like you have not been forgotten. I am very proud of you for going over there and doing what you had to do so all of us here could be safe. I am also proud of you for not dodging the draft like so many did. We talked about it and you could have but you did what you felt was the right thing. So today is to thank you for being the great man and husband you were. I Love You and Miss You Very Much.

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. 
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height 
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight 
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace. 
I love thee to the level of everyday's 
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight. 
I love thee freely, as men might strive for Right; 
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise. 
I love thee with the passion put to use 
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith. 
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose 
With my lost saints,–I love thee with the breath, 
Smiles, tears, of all my life!–and, if God choose, 
I shall but love thee better after death.

Yesterday was one of the hardest days of my life. I didn't think I was going to get through it. That is why I am a day late in posting this. I didn't forget you, (that will never happen), it was because I wouldn't have been able to do this without crying. So I am here today to let you know just how much I Love You still and always will. I know I will see you again one day but until then it is going to be so tough to be here without you. I have been told it gets better in time, but that is a lie. It only gets worse. I know God will help get me through and I also know I still have you here right by my side as always. I have never stopped loving you. In fact, I Love you even more now than before and it keeps getting stronger everyday. Please let your mom and dad know that I love them too and I am so glad that you are there together. I know they will take good care of you until I get there. Like you always use to say to me, "Always remember I Love You." See you soon Honey. 

Once again it is your birthday and again there is not much I can do for you except to let you know how much I Love you and Miss you. I am going to do like I always do every year and cook something that I know you like. This year I am not doing a cake cause I have no business eating all that cake.I know you will be here with me to watch me eat your birthday dinner that I really wish I could share with you. Honey, if I stay on here much longer I am going to end up in tears. Happy Birthday and always remember that I Love You.

I haven't posted lately, but it does not mean I have forgotten you. You are on my mind all the time. I know how much you still love me, as much as I still love you. I know you are still here with me cause I feel your presence here all the time. You are always letting me know you are here in so many ways. I so appreciate this. It is what gets me through each day. I have no regrets the promise I made to you recently and you know what that is without me saying. You will always be my one and only. We will always be a team just like we always were. We still will be even in the after life. Wait for me my darling. I Love You With All My Heart. It will always be just you and me.