Thirty three (33) years ago today my world was turned upside down...my life was changed forever and I would never ever be the same again. That is when my Best Friend...The Love of My Life...My One True Love...The Father of My Children...My Darling Husband got his wings and went to live in Heaven.My heart broke in two. Half went with him and the other half stayed here to grieve. I have never stopped grieving or loving him. Our daughter passed shortly after birth and her twin brother past 2 years ago today. They are also in Heaven with their father. I know they are here with me in spirit because they have let me know. I am hanging on by a thread but still hanging on waiting for the day I get to join them and we can be the family we were meant to be. I love you with all my heart and soul John. I loved you then...I love you still. I always have...I always will. You promised to never ever leave my side and you haven't. I know you are with me now and waiting for me. I feel your presence here everyday. I Love You Baby. Forever yours, Charlie

Happy Birthday Baby! Just think, if you were still here you would be 68 today. You went and dodged a bullet.You didn't have to grow old. But in the process you left me here to grow old without you. It wasn't suppose to be like that. Our kids weren't suppose to go so young either. At least I know that they are safe with you.Dinner won't be the same without you but I am still going to fix your favorites and YES...I am fixing the chocolate cake with chocolate frosting just what you asked for. Save a spot for me and I will see you one day soon. Always remember I love you with all my heart and soul.

Happy Angel Birthday! It is hard to believe another year has gone by. It feels like yesterday you went away. The last 31 years have been hell here on earth without you along with the 39 years without our daughter. My journey will be coming to an end on day before long. I know at my age it could be any day. So it will not be long till I see you again. Until then take good care of our daughter and tell her I love her as I love you.

Well Honey, another birthday is here for you and you are still not here to celebrate with me. I know you are happy in Heaven celebrating it with your mom, dad, sister and our beautiful daughter Joy. But you are still loved and missed here by me. I will cook one of your favorite dinners and your favorite cake as usual. But it will never be the same without you here to share it. I take one day at a time just waiting to see you once again. The thing that keeps me going is the fact I know when I go home you will be there waiting for me and I will get to spend eternity with you. You are not here in the physical but you will always be in my heart. We were meant to be and we will never be separated. It was God's plan. Until it is time for me to go home and join you, always remember I Love You with All my heart and soul. Happy Birthday Darling!!!

Happy Angel Birthday My Love. No I haven't forgotten.n This is a really hard day to get through, but I know you will be here helping me get through it. I know I should be Happy because you are Happy, but I can't. Don't get me wrong, I am glad you are happy, I just can't be happy. Each year gets worse. When does the pain end? When does my heart stop aching? The only thing I live for is knowing someday I will see you again and that day can't come soon enough. You may be gone but you are not forgotten...Not by a long shot. I will never, ever forget you. Always remember that I have always loved you and I always will. Love, Your Charlie

Happy Birthday Sweetheart!! Another one of your birthdays here without you. So I will celebrate it for you as I always do. I baked a cake and I am going to fix a dinner I know you would like. It is not the same, but it is the best I can do down here. One day I will be there to celebrate with you along with mom...pops...and sis. A day doesn't go by but what I think of you and it will be that way as long as I live. I Love you with all My Heart & Soul. I always have and I always will. My Love for you gets stronger everyday. A Very Happy Birthday My Darling!

Sorry Honey for not posting on this page before now. As usual Christmas was very rough for me and New Year's coming up is not good either. But you never left my thoughts for one minute. The holidays are never the same without you, although I know you are close only in a different way. At least you are here. This year it made me feel better knowing your mom & dad & sister were also here. It made me feel like I had a real family here with me. I just posted the picture of your sister. I don't want here to feel like she is left out. Wish I had a better picture. I Love you All Very much. I love you Baby with all my Heart & Soul. Happy New Year to Everyone.

Well Honey, It is once again another New Year. Another year I have to live without you. But I know you are near by. I feel your presence here in my house everyday. If that is the only way I can have you with me, then I accept what God has so graciously given me. I thank him everyday for letting you be here with me. As long as I live I will never let your memory die. I added a new song, "My Way" by Frank Sinatra. I hope you like it cause it reminds me of you. You always did things your way. I am so proud of you for being that way. Then again, I always was and always will be proud of you. I know now you are in a good place and you are no longer sad, but very happy. I am keeping my promise to you and I am here by myself just waiting for the day I can be with you again. I know I will cause I have faith in God. As you use to always tell me when we had to part, "Always remember I Love You."

It has been 28 years ago today that you went to your new home. I think of you and talk to you everyday. I know you are with me in everything I do. My heart still aches and the tears still flow but I know one day I will be with you again and nothing can separate us again. You were my first and only love and you will always hold my heart. R.I.P. My Darling Sweet Angel. I love you!!

John was my childhood sweetheart. We met when I was 6 and he was 9. We grew to be best friends. I was 12 when he first kissed me. By the time I was 13 we were madly in love. He propose to me when I was 16. We would have married but the Vietnam draft took him away then my parents took me away. I never saw John again. He lives in my house as an Angel now. I still love you with all my heart.