Hi darling, over the weekend I bought a conservatory so I can use it as a dining room, I hope you approve. I am trying to improve the home as I would never be able to leave as it is full of our memories, good times and bad times, this was your last home and I intend to keep your presence here with me. As always all my love, Janine. xxx

Hi darling, as I think you know I have been busy sorting various things out and generally trying to get the house nice. Work is getting me down as the hospital is in a bigger shambles now than it ever was. I speak about you and to you every day, I miss you so very much. I helped a man at the hospital the other day, I had to take a second look as he was the same build as you and wore the hat and jacket that you used to wear. My heart was pounding but it wasn't you. Sending you all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, I have woken today feeling rough, miss you with every beat of my heart. Love you so very much taks care until we meet again, all my love as always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, finished another shift, I think you would be pleased that I am still doing overtime and trying not to spend money. I bought a picture frame that I am putting all different pictures of you in as it is called memories, in fact the lounge is a shrine to you. As always sending you all my love, I miss you so much, take care my love. Janine.xxx

Hi darling, I received a big pay out and have decided to put most of it away. Today a small tree was planted in the garden in memory of you, I do not need thing to remind me of you as you are always in my thoughts and will forever be in my heart and soul. I am sorry I don't write every night but sometimes I have got into bed, I a, so tired I can't me bothered to get back out, this goes to show how much I miss the help and support that you gave me. As always all my love. Janine xxx

HI darling, thank you. All my love Janine. xxx

Hi darling, it looks like we are going to get a payout from your pension, I will treat your family when I am out there. Ireland are doing ok in the euro's at the moment they are beating France. Thank you for still keeping an eye on me it means the world. As always I am sending you all my love and kisses. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are keeping ok. I have put some nice flowers on your shrine in the living room and have also made a start on your shrine in the garden. Some days I don't write anything but I might be doing something for you but if not you are always in my thoughts and I am always talking about you. Love as always Janine.xxx

Hi darling, I have been trying to get things sorted ready for when I come over to see you, it will be nice to feel closer to you. I am getting a bit tearful thinking about it. I am watching Ireland playing football they have been the better team oh they have scored, I hope you can celebrate with a Guinness. As always my sweet I send you all my love. Janine.xxx

Hi darling, I have just finished work and now I am going out with Pat so should have a laugh. I want you to know not a day passes when I don't think of the love I shared with you and how lucky I was to have a husband as great as you, I will always love you. All my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, I have been very busy with work and the house so I haven't written much but you are always in my thoughts and I am often speaking of you. I don't have much to tell you as I have been either at work or at home. Love you with all my heart as always, Janine. xxx

Hi darling, 9 months since I had the pleasure of sharing your life I can't put into words how much I hate being here without you. I am sitting here crying because the pain never seems to ease. As always all my love Janie. xxx

Hi darling, feeling down today, I need you here with me. I will never get back to the way I was with you. I loved and love you with all my heart and soul. Please come and take me back with you so we can look after each other as we did before. Take my love Janine. xxx

Hello darling, had a nice day with old friends, but life without you will never be the same. Love you with all my heart, take care. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, thank you for your signs they mean the world to me,as you do.I have finally got someone to tidy the bathroom up. I hope you are keeping well. Life here without you is so very different, although the days come and go I still pine for you, I miss you so very much. You gave me such a happy marriage it makes it harder to adjust to you not being around. As always all my love Janine. xxx

Hi darling, sorry I have not written but I have been coming home from work and just crashing. I am still finding life without you very hard so I just plough myself into work, Love you more every day, take care my sweet. Janine xxx

Hi darling, really missed you today, nothing to tell you as i've only been to work. Sending you love as always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, love and adore you more every day.. All my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling. love you aways Janine. xxx

Hi darling, nothing to tell you as I have been to work then home. Love you as much to day as I did when I first fell in love with you. Always in my heart and in my thoughts. Sending you all my love as always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling hope you are well, I have spoken about you a lot today, I tend to speak about you every day but sometimes you come up in conversation all the time.I sitting here wishing I was talking to you in the flesh other than writing to you.. Love you with all my heart and soul. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, miss you so very much, it does bot get any easier, living without you is terrible I love you so much, Sleep tight my angel. All my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, finished work and need to go to bed. Love you so much every day of my life.. Sweet dreans, Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope youare well, nothing to say today except I love and miss you more than anything, sending you all my love as always Janine xxx

Hi darling, hope you are well. Not much to say as I have been to work and stayed in as I need to loose some weight. Love you so much and miss you every day, can't wait till I am back with you. All my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, I have been so busy this week I have not been in contact as much as I should have although I have spoken to you every day as I have done every day since you were taken from me. You will always be with me as I carry you in my heart at all times. I love you as much today as I did when I first fell in love with you. Take care my darling, love always Janine. xxx

Hi darling I found your other sign the other day, I feel so happy that you listen to me when I speak to you and I think you understand how lonely I am without you. Sorry I have not written for a few days but I have been so shattered with getting up so early for work then doing nights and back on an early shift my body did not no if it should be sleeping, getting up or going to bed. As always I love you with all my heart and always will. Take care darling Janine. xxx

Hi darling nothing to report today as i have not seen anyone, Love and miss you, all my love as always, Janine, xxxx

Hi darling, I saw your sign today and it made feel very happy and safe, I was over the moon to know that you are still with me what ever I do. I loved and love you so much words can't describe. Take care my love and I will talk to you later All my love as always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling hope you are well. I have been sorting out the bills and paperwork since I got home from work and general a general tidy up to keep on top of things. miss you like crazy at the moment, well I have felt like this since you were taken from me. Sending you all my love as always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are keeping well. I have asked for more work today which will take me out of the switchboard for a while when I train and then I can do overtime outside of the switchboard. I have quiet a bit to pay out as the care tax and MOT are due, I am having the bathroom decorated and coming out to Ireland to see you so I had better get my passport sorted. Its that time of year when the seeds have to be sown so I will be getting on with that but once the plants are in and your memorial tree I am sure you will approve. Miss you as much today as I have done every day since you were taken from me, I love you just as much as I did when I first fell in love with you, take care my love and please don't forget me. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, nothing to report today except I love you with all my heart and always will. Take care my love Janine.xxx

Hi darling, hope you are well. I have had a good day with Pat and Julie although I felt rough first thing. I have not got much to say so I am going to bed and will think of you till I drop off. Love you with all my heart. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are well, I think you may be keeping well as I also think our God would except you and make you welcome, unfortunately I am here wishing I could do everything he is doing for you. Love you till the day I die.. All my love as always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, I have started on your memorial tree in the front garden when it's finished I think you will like it. I have nothing much to tell you except I love you with all my heart now and always Janine. xxxx

Hi darling, not much to report as I have been at work, same old thing. I am having the garden prepared tomorrow getting ready to plant a tree called the Red Robin in memory of you, it looks really nice when the sun shines on it as it has deep red leaves. Love and miss you so very much, take care my lovely. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, getting ready to go to work, the shift I hate 2-10. I am still feeling very down, lm not sure why as i miss you every day but it just seems worse at the moment. Them two next door are still playing up so I have decided to cut ties with them completely. Take care my sweetheart, sending you all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, another day without you but I did get your sign and I thank you as it makes me feel close to you, I wish I could get closer so that I could touch you and tell you how much I love you. I wish I could give you a massive hug and kiss and laugh as we used to. I was talking to a lady at work today, she lost her husband 18 years ago and she still gets upset so I don;t think it will ever get easier, sometimes I don't want it too because I need to love and care for you so much. Sending you all my love hugs and kisses as always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, I hope you are well. I spoke about you alot today with a woman I had never worked with before, showed her some photos of you, she said you looked a nive and very smart man. She got that right.She also showed me a picture of a robin, not sure if this is your sign, please let me know the best way you can. I have just started crying, I feel so lonely without you, I thought working would take it away but hasn't. When I get home I just sit here thinking of you and how much I have lost, you are my world, I hate this life now. Looking forward to seeing you all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, just the same to report, work, sleep, and think of you. Thinking about you is the normal part of my day, I can,t understand how I am living without you, having said that I am trying to keep part of you living in my actions but at the moment I am struggling to be as calm and collected as you always are. Love you sweetheart. Janine. xxxx

Hi darling, nothing to report, just work and sleep, Love and miss you more every day. All my love as always. Janine, xxx

Hi darling, hope you are keeping well. I hope you are happy with the amount of work I am doing, although I am very tired, its all the different shifts. I don't have anything to report as always working. Please could you show me a sign, should I just forget what Julie did and let her carry on upsetting people or do I still let her know, if you want me to forget it show me a robin, if not show me some coins in a place I would not expect to find them. All my love as always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, not much to say as working nights getting up and going to work Love you with all my heart and soul, miss you to the moon and back. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are ok. I went to London yesterday and saw a show, it was really good, some of the songs reminded me of you. I haven't got much to say except I love you so very much, take care. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are keeping well. Last day for two days then I have a heavy week, 3 nights followed by 3 earlies, I know thats the only way to get things back to the way you like it. Everything I do is for you, I am trying to live my life how it would have been had you still have been with me, the only thing missing is you the only thing I lived for. Love you always, sending you hugs and kisses, Janine. xxx

Hi darling, I was so tired last night I went to bed without writing to you, I miss some days but last night all I wanted to do was sleep. Trying to get things into order to come over to see you, Celia is having a mass said for you. I love you so very much and miss you every day, take care honey. Janine. xxx

Hello darling, Mornings are lighter now and so are the evenings, I am told I will find it easier to cope without you now, its not happening. we would have gone out for the day or would have been in the garden. People are different and we had such a good marriage it's hard to put that to one side and just have good memories. Wishing I was with you to love and care for you All my love Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are ok, I am alright just really missing you. I seem to go down hill on days that I don't work but I will just have to try and work something out. Please stay with me, no one could ever match you, I don't think I would ever give anybody the chance. Love you now and always. Janine. xxx

Love you and would die for you my darling. Emotional today. Love always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are taking care of yourself, wish I was still looking after you. Good news I now have full time hours so now I can concentrate on getting the savings back in the pot. I miss you so very much, all the silly little things we did are such big things to me now, I thought the pain would get easier and I tell people it will but it doesn't it seems to get worse. My life with you was just perfect and I didn't see it until I lost you. you are and always will be in my heart, I love you so very much. Take care my sweet. Janine. xxx